You have to think about age and personality too.
It’s just hard, plain and simple.
I’d rather take a math test, honestly. Getting 100 on English seems way easier than love. That saying that love is the easiest thing in the world? I will never believe it. I don’t think I’ve found anything harder than love in my life yet.
It’s pathetic that, at 29, I’m getting shaken up by a 19-year-old. I’m definitely a tutor, but I keep forgetting that. In the past, he was just the older boy from the same neighborhood. Now it stings my conscience. (very) But… what am I supposed to do when my heart keeps racing and my eyes keep drifting that way?
Maybe it all started going wrong the moment Bami moved next door. Or maybe it’s just that I went and met again someone I’d only ever run into once in a lifetime—the neighborhood older boy and younger kid from when we were little. Makes me wonder if I moved here for nothing.
These days, Kim Dong-hyeon. That guy keeps getting more and more annoying. Being close to someone and finding them annoying are separate things. It’s like Bami likes him..
And the biggest problem of all, Bami. I think this kid is starting to notice. He avoids my eyes and sometimes stumbles over his words. And whenever I wonder if he somehow realized that I like him and that’s why I’ve gotten awkward, that prickling feeling in my heart keeps stabbing through my whole body.
..This is why love is hard.
