'Tears shed with clenched teeth are understood as an accurate look at reality.'
by_Lee Sae-ah
ep.08
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With weary steps, Yoon Yeo-ju slowly, very, very slowly, climbed the stairs. Yoon Yeo-ju felt it. Everything was over. Utopia, paradise, never existed in the first place. She believed it was possible. She longed for it so desperately, so desperately. But 1% hope couldn't overcome 99% failure.
In the end, Yoon Yeo-ju was pushed by her own hand and plunged into the depths of the sea. She was powerless. She couldn't create a utopia, a paradise, or protect anyone. Where did the problem begin? Or perhaps it was a flawed start. Ultimately, neither God nor the devil were on her side.
It's both funny and pathetic. Perhaps Yoon Yeo-ju's belief that hard work never betrays her hasn't actually been broken. Wasn't it Yoon Yeo-ju who, while believing she could survive without effort, actually worked the hardest? Even if hard work doesn't save everything, she felt like it might save her this time.
But as always, effort didn't save everything.
Perhaps she was dreaming a long dream? Someone once said that dreams represent ideals one wishes to realize. No, that couldn't be true. If that were the case, Yoon Yeo-ju wouldn't be on the rooftop, preparing to become one with the world, and the four of them wouldn't be covered in blood.
Ultimately, Yoon Yeo-ju's life was a tragedy. Perhaps it was destined from the beginning. If you were to ask why Yoon Yeo-ju's life was always so unhappy, I would say it was because her ending was always destined to be tragic. No matter how much I struggled, I couldn't change her life.
In the end, Yoon Yeo-ju chose to fall with her own hands. Like a flightless bird, she leaped over the edge without anyone's intervention. As she fell, old memories raced past her. It was like a kaleidoscope. They say kaleidoscopes are about finding a way to live, but in Yoon Yeo-ju's life, there was no such thing as a way to live.
Perhaps the desire to create a utopia was too great for Yoon Yeo-ju. But strangely, she felt no regrets. Perhaps it was because she had struggled to the very end. She desperately hoped. That the four of them would never meet such a miserable end. And so, she closed her eyes without a trace of pain.
*****
How much time has passed? Two years have already passed since Yoon Yeo-ju became one with the world. In those two years, the world has changed, both big and small. Of course, it hasn't become a utopia or a paradise. Or, does a place called utopia even exist in the first place?
The four of them were slowly moving forward. Perhaps the time that had stood still that day was slowly flowing. The four of them went to see Yoon Yeo-ju after a long time. They had summoned up the courage to visit the place they had avoided with all sorts of excuses after two years. The four of them sat down cautiously and spoke.
"I guess it was a natural outcome. Life is all about money, talent, and power."
"Don't you regret making that choice?"
"What if he leaves like that? What are we supposed to do?"
"The world has changed a lot. Maybe it's changing little by little for us?"
The four people spoke, holding back tears. Yoon Yeo-ju sat quietly beside them. No one could see her, but they could sense that she was present in this room. Silence flowed for a moment. Was she holding back tears, or was she lost in deep thought? I couldn't tell, but the silence felt good.
If they asked her if she regretted it, Yoon Yeo-ju had nothing to say. Nothing really came to mind, and her final moments were strangely comfortable and painless. So, she couldn't say whether she was regretting it or genuinely happy.
Perhaps these four people were agents of misfortune for Yoon Yeo-ju. She had fallen into the delusion that meeting them would save her and change her, ultimately becoming one with the world under her own control. Perhaps Yoon Yeo-ju wanted to believe that this misfortune wasn't her fault.
Perhaps Yoon Yeo-ju's decision to hold their hands wasn't a self-justification move. She knew from the beginning: utopia doesn't exist, and it's impossible to create one. That's why she took their hands.
Yoon Yeo-ju was a more selfish person than she, or the four of them, thought. The four of them were no different. Yoon Yeo-ju wanted to believe that all the misfortunes she had endured up to this point weren't her fault, and the four of them were simply reaching out for their own comfort.
In the end, the five were selfish to the end and made the choices they wanted.
That's why the five couldn't hate or resent each other now. After all, it was their own choice, and their selfish choices had led to this situation. But even if that weren't the case, the five wouldn't have been able to hate or resent each other.
Because the five of them had already given each other more than they could have imagined. Because they had already relied on and relied on each other far more than they could have imagined, far more than they could have imagined. The reason Yoon Yeo-ju's fall, which they had thought would be heavy, became lighter was because they had met the four of them, and the reason time could flow again for the four of them was because they had come to meet Yoon Yeo-ju.
The world doesn't change. No matter what they do, with their lack of money, talent, or power, it won't change, even if they die. No, there's no such thing as a utopia in the first place. That's why the four of them are trying to gradually acclimate themselves to a world that's changing.
Someone asked Yoon Yeo-ju earlier if she regretted it. She doesn't. Of course, she didn't make that choice out of genuine desire. In that moment, she couldn't think rationally, so emotions and impulses dominated her. Perhaps, even on the brink of death, she struggled to survive. But despite all this, she doesn't regret it.
One time The crack is Yoon Yeo-joo's The world Shake it.But Yoon Yeo-ju's world, shaken by a single crack, could never be so peaceful and comfortable. Yoon Yeo-ju had finally found her own paradise. Yoon Yeo-ju found the paradise she so desperately longed for with a single crack.
"We're going to go now."
"Goodbye, heroine."
"I'll come again"
"Hello, Yoon Yeo-ju."
"Hello, guys."
and
"Hello, my paradise"