Season 3_Jang Ma-eum, an orphan with a family of 13

#48_I came here to do what I wanted to do

“Oh, but I have a schedule today.”

"schedule…?"

“We kept it a secret until the filming.

Or else my brothers would get really excited.”

At my words, Seungcheol sighed deeply. He was the only member who knew about my audition.

“It’s a drama shoot. I auditioned last time,

“I heard that the script reading was done.”

"What? Did you know, hyung? That the heart acts?"

Chan-i put his hand on Seung-cheol's shoulder and shook him violently back and forth.


If it were normal, Seungcheol would have been able to push Chani away, but perhaps because of what he had done, he was not resisting Chani's touch.

“What drama is this…?”

Jeonghan asked if he really wanted to send it.

Well, it's your first birthday with someone special, and you probably didn't want to miss it because of your schedule. But oppa, this is the schedule I've really been waiting for.

Fight My Way

“Which actors are appearing?”

Seokmin asked me in a calm tone, as if he had calmed down.

“Seniors Park Seo-joon, Kim Ji-won, Song Ha-yoon, and Ahn Jae-hong”

“Then what is your role?”

Sunyoung answered her brother's question with a smile. I felt good because his interest in my work felt like it was his interest in me.

“The role of senior Park Seo-joon’s younger sister.”

When I answered without hesitation, Min-gyu sighed and nodded. He must have thought I was lying.

“There’s really nothing you can’t do.”

“It’s not that there’s nothing you can’t do, it’s that effort supports you.

Of course, there are some areas where genius is evident.”

Min-gyu shook his head at my answer, as if he was fed up with it. It was as if he was wondering what kind of kid this was.

“Then what about your clothes? Have you memorized the script?

Does the company know?

What time will the manager pick me up?

Are you stopping by the shop?

“It’s your first shoot, aren’t you nervous?”

Sunyoung sighed softly at her brother's storm of questions and began answering them one by one.

“The clothes are from the drama manager.

The script has already been chewed over,

It was a schedule I got from the company.

Seok-woo oppa, it's 10:30 now, so he'll be here soon.

"I'll probably stop by the shop. I'm really nervous because it's my first shoot."

Sunyoung nodded with a sigh of relief, as if she was satisfied with my answer.

“I’ll be back!”

“You’re a little late, my actor.”

It was Seok-woo's words as soon as I got into the car. I didn't even hear the first words, but his sweet voice, telling me to be my wife, pierced my heart.

“B, I’m not an actor yet.”

“You’re already a top actor to me?”

His handsome face that leaves me speechless, his sweet voice that takes my breath away, and his attitude toward me that makes my heart stop.


It was strange not to fall in love. He seemed to treat me like a celebrity, but before I knew it, I was trembling with him.

“…I’m so nervous”

“It’s because it’s your first time. I’m sure you’ll do well, as always.

“Don’t push yourself too hard.”

“It’s become a habit to look at the camera every time

I'm not sure if you can do it, oppa.

I'm really nervous"

“You think that way for no reason? You can do it.

Oppa, I believe in your heart.”

If Seok-woo had been sitting next to me, he would have already patted my head. It's just that he was in the driver's seat, so he couldn't.

“Don’t say those words with those eyes.

I’m really excited…”

“I’m excited, my actor.”

“Oh really, oppa…!”

That face must have made many women cry.
…with good intentions, of course.

“Oh, but I heard you took the bus to go to your college interview…”

“Yeah. I feel bad calling you oppa.

“It’s too personal.”

“From now on, you can call me for personal matters too.

“I’m watching your work at the company anyway.”

“What if it’s a day off?”

I appreciated his offer, but I didn't want to bother him unnecessarily. Even though he was my manager, he was just a manager. He was human, too.

“Then I will contact you separately.

So from now on, don't go out alone.

If people recognize you and rush at you, you're helpless.

“We need a country too.”

I agree with him a hundred percent. Even though no one recognizes him yet, if he continues to appear in dramas and release albums, unless he completely fails, more and more people will recognize him.

“Thank you, oppa.”

"It's my job. You don't have to do that."

He was a really sweet and affectionate older brother until the very end.

“There she comes, my sister.”

As I got out of the car and headed to the filming location, I heard senior Seojun's calm voice from afar.

“HEARTBEAT Hello, this is Jang Ma-eum!”

I felt like I couldn't do it because my hands and feet were shaking when I greeted them in my own way. I'll have to avoid doing it again.

“Nice to meet you, Ma-eum Yang.”

Senior Song Ha-yoon's soft voice seemed to penetrate the cream. Before I knew it, I was smiling brightly and answering.

“Is this your first time acting?”

