Even if I cheat, you don't cheat when you sleep.
#20 You loved me so much
Beep beep beep._
Crash.._
김여주
Are you here?
김여주
You're late
최연준
..oh, yeah
김여주
How about ice cream?
최연준
Ah, here...
The fed handed me some melted, runny ice cream in a black bag.
김여주
?
김여주
What, why is it all melted?
최연준
..uh?
최연준
Ah... I guess it melted on the way here
김여주
It doesn't even take 5 minutes to get to the convenience store. What the...;;
김여주
It's been over two hours since you left?
최연준
Sorry
최연준
I'll go out again and buy it..!
김여주
No, it's okay
김여주
It's late, where are you going?
김여주
Go to sleep quickly
최연준
still..
최연준
He said he wanted to eat it...
최연준
I'll be back soon, really..!
김여주
Oh, that's it~
김여주
I can eat ice cream tomorrow.
김여주
It's late, so let's go in.
김여주
side._
김여주
Let's go to sleep soon~ Okay?
최연준
..huh
What's going on today?
최연준
..huh?
김여주
No, you've had a blank expression on your face since earlier.
최연준
...
Should I say this...
You met your dad..?
...No, later
Let's talk later, it's still too early
최연준
Ugh- tea-
I turned around and hugged the heroine tightly, burying my face in her arms.
최연준
My lady,
최연준
Do you love me?
김여주
huh?
김여주
Of course, I love you lol
최연준
by?
김여주
As much as you love me
최연준
...'snickers'
최연준
I love you so much
김여주
Yeah, right?
최연준
..huh
최연준
Well then, tell me
김여주
word?
최연준
..I love you
김여주
What the heck, why are you so obsessed with love today? LOL
김여주
Hey, what did you see again?
김여주
After watching a romantic movie that leaves a lingering impression, you always say this
최연준
..I haven't seen it--
김여주
What, then
김여주
Then why are you doing that?
김여주
You look cute today
최연준
..ear
최연준
..don't call me cute, you're a woman to me~
김여주
If you're going to say things like 'You're my woman', then shut your mouth lol
최연준
Oh, really
최연준
Honey, I don't have a mood
최연준
Would it be better if I just told you I love you?
김여주
Yeah, I love you
최연준
..
최연준
..who would come in like that
김여주
Yeah, I
최연준
...Huh, look at this shameless thing
최연준
A look that truly shows not an inch of hesitation
김여주
Why, so you don't like it?
최연준
..no,
최연준
..no, okay..haha
김여주
Haha ...
김여주
Oh, really, stop talking now
김여주
now
김여주
You have a schedule for tomorrow too
최연준
huh
김여주
Go to sleep soon~
최연준
Oh, I have one last thing
김여주
what?
최연준
Did you meet Choi Soo-bin today?
김여주
..huh?
김여주
suddenly?
최연준
No, just...what
최연준
He hasn't been in contact with me lately, so
It's a lie though...
Still, something feels uneasy
김여주
ah..
김여주
..I haven't met you!
김여주
You haven't contacted me either?
최연준
...
최연준
...Oh, really?
...what
Why are you lying..?
You two were together while I was out..
What is that..?
Why are you hiding it?
earthly..
Why on earth?
김여주
But why all of a sudden..?
김여주
You're closer to Choi Soo-bin
최연준
I thought Choi Soo-bin was closer to you
최연준
Wasn't it?
김여주
?
김여주
Are you jealous?
김여주
Do you think I stole your friend?
최연준
...Yeah, I'm jealous. I'm jealous.-
...I'm jealous of you and Choi Soo-bin
...
Since that day, you've been going out more and more often at night.
You must have been meeting Choi Soo-bin again
Every time he goes out without telling me, he tells me a blatant lie.
From this point on, our trust began to crumble.
miserably
But you don't seem to notice
Only I, I alone, was sad inside
Did you start to hate me?
Do you still like Choi Soo-bin?
I thought that
Every night without you, those thoughts would dig deeper into me.
however..
I wasn't honest either
I just kept my mouth shut and kept the question to myself, even though I could have just asked you.
