A collection of short stories about Baekhyun Byun

Song that can't be heard

Right now, he's singing in front of me. But I can't hear him. Because, as soon as he starts singing, my ears start ringing.

So, I've never heard him sing in his voice as a singer. He still doesn't know that I have tinnitus.

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"What do you think? It's our group's new song. Do you think it's good?"

I just couldn't hear the song. When the other person was just talking, I listened and talked without any problem. Since I hadn't heard the song, I couldn't judge whether it was good or bad. But until now, even though I hadn't heard his song, my response was always the same.

나

"Yeah^^, I really like it."

Since I have tinnitus, I can't tell them not to do it since they won't be able to hear me anyway, and since it's not good to say it's bad if you can't hear me, I always just say this and let it go.

It was like this until now. But now I can't even hear what the other person is saying. If the person I like finds out I have tinnitus and haven't been able to listen to his songs, I'll be caught lying.

I knew it would hurt a lot if it was found out. So, to avoid being found out, we don't even meet often these days. Then, I got a text from Baekhyun.

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Meet now

나

no

변백현

Why do you keep avoiding me?

나

I'm not avoiding it.

변백현

Then meet me, I'm in front of your house

I felt like I couldn't avoid seeing him, so I opened the curtains slightly and poked my head out to look at him, since he said he was avoiding me. He said "in front of my house." I was actually in front of his house. I walked out to where he was and stood in front of him.

나

"What's going on?"

Again, the beeping starts again. After the beeping, the other person's voice disappears. To avoid being caught, I have to carefully watch his lips before answering. So I fixated my gaze on his mouth.

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"Why do you keep avoiding me? You feel insecure because I avoid you. Do you hate me now?"

Oh, I'm going crazy. He didn't even look away from my mouth or blink, so I don't understand a word he's saying. What? What are you talking about? I answered based on what we just talked about.

나

"I didn't avoid you, I just didn't want to see you."

There couldn't have been a better excuse. It was the best I could do.

나

"Why? Do you have another man?..."

If we stay together any longer, you'll find out I can't hear you.

나

"So now, I'll go."

Please let me hear your voice quickly. It felt like hundreds of years since I last heard his voice.

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"What, why aren't you answering me? Do you really have another man?"

I can see him moving his mouth right before my eyes as he stops me from turning around and speaks. I honestly can't understand a single word he says.

나

"I don't hate you, I just want you to know that..."

This woman is saying something different from what I'm saying right now. By any chance, no way.

변백현

"Can't you hear me now?"

He wasn't just ignoring me. He was saying something completely different. I thought maybe he couldn't hear me, so I asked if he couldn't hear me.

Because of this feeling of not being able to hear and not being able to respond because I don't know what he's saying, tears welled up in my heart. Finally, tears welled up in front of my eyes. I turned my head away to hide my tears in front of him and spoke.

나

"It's late, go home and call me."

I really can't hear a thing. It was a while after we started dating, when he first sang in front of me, and from then on, I couldn't hear anything but the song. But now, I keep thinking that maybe I can't hear not only the song, but even the voice, and I start to cry.

Lately, I've been feeling a little scared because she keeps avoiding me, so I turned her head and pulled her to look at me. But... she was crying when she looked at me.

변백현

"oo... why are you crying? Can't you really hear me?"

I couldn't lie to him anymore. He caught me crying, and I was sure I was saying something different to him. So I was about to speak, but he made a sad expression and pulled me into a hug.

I had a feeling he must have known I couldn't hear him and was hugging me. That's why my heart ached even more. That pain made me cry uncontrollably.

나

"I can't hear you, what should I do? I tried my best not to let you hear me, but why did you come? I had a really hard time, but it's all ruined because of you."

A sobbing sound was heard along with a voice that seemed to be struggling to breathe.

Just once, just this once, let me hear it... please. I begged desperately in my heart. Was my wish granted? I could hear all sorts of noises outside, and Baekhyun sobbing.

The emotions of shock and sadness vanished as if erased with an eraser, and the tears stopped flowing. I decided I should speak now that I could hear him, so I pulled away from his body and tried to face him, but my body wouldn't let go of the arm wrapped around me.

The arms that held me tightened and tightened. It ended up hurting him.

나

"Baekhyun, I can hear you now. I'm sorry. I've lied to you so many times."

Perhaps relieved by the words, "I can hear you," the arms around me loosened their grip, and I pulled away from him to look at his face. Tears welled up in his eyes as he gazed at me. I wiped the tears from his eyes and spoke.

나

"Don't cry, why are you crying?"

I wiped the tears streaming down my cheeks and smiled. Seeing him, my heart seemed to become more honest. I placed a hand on each cheek, looked straight at him, and spoke.

나

"You've sung in front of me so many times, but I've never heard you? I thought it would be nice if I could only hear your songs... But now I can't even hear your voice... I can't live like this, right?

나

How can I live when I can't even talk to you? I'm sorry for lying to you until now. Should we break up now?

I spoke with a smile, trying to break up as amicably as possible without hurting her feelings.

I can't break up with you, who pretends nothing's wrong when you're looking at me like you're sadder. I grabbed her hands that were holding my cheeks.

His hand, grasping my wrist, moved right up to my face. And the soft touch of his lips against mine. It felt like everything was contained in that brief kiss. And then, our lips parted. And then, he whispered before me.

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"Even if you can't hear me, even if you lie for me, I still like you. I will never break up with you."

But you haven't heard my songs until now... I sang them all for you, and my heart for you, but it's so sad that they didn't reach you. Has my song truly become a song you can't hear? Then who should I sing for? If you can't hear it...

Sing a song for you, if you keep singing, won't it reach me someday?

A few months later, while I was walking around town, I heard a familiar voice singing. From that day on, I was steadily receiving treatment for my tinnitus, and it was slowly improving. Finally, I heard his voice from overseas. Seriously, even though we hadn't seen each other for years, I was deeply moved by hearing his song for the first time.

나

"Finally, I got it^^ Your song."

It was so good that the corners of her lips rose to her temples and tears flowed from her smiling eyes.

Even now, I will sing to you on this stage, so that you can hear my song.

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Hello~ Yes, I'm that writer... I'm divorced, what more can I add? I'm a bitter writer.. I said this because I thought it would take time for good material to come out anymore, and I can't do it together because I'm busy with the present, so I made a collection to upload short stories when I have time~ I hope you're all doing well?

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Nice to meet you again everyone~ It's a short story so I don't know if many people will watch it but I'm looking forward to it~>< Ah! Don't forget to comment, rate, and subscribe~ Bye bye