Even if I cheat, you don't cheat when you sleep.

#20 You loved me so much

Beep beep beep._

Crash.._

김여주

Are you here?

김여주

You're late

최연준

..oh, yeah

김여주

How about ice cream?

최연준

Ah, here...

The fed handed me some melted, runny ice cream in a black bag.

김여주

?

김여주

What, why is it all melted?

최연준

..uh?

최연준

Ah... I guess it melted on the way here

김여주

It doesn't even take 5 minutes to get to the convenience store. What the...;;

김여주

It's been over two hours since you left?

최연준

Sorry

최연준

I'll go out again and buy it..!

김여주

No, it's okay

김여주

It's late, where are you going?

김여주

Go to sleep quickly

최연준

still..

최연준

He said he wanted to eat it...

최연준

I'll be back soon, really..!

김여주

Oh, that's it~

김여주

I can eat ice cream tomorrow.

김여주

It's late, so let's go in.

김여주

side._

김여주

Let's go to sleep soon~ Okay?

최연준

..huh

What's going on today?

최연준

..huh?

김여주

No, you've had a blank expression on your face since earlier.

최연준

...

Should I say this...

You met your dad..?

...No, later

Let's talk later, it's still too early

최연준

Ugh- tea-

I turned around and hugged the heroine tightly, burying my face in her arms.

최연준

My lady,

최연준

Do you love me?

김여주

huh?

김여주

Of course, I love you lol

최연준

by?

김여주

As much as you love me

최연준

...'snickers'

최연준

I love you so much

김여주

Yeah, right?

최연준

..huh

최연준

Well then, tell me

김여주

word?

최연준

..I love you

김여주

What the heck, why are you so obsessed with love today? LOL

김여주

Hey, what did you see again?

김여주

After watching a romantic movie that leaves a lingering impression, you always say this

최연준

..I haven't seen it--

김여주

What, then

김여주

Then why are you doing that?

김여주

You look cute today

최연준

..ear

최연준

..don't call me cute, you're a woman to me~

김여주

If you're going to say things like 'You're my woman', then shut your mouth lol

최연준

Oh, really

최연준

Honey, I don't have a mood

최연준

Would it be better if I just told you I love you?

김여주

Yeah, I love you

최연준

..

최연준

..who would come in like that

김여주

Yeah, I

최연준

...Huh, look at this shameless thing

최연준

A look that truly shows not an inch of hesitation

김여주

Why, so you don't like it?

최연준

..no,

최연준

..no, okay..haha

김여주

Haha ...

김여주

Oh, really, stop talking now

김여주

now

김여주

You have a schedule for tomorrow too

최연준

huh

김여주

Go to sleep soon~

최연준

Oh, I have one last thing

김여주

what?

최연준

Did you meet Choi Soo-bin today?

김여주

..huh?

김여주

suddenly?

최연준

No, just...what

최연준

He hasn't been in contact with me lately, so

It's a lie though...

Still, something feels uneasy

김여주

ah..

김여주

..I haven't met you!

김여주

You haven't contacted me either?

최연준

...

최연준

...Oh, really?

...what

Why are you lying..?

You two were together while I was out..

What is that..?

Why are you hiding it?

earthly..

Why on earth?

김여주

But why all of a sudden..?

김여주

You're closer to Choi Soo-bin

최연준

I thought Choi Soo-bin was closer to you

최연준

Wasn't it?

김여주

?

김여주

Are you jealous?

김여주

Do you think I stole your friend?

최연준

...Yeah, I'm jealous. I'm jealous.-

...I'm jealous of you and Choi Soo-bin

...

Since that day, you've been going out more and more often at night.

You must have been meeting Choi Soo-bin again

Every time he goes out without telling me, he tells me a blatant lie.

From this point on, our trust began to crumble.

miserably

But you don't seem to notice

Only I, I alone, was sad inside

Did you start to hate me?

Do you still like Choi Soo-bin?

I thought that

Every night without you, those thoughts would dig deeper into me.

however..

I wasn't honest either

I just kept my mouth shut and kept the question to myself, even though I could have just asked you.

