"I'm sorry. I can't give it to you."
"Ah… yes.."
I tried to get your number in front of the cafe, but failed. That was the end. No, I thought it was the end. Until I met you there.
On a spring day when cherry blossoms were in bloom, I became a sophomore in college. You were a freshman in our department, and so I thought we were destined.
Because, our meeting didn't end at the cafe, it continued.
I've been following you ever since, stealthily, without you knowing.
There were many times when I felt sad following you around. Every time I saw you hanging out with girls in my grade, I felt suffocated. The fact that those girls could only see your front while I could only see your back made me so angry and sad.
But I held on. Because I could see you, because the seat next to you was empty, because there was a possibility.
But that thought didn't last long for a few weeks.
____
As always, I was following you. You suddenly looked around and soon there was
"Jimin!"
A cute girl running towards you, calling your name
"Sister!"
Until then, there was only you, hugging her with a smile I had never seen before, and me, watching it with difficulty.
Everything about me crumbled. My hopes were shattered. I even threw away my sophomore year grades to look only to you...
Perhaps I was being too greedy? Was it not right to even hope for a seat next to you? No, I suppose so. I shouldn't have expected to make you mine.
I thought that if I followed you any longer, my mental strength would not be able to withstand it, so I gave up following you after that day.
That doesn't mean I gave up on you. No, I couldn't. Whenever I felt like giving up, you were there, smiling in front of me. You weren't talking to me, but just seeing you smile made me postpone giving up on you.
After that, stories about you started going around.
"Hey! Jimin has a girlfriend!"
That day, I saw a woman and heard about your love story. My heart ached so much that it felt like it was going to burst.
Should I really let you go now? I still like you this much.
I've decided to give up. Even if I'm trash, I won't mess with someone who has a master.
I chose to take a break from school to give up on you. I thought there was no better option.
The saying that when the body grows distant, the heart grows distant too was true, and as I took a leave of absence from school and worked part-time, I naturally started thinking about Jimin less.
After about a year, my feelings for you had completely faded to the point where I thought, "I've completely forgotten you." Then I went back to school.
I tried everything to avoid seeing you. Fortunately, we didn't meet for about two months.
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I was working part-time at the cafe again today. As always, there was no one there except for the regular customers who came at the same time.
Tiring
"Welcome..yo.."
It was Jimin. He was with the woman he'd seen before. But what was different this time was that the woman was looking at her phone... and Jimin was looking at her?
"I'll order over there."
"Ah..! Yes!"
"What would you like to do with it?"
I must have been so absorbed in observing Jimin and her that I didn't even realize it. She ordered an Americano, and Jimin ordered a vanilla latte.
"Sister, are you going to keep looking at your phone?"
Maybe because there was no one in the cafe, Jimin's words could be heard all the way to the counter.
"uh."
"Can you please look at me?"
"I'm busy right now"
"But I still came out to see you. Isn't that enough?"
"Why do you keep whining? It's so annoying."
"sorry.."
My mouth was wide open in shock. What the hell was going on? Surely these two were in love...
Jimin looked like a slumped puppy right now. In contrast, her appearance...
"Sorry, sorry... sorry!"
"Stop saying sorry."
"I'm really sick of this. Let's just stop. Just."
"Huh? Sister... Sister!!"
After finishing her words, she stood up and walked out of the store. Jimin, perhaps shocked by the sudden separation, stood there dazed for a moment before bursting into tears.
I quietly placed the tissue next to Jimin. He must have sensed my presence.Huh-Then he said thank you and greeted me.
Tiring
The text I've been waiting for has arrived.
[Im Soo-hyun]
You saw it. We broke up.
Please deposit the money
all right.
Jimin is mine again.