How are you doing today?

Part 2 Episode 18

Then one day it happened.

That night, as always, my parents fought, and I woke up at dawn to look for my mom.

It looked like Mom was packing up the house and going somewhere.

My mom and I made eye contact, and she looked flustered, but then smiled and said something I didn't understand at the time.

엄마

My son, Jeonghan, if you live a good life, you will be blessed accordingly. So, my son, you must live a good life and grow up to be pretty, okay?

윤정한 (애기시절)

Mom, Mom, where are you?

엄마

Oh.. yeah.. Mom.. I have to go abroad for a while to work..

엄마

Can our son wait bravely for his mother?

윤정한 (애기시절)

Yeah! Mom hahaha

I really thought my mom was going abroad to work.

엄마

Mom, I'll just sleep for 100 nights. Eat well, sleep well, and grow up well. Okay?

And I believed those 100 nights words with bated breath.

윤정한 (애기시절)

Yeah, Mom, promise..!

엄마

Yeah, son, promise..

윤정한 (애기시절)

(Pok) It's really been 100 nights..

엄마

Then hehehe, Mom will keep all the promises she made to Jeonghan.

윤정한 (애기시절)

Hahahaha

엄마

Dad, I'm going to wake you up. Can you go in and finish your sleep?

윤정한 (애기시절)

Yeah! Jeonghan can sleep well! Hahahaha

엄마

Yeah (thump)

엄마

Our Jeonghan... See you in 100 nights? (smiles)

His mouth was smiling, but his eyes weren't.

And when 100 nights had passed, Mom hadn't come back.

윤정한 (애기시절)

Dad... Why isn't Mom coming?

At that time, my father's eyes were filled with contempt for me.

아빠

Tsk.. why does it look exactly like my mom

윤정한 (애기시절)

....?

아빠

Can't you go to your room quickly?

아빠

What are you standing there for?!

윤정한 (애기시절)

(Suddenly) Sorry..

bang-!

And the sound of the phone call I heard after leaving the room was quite shocking.

아빠

I'll take care of raising Jeonghan, so if you take half of my company's shares, don't even think about acting like Jeonghan's mother. Go meet another man and disappear from my sight.

아빠

Even if Jeonghan comes looking for you or meets you on the street, pretend not to know him. Got it?

윤정한 (애기시절)

.....

That was so shocking to me when I was 8 years old.

And when I asked my dad about my mom, pretending not to know, I felt like I hadn't misheard.

아빠

Your mother no longer exists.

아빠

Tsk, anyway, you're just going to reveal the money and take half of my company's shares?

아빠

You're a real crazy bitch.. Let's see how well you live without me.

I really wonder if that's something you can say in front of your 8-year-old son.

And when I turned 15, I went to see my mom.

My mother had already married someone else and had a daughter.

My daughter looked like she was 3 or 4 years old.

I was very young.

???

Mom, Dad! What's for dinner tonight?

엄마

Should I eat kimchi stew, my daughter's favorite?

???

good!!

Even though I knew there was no place for me in the meantime, I called my mom.

윤정한

mom..?

엄마

...! (pause)

윤정한

mom..

엄마

Honey, take Hyunji and go home first.

엄마

I'll buy some local snacks and go.

아저씨

Why? Let's go together~

엄마

No, the weather has gotten chilly lately.

엄마

What if I catch a local cold?

아저씨

Okay, then go quickly

엄마

Yeah, go in first.

아저씨

Hyunji, let's go in with Dad first.

???

Yeah!! Hahaha

윤정한

mom...

Crack-!!!

윤정한

...!!

엄마

Come find out where this is.

윤정한

mom..

엄마

I've never had a son like you.

엄마

You are just a child born by mistake.

엄마

That the past should disappear from my life.

윤정한

.....

I couldn't say anything

Even though I knew that my dad had told me to do it, my mom's expression was so cold.

So I decided to cosplay as a bad kid too.

윤정한

Is that your daughter?

윤정한

It's pretty.

엄마

you..!

윤정한

At that time, he abandoned me and took 50% of my father's company shares.

윤정한

In the end, it was money that was more important than me?

엄마

.....

윤정한

Do your husband and daughter know about this?

엄마

hey..!

윤정한

I don't know. Because they probably hid it and got married.

엄마

.....

윤정한

Then how about I go find that daughter?

윤정한

It must be quite an interesting production.

윤정한

This child probably doesn't even know that his stepbrother exists...~

엄마

Hey!! Yoon Junghan!!!

윤정한

(Snickers) You're finally calling my name now.

윤정한

You don't call me as affectionately as you used to?

엄마

.....

윤정한

I grew up without a mother and this is how I live.

윤정한

You get married, have a daughter, and live well...

윤정한

I guess you really didn't miss me.

윤정한

I was just a weakling who could easily extort money from my dad.

When I pretended to be a bad kid, the look on my mom's face was quite something to see.

From then on, I decided to just live like this.

Because if I become a bad kid, no one can say anything to me

윤정한

Is that your true feelings?

엄마

..... (sigh)

윤정한

Okay, I won't touch your family.

윤정한

Instead, from now on, I am a man without a mother.

윤정한

Because I was the only one without my parents at my elementary school graduation ceremony or my middle school entrance ceremony, and I was the only one who didn't receive congratulations.

윤정한

And in the future, when I graduate from middle school, when I enter high school, when I graduate, when I enter university, when I graduate, when I get a job at a company, and when I marry the woman I love!!!

윤정한

There's no one to congratulate me.

윤정한

right?

엄마

.....

윤정한

Okay, I was so naive all this time.

윤정한

If I knew you thought of me like this, I wouldn't have waited or tried to find you.

윤정한

I wish I hadn't cared about how you lived.

윤정한

To you, I was just a child born by mistake, a past you wanted to erase, and one of the materials you needed to extort money from your father.

엄마

......

Mom's pupils shook and I felt quite relieved.

And when I turned around and walked away, I liked the sound of my mom crying.

Because I felt like I won.

And from then on, I went astray and started flirting with boys, using my sexual preferences that I had discovered around the same time.

That's all.

The reason I exist now