Why are you with Choi Soo-bin? Why do you lie to me every night to meet her?

I couldn't ask

Because I was afraid,

I was scared, I was afraid

If you really

I'm afraid I'll tell him I like him

I was scared

If I could hear these words from your own mouth

I really couldn't have endured it..

So I kept avoiding you and pretending not to know all your lies.

But, it seemed like my heart was getting more and more broken.

I keep doubting you

I can no longer tell if all your actions are sincere.

The more I did that, the more I became obsessed with you.

So I wanted to keep confirming your feelings

But I know my way has been wrong for a long time

I felt guilty for a while, but I felt like I would go crazy with anxiety if I didn't do this.

...

but,

This is,,

Even thinking about it now, it was a terrible thing...

최연준

...

등장인물

Woman | Are you here alone?

최연준

Oh, yes.

등장인물

Woman | Oh, I'm alone too~

등장인물

Woman | Can I sit next to you?

최연준

yes

The place I came to was a famous hunting bar

I've been to other clubs around here, but this place is the best for loud music.

The perfect place to get caught by you

...

Ding._

김여주

Hey, Choi Yeonjun.

최연준

...

come

I knew you'd come

When I saw Yeoju, I felt a sense of relief.

김여주

Hey, what are you?

김여주

I told you not to go here

김여주

With some girls next to me

김여주

Is it fun?

최연준

...Would you like a drink too?

김여주

...under,

김여주

Seriously, what's wrong with you these days?

김여주

Why are you suddenly doing something you've never done before?

최연준

Why, I'm an adult. Can't I come to a place like this?

김여주

No, that's not the problem right now.

김여주

Why is a guy with a girlfriend here?

최연준

Why, you didn't do anything

I really didn't do anything.

...I blurted out careless words to you, even though I didn't mean them, because your worried appearance just reassured me.

김여주

Oh, shit...

김여주

Come out quickly, for real

김여주

Go out and talk.

최연준

...

김여주

These days, what's really wrong with you?

최연준

what

김여주

Are you really going to keep doing this?

김여주

What's the problem

최연준

Why are you worried?

김여주

Shit, then you're not worried?

김여주

It's past 2 or 3 in the morning, and my boyfriend doesn't seem to be coming home.

김여주

You don't look worried?

최연준

...

김여주

Ha, okay...

김여주

Stop it, let's go home quickly

김여주

You keep coming to places like this, you'll die that day.

최연준

...

But he doesn't say he wants to break up

...

When you come to me on my wandering days, when you worry about me

I finally find peace

It felt good to feel like he was thinking of me and caring only for me during that time.

Receiving affection, compassion, and love from you felt like a reward for all that had accumulated over time.

So maybe it hurt you more

I hurt you with my careless words and actions, and made you cry.

Just because of my selfishness and lack of desire for your affection

I hurt you

But when Choi Soo-bin's self-esteem and jealousy began to consume me, I was no longer myself.

A monster wrapped up in a misguided lack of affection

like that

Our relationship deteriorated rapidly, and this continued for two years.

And from you I never expected

I received a breakup notice

...

Choi Yeon-jun

김여주

Let's stop this.

최연준

...

My heart sank when I heard from you the words I had never expected.

I didn't know you would do this first

I thought you would only look after me your whole life

Because even though I was always being mean, you gave in first and looked after me.

I'm crazy

I didn't know how precious you were and took you for granted

In the end, this is what came back to me.

I couldn't believe it when I heard you say quit.

He must have just said it in the heat of the moment

doing

...I just wanted to deny it all

Please not

...

But, it didn't seem like that

You seemed to have already made up your mind.

...but,

I can't do that..

I need you

You know...

I am

I can't do it without you...

I just realized now, like an idiot

how much you love me

why...

Did you just find out now...?

What is this, just jealousy and a sense of entitlement?

You loved me so much

...

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It's been a while since I've been here...

It's so hard to write while going to school.. haha

It's okay if you scold me..haha..😥

If possible, please scold me by hand...

It's better...💓