Senior Ahn Jae-hong, who looked much more handsome than I'd seen on TV, asked me a question. I moistened my dry lips with saliva and answered.

"yes…"

“Don’t be too nervous. If you’re too nervous, things won’t work out.”

What Senior Jaehong said was something I'd already realized. But hearing it from someone else was far better than thinking it alone.

“Actually, I was a little nervous.

“I never learned it properly…”

“It’s okay, my brother.”

Even though he's just a younger brother in the drama, I started to feel a little less nervous when I saw senior Park Seo-joon telling me that he was my younger brother before filming even started.

“…Please send me lots of maps.”

Seniors Park Seo-joon and other seniors also nodded.


Maybe it was because I was the only newcomer in this drama, but I felt a bit awkward.






Before I knew it, the sun had set and it was getting dark.

Maybe because it was my first time, I kept making mistakes.

There aren't many scenes, but there are dozens of NGs in each scene.


No matter how much I learned, this was something that was harmful to other people.



I feel like I'm going to stay up all night like this
I called Seok-woo, who I had been waiting for.

“Brother…”

“Yeah, mind. What’s wrong?

“Why is your voice so weak, it’s so frustrating…”

I was exhausted, both mentally and physically, but his concern made me feel a little better.

"Honey, do you want to go home first? I'm afraid I'll end up staying up all night."

Seok-woo sighed briefly at my words, as if he was worried about my lack of confidence.

“It’s my job to wait for you.”

“I’m sorry, I can’t, Oppa. I really hate being a bother.

“Just call me later and I’ll come.”

I saw Seok-woo hesitating. It's true that I'm worried, but it's also true that he's doing what he needs to do.

"Are you really okay? I'd rather get off work early, though..."

"Then you should leave work first. Instead, call me and I'll come."

“Haa… Then definitely call me, Ma-eum.”

"Okay, I understand. I'm going home now, Oppa."

After persuading Seok-woo, I was about to hang up the phone when he continued to say sweet things.

"It's your birthday today, right? Happy birthday, Ma-eum."

But why don't I feel happy or laugh when I hear his words?

It's not that I'm too tired to say that, but it's the ability of a precious person to overcome difficulties and be happy.

“Yeah, thanks…”

After I hung up the phone, I let out a long sigh. Apparently, I have no talent for acting.

“My dear junior~”

I turned around at the sound of a cheerful voice and saw senior Kim Ji-won handing me coffee.

“Ah, senior…”

I just wanted to let go of everything and cry, seeing her smiling face as if everything was okay.


I should have learned a little bit about acting before I started. The reason I passed the audition was simply because they wanted the singer Jang Ma-eum, but in reality, it was different.

“It’s hard.”

“It’s not going the way I want it to.”

I drank the coffee my senior had given me, feeling refreshed. The fever I'd been feeling had subsided a little with the iced Americano.


I really wanted to call Seventeen and get some comfort, but my pride wouldn't allow me to do that.

"It's because it's your first time. I was like that at first too."

To be honest, I couldn't believe it, since he was already a top-tier senior. Sensing my presence, Jiwon chuckled and continued.

“I can’t help wanting to do well, but

I hope you can let go of that kind of feeling if possible.”

“What… are you talking about? I don’t quite understand…”

She looked at me with affection, as if she was looking at a cute junior, and then said.

“You did it because you wanted to, right?

Then I think you came here to do what you want to do.

“Let’s give up on the idea of ​​doing work or anything.”

I smiled faintly, thinking I understood a little bit what he meant.

“That feeling of wanting to do well,

I think you're harassing your junior.

I can do much better.

I think I'll just go and have fun today.

If it doesn't work out, we can just take it again tomorrow."

Her words gave me strength even though they had nothing to do with acting. They were just for me, Jang Ma-eum, not for the actor Jang Ma-eum.

“Thank you, senior.”

I bit my lip, feeling like I was about to burst into tears, and I couldn't control myself. He pushed me a little harder. Perhaps he noticed, but my senior smiled sadly and said,

“Don’t do that, you’ll get hurt.”

“Or, I feel like I’m going to cry…”

“Even if you don’t push, tears will fall

He seemed like a person who could endure, but our hearts”

She called me by my name, not "junior." For a moment, something warm and poignant seemed to surge out, ready to burst forth.

“Next time I see you, call me unnie.

You can call me unnie from now on.

“Oh, is it because of the big age difference that I have no conscience?”

I shook my head from side to side at her playful words.

“No, thank you, Sister.”

Sister Jiwon smiled and stroked my head.

“Then get ready to film again.”

I nodded in response. She too stood up and headed toward the set. Even that looked cool.