Do you want to go out..!?
EP4. I've been waiting for you
Soon the man disappeared behind the operating room door. Being out of sight was unsettling and nerve-wracking, but I had a lot to do, so I pushed my anxiety aside and trudged back to the emergency room.
윤간호사
"Where have you been to be so late!! Come back quickly, quickly!!"
Everyone seemed oblivious to the man who had been in dire straits earlier, and they only looked to me for help. I worked silently as they wished.
That was the end of my day, where no one noticed me for a few hours.
윤간호사
"Yeah, Teacher Yoo!!!"
유여주
"Ugh!!!"
Perhaps because it was the last dressing and he was thinking he could go to the man soon, his hands, which were in perfect alignment, ended up throwing away all the dressing tools he was holding.
소독환자
"Ha...fuck, seriously, what kind of doctor can't even do something as simple as disinfecting and make a mess of it!!!!"
유여주
"Sorry!! Patient, please wipe your pants with this first..."
'Crack!'
My head was already turned by the patient in front of me, whose anger was already seething as I handed him the gauze with trembling hands.
유여주
"Sigh...sob...sorry"
For some reason, I felt more shame than the overwhelming sting on my cheek, as if I were showing the emergency room doctors that my abilities were limited. Tears fell, drop by drop, onto the disinfectant spilled on the floor.
박지민
"Sigh...Patient, that's very rude."
At that moment, I saw someone's feet on the floor where gauze and disinfectant were scattered, and when I looked up, it was Jimin-sunbae.
His face seemed a little angry, and I couldn't help but feel even more anxious because it was the first time I'd seen such a look from my senior, who had always smiled at me.
소독환자
"What? This bitch is the one who did something wrong, but you're being rude?? What the hell are you talking about!?!!!"
The patient still glared at me with eyes that seemed ready to pop out and hurled a torrent of curses at my face.
What is this... It's not like I spilled the disinfectant, it's like I poured hot water on it.
박지민
“Stop it!!!! Our medical staff always puts a lot of effort into the safety and treatment of patients and even respects them!!! But why do we always have to hear that if we make a mistake, we are a bastard, an idiot, or bad at something?”
박지민
"Fuck... Don't make the already shitty medical life even shittier. Just accept the apology and get out."
Jimin-sunbae cried out, his throat bloodshot, as if complaining about how hard his life had been. If I could, I would have cried out in the same way, but I was worried that if things continued like this, both he and I would have to take off our gowns, so I quickly got up and stopped him.
유여주
"Senior, stop...stop it.."
박지민
"...."
There was a brief silence, and I felt like this was my chance, so I bowed my head again to apologize and quickly wrap things up.
유여주
"Patient, I'm really, really sorry...ugh!!"
At that moment, Jimin-sunbae lifted me up from my knees and supported my waist with one hand as I staggered in confusion at the sudden situation.
박지민
"Straighten your back and lift your head. You have no reason to bow down to a kid like this. You don't need to show courtesy to a guy who treats you like a dog."
유여주
"...Sigh...Sigh...Sob..."
The tears I'd been holding back burst out in a single breath at my senior's words. Everyone was right, but no one had ever said or acted on those words. Except for Jimin...
박지민
"Haa... let's go, lady... it's all over now. Let's go to my office for now."
My senior took me to his office, supporting me as I cried nonstop and looked disoriented.
When I arrived at the office, my senior calmed me down while I was still sobbing and sat me down in a chair.
박지민
"Stop crying, you'll ruin your pretty face."
유여주
"Ugh...ugh...sob...senior...what if we get cut off...sigh..."
박지민
"Oh my, you're such a coward."
My senior chuckled, then gently pinched my cheek and spoke. No matter how I looked at him, he was such a kind person. The sight of him suddenly transforming, as if he were truly the real deal, still lingered in my mind.
유여주
"Sigh...sigh...sigh..."
박지민
"You cowardly girl~ Stop crying. You're going to end up with lots of wrinkles because you're young and pretending not to care!?"
유여주
"Phew, what is that?"
My senior, who was trying to stop me from crying, kept spouting nonsense, and I ended up laughing too.
유여주
"Thank you, Senior...for me..."
박지민
"Hey, I didn't do anything special... By the way, is your face okay? It looks swollen."
'Jeeeeeeing'
Just as my senior was about to examine my face, which was red and swollen with a frown, his cell phone rang. When he saw the caller, his frown remained, not relaxing.
박지민
"Ha... It's the manager... I think I should go, Yeoju. Get your face treated properly, okay? I'll check it out later."
유여주
"Okay (smiles). Go quickly. I'll look for the manager."
I remembered the cold expression on the manager's face and gave my senior a look telling him to hurry up and go. He patted my head and said it was okay before heading out of the office.
유여주
"Whoa... I'm tired... My cheeks hurt too."
Strangely, as soon as my senior left, my cheek started to sting, and I remembered that patient I never wanted to remember again.
I don't usually make mistakes like this, so I wondered how I could have become such an idiot who couldn't even handle a minor dressing, as the patient said.
유여주
"You're stupid...you're really stupid..."
유여주
"Why on earth did I make a mistake I never made before... Oh, that's right!!! That guy!!"
As I looked back, regretting my mistake, the thought of that man I had briefly forgotten came to mind.
I ignored my senior's advice to get proper treatment and jumped up and headed outside.
유여주
"Huh...hah...nurse!!!!"
이간호사
"Huh? Mr. Yoo!!! What's wrong!?"
유여주
"Oh, that's not it!! By any chance... Which room is the patient named Jeon Jungkook in right now?? Has he not come out of the recovery room yet..."
이간호사
"Ah..if that's him, he's in room 901!!"
유여주
"thank you!!"
After finding out the man's room at the desk, I headed straight to Room 901. For some reason, I felt nervous.
He calmed me down by saying that if I was in the hospital room, the surgery went well, and if the surgery went well, it meant I was over the hump. Before I knew it, I was in hospital room 901.
At first glance, it seemed like he hadn't regained consciousness, so I lowered my hand from knocking, carefully opened the door, and went inside.
Beep--beep--'
유여주
"..."
Silence flowed between him, who had his eyes closed and was unconscious, and me, who did not speak, breaking the awkward atmosphere where only the mechanical sounds could be heard.
유여주
"Sleep a lot... It might be harder to wake up..."
I wanted to protect his rest time, which seemed very exhausting, so I buried everything else I wanted to say and just said it.
전정국
"...."
He couldn't even answer me, but I felt relieved when I saw the color returning to his pale face and blue lips.
유여주
"...I'm going to go now."
'widely!'
전정국
"Where are you going after coming this late? I waited for you."
Just like a few hours ago, the man grabbed my arm and spoke to me. But something felt different. Unlike before, I felt his grip on my arm tighten, and his voice was powerful.
유여주
"Uh, uh... uh... over there..."
전정국
"I missed you..."
He looked at me as if continuing what he had just said. His unwavering eyes were clearly fixed on me.
In my heart, without even thinking about finding the owner of those words, the sound of his heartbeat, borrowing the mechanical sound, was louder than that of his heartbeat.