I haven't heard much from Seokjin Kim today. He used to text me every few hours, but unlike usual, he doesn't text me as much.
My phone, which always rang, became quiet, and I even felt a little bored. I received three text messages from Seokjin Kim today, and the time was 8 PM. It had been an hour since I last stared at my phone, which had been silent.
I wasn't really curious about what he was doing. I was just waiting for a text. I thought to myself, "I guess he's trying to disappear too," and stopped staring at my phone.
About 30 minutes later, the cell phone on the table rings loudly.
The caller was Kim Seok-jin. I picked up the phone and put it to my ear. All I could hear was a strange club song and people talking. Was he going to a club?
"hello?"
"Hello, are you Kim Seok-jin's girlfriend?"
"Yes, that's right."
"Could you please come this way? Seokjin is drunk right now."
"Oh, yes. Please print out the address and send it to me via text."
A few minutes later, I get a text, and as expected, it's a club. I get dressed, head outside, get in my car, which I haven't seen in a long time, and head to the address in the text.
***
The loud noises were piercing my ears. I never really liked the club before, so I rarely went there. I never imagined I'd go there because of Kim Seokjin.
"They even reserved a room for you."
When you enter the room number written on the text, you will see Kim Seok-jin, drunk.
"Oh, you're here?"
"Yes, I will take Seokjin with me."
"Yes, yes, take care."
Kim Seok-jin, who was looking at me with his eyes wide open, seemed to be heavily intoxicated.
"wake up"
He was standing up, gathering his things in a heap, and the way he looked so precarious seemed a bit precarious, so I helped him along a little, but he said, "Don't touch me." When I told him not to touch, Kim Seok-jin just staggered along, so I walked him away from the noisy club and all the way to his car.
I opened the car door and watched Seokjin Kim get in before I got in too. I put on my seatbelt and glanced at Seokjin Kim. He was just staring straight ahead with a blank expression. What the heck, is he mad at me?
He says, putting on his seat belt.
"Are you mad at me or something?"
Kim Seok-jin kept his mouth shut and looked straight ahead until he started the car and grabbed the steering wheel. Was he still angry because I didn't contact him last time?
I put my arms on the steering wheel and stare at Kim Seok-jin. Only then does he look at me.
"Do you love me?"
It was an unexpected question. Love, a sweet yet bitter feeling I'd never felt from you. Other lovers would have answered without hesitation, but I was different. I paused for a moment before speaking.
"Yeah, I love you."
"But it doesn't look like that to me."
"Why are you doing this?"
"I like you so much, but it makes me sad that you don't seem to like me."
"...sorry"
I never felt sorry for not loving him. But why was I feeling that way now? The car, once filled with the scent of perfume, was gradually becoming filled with the smell of alcohol. As I started the car, he looked away from me, leaned back in his seat, and closed his eyes.
Only after arriving at Kim Seokjin's house did I wake him up with a tap on the arm. Watching him frown slightly and fall back to sleep, I pondered, "What should I do?" I didn't even know his house password. I'd been there a few times, but there was no way I could memorize a number I hadn't particularly noticed.
I had no choice but to sigh and start the car again.
***
I arrived, but I looked closely at Kim Seok-jin's face, wondering how I was going to carry this man who was almost twice my size. He was definitely more handsome than my ex-boyfriends. He was even affectionate.
"Wake up"
I sigh as I look at him who doesn't wake up no matter how much I shake him. I get out of the car, open the passenger door, and move closer to unbuckle his seatbelt. The scent of Kim Seokjin's perfume wafts through the alcohol.
I unbuckled his seatbelt and shook him again, but he just tossed and turned without getting up. I had no choice but to tug on his arm and force him to get up, and he blinked his eyes and hugged me. I struggled to close the car door and lock it, and walked towards the house, one step at a time.
"Please walk properly."
He comes into the house, quietly lays her down on the floor, and takes off her shoes. Still, he's my boyfriend, so it seems a bit odd to leave her on the floor.
I took him to the sofa, laid him down, and wiped the sweat that had formed on his forehead. I took his clothes and went to take a shower to get rid of the unpleasant feeling of sweat.
I felt a little better as I was splashed with water that was neither hot nor cold. After washing my face thoroughly, getting dressed, and leaving the bathroom, the cold night air touched my body. I shivered as a goosebumps appeared on my skin.
I wrapped my dripping hair in a towel and approached Kim Seok-jin. I brought the blanket from the room and covered him as he slept without a care in the world.
"Ha, what am I doing because of you?"
I went back into my room, plugged in the hair dryer, and dried my hair thoroughly. After drying my hair for a while, someone's hand took the hair dryer away. I knew it was Kim Seokjin without even looking, so I just left it there.
The scent of alcohol and his scent that I could smell faintly from his hands as he carefully dried my hair felt strangely good.
"I've stopped everything"
A voice that feels very affectionate reaches my ears.
"Go wash up, you smell like alcohol."
His face in the mirror smiled awkwardly as he entered the bathroom. I took out a few of his clothes from the closet, held them in my arms, and sent him into the bathroom. Ten minutes later, he came out dripping wet, just like I had before.
"Should I dry your hair?"
"okay"
Kim Seok-jin looks quite excited as he enters the room with a smile. I follow him with a chuckle, and he is already sitting on a chair waiting for me.
I grab the hair dryer and start drying his hair. It feels like it's been a long time since I smelled the same scent on his body as I do.
Maybe it was because his hair was short, but it dried much faster than mine. I stroked his dry, fluffy hair a few times and then put the dryer away. Kim Seok-jin was smiling brightly, wondering what was so good about it.
"Give me a kiss"
I give a short kiss to Kim Seok-jin who is talking to me while sticking out his lips, and he smiles even brighter than before. I chuckle and go to the bed to lie down, and he lies down with me and hugs me.
"It's been a while since we slept together."
"I know"
I looked at his face as he kissed my forehead and closed his eyes, and then I locked eyes with him. Strangely, the kiss he gave me felt sweet.
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Why does it always seem like the articles end with me sleeping...
Please forgive me for not being able to finish it😭