Why are you with Choi Soo-bin? Why do you lie to me every night to meet her?
I couldn't ask
Because I was afraid,
I was scared, I was afraid
If you really
I'm afraid I'll tell him I like him
I was scared
If I could hear these words from your own mouth
I really couldn't have endured it..
So I kept avoiding you and pretending not to know all your lies.
But, it seemed like my heart was getting more and more broken.
I keep doubting you
I can no longer tell if all your actions are sincere.
The more I did that, the more I became obsessed with you.
So I wanted to keep confirming your feelings
But I know my way has been wrong for a long time
I felt guilty for a while, but I felt like I would go crazy with anxiety if I didn't do this.
...
but,
This is,,
Even thinking about it now, it was a terrible thing...
최연준
...
등장인물
Woman | Are you here alone?
최연준
Oh, yes.
등장인물
Woman | Oh, I'm alone too~
등장인물
Woman | Can I sit next to you?
최연준
yes
The place I came to was a famous hunting bar
I've been to other clubs around here, but this place is the best for loud music.
The perfect place to get caught by you
...
Ding._
김여주
Hey, Choi Yeonjun.
최연준
...
come
I knew you'd come
When I saw Yeoju, I felt a sense of relief.
김여주
Hey, what are you?
김여주
I told you not to go here
김여주
With some girls next to me
김여주
Is it fun?
최연준
...Would you like a drink too?
김여주
...under,
김여주
Seriously, what's wrong with you these days?
김여주
Why are you suddenly doing something you've never done before?
최연준
Why, I'm an adult. Can't I come to a place like this?
김여주
No, that's not the problem right now.
김여주
Why is a guy with a girlfriend here?
최연준
Why, you didn't do anything
I really didn't do anything.
...I blurted out careless words to you, even though I didn't mean them, because your worried appearance just reassured me.
김여주
Oh, shit...
김여주
Come out quickly, for real
김여주
Go out and talk.
최연준
...
김여주
These days, what's really wrong with you?
최연준
what
김여주
Are you really going to keep doing this?
김여주
What's the problem
최연준
Why are you worried?
김여주
Shit, then you're not worried?
김여주
It's past 2 or 3 in the morning, and my boyfriend doesn't seem to be coming home.
김여주
You don't look worried?
최연준
...
김여주
Ha, okay...
김여주
Stop it, let's go home quickly
김여주
You keep coming to places like this, you'll die that day.
최연준
...
But he doesn't say he wants to break up
...
When you come to me on my wandering days, when you worry about me
I finally find peace
It felt good to feel like he was thinking of me and caring only for me during that time.
Receiving affection, compassion, and love from you felt like a reward for all that had accumulated over time.
So maybe it hurt you more
I hurt you with my careless words and actions, and made you cry.
Just because of my selfishness and lack of desire for your affection
I hurt you
But when Choi Soo-bin's self-esteem and jealousy began to consume me, I was no longer myself.
A monster wrapped up in a misguided lack of affection
like that
Our relationship deteriorated rapidly, and this continued for two years.
And from you I never expected
I received a breakup notice
...
Choi Yeon-jun
김여주
Let's stop this.
최연준
...
My heart sank when I heard from you the words I had never expected.
I didn't know you would do this first
I thought you would only look after me your whole life
Because even though I was always being mean, you gave in first and looked after me.
I'm crazy
I didn't know how precious you were and took you for granted
In the end, this is what came back to me.
I couldn't believe it when I heard you say quit.
He must have just said it in the heat of the moment
doing
...I just wanted to deny it all
Please not
...
But, it didn't seem like that
You seemed to have already made up your mind.
...but,
I can't do that..
I need you
You know...
I am
I can't do it without you...
I just realized now, like an idiot
how much you love me
why...
Did you just find out now...?
What is this, just jealousy and a sense of entitlement?
You loved me so much
...
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It's been a while since I've been here...
It's so hard to write while going to school.. haha
It's okay if you scold me..haha..😥
If possible, please scold me by hand...
It's better...💓