Season 2_Jang Ma-eum, an orphan with a family of 13

#4_Trying to find the real name 2

The sunlight was shining beautifully.

It's winter so I can't fully utilize my strength.

The breaking sunlight fully unfolds my beauty.

In the midst of all this, I realize that my body is as heavy as water-soaked cotton.

전원우

“Hey lady~”

Judging by the voice, it was Wonwoo oppa, but my voice, which was about to answer, got choked up.

장여주

“I woke up…”

Just up to there.

Even this was an answer that came out with great difficulty, squeezing out a voice that was not even able to speak.

전원우

“We have to go to our schedule…?”

Even though I couldn't bring myself to come into the room and was talking outside the door, I could still hear his voice clearly.

Either the soundproofing is poor or my brother is talking loudly.

I think it was probably the latter, but I heard a voice louder than Wonwoo's.

김민규

“Ah, come on! Where’s Lee Do-gyeom!”

Arguments, not fights, often occurred within the 97s.

이석민

"what"

Seokmin answers nonchalantly, as if it were his daily life.

김민규

“Please clean up…”

이석민

“Shiro Shiro~”

Right into cleaning

My brother is the one who cleans up, and Seokmin's brother is the one who makes a mess.

Of course, Min-gyu oppa also messes around a lot

Seokmin's brother was different in that he cleaned up right away.

이찬

“Haha… these guys are still noisy”

Chan-i speaks instead of me, whose voice is locked and unable to spit out.

My head hurts, but I can't help but chuckle.

홍지수

“Well, it’s the same every day.”

Not long after hearing Shua oppa's words, Junhwi oppa's voice is heard.

문준휘

“Wow… Lady! Is this sandwich ours?”

장여주

"huh…"

I'm happy that my brother likes it, but

The voice that could give a proper response was gone.

홍지수

“Then what time did our heroine wake up…”

Jisoo oppa is worried.

I'm the kind of person who wakes up at 5 o'clock.

You don't have to worry about this.

장여주

“6 o’clock…”

I squeeze out my cracked voice and answer.

Not a single person suspected me of leaving my room.

I guess he's being considerate and thinking that maybe he wants to lie down more.

At that time, that consideration did not seem like consideration to me.

It might be a bit much to ask someone to know that you're in pain just by hearing your voice.

이지훈

“Wow… Jang Yeo-ju’s skills are amazing…”

Jihoon hears his brother's words, and Junhwi knocks lightly.

It means can I come in?

Surely you didn't notice that I was sick?

That's not what I was hoping for.

장여주

"huh"

As soon as I answer, 13 men gather in front of my room.

최한솔

“What… Are you sick?”

Hansol's older brother spat out with a worried expression, as if he was observing closely.

Only then did they seem to notice that I was sick.

Jisoo oppa puts his hand on my forehead a little faster than the others.

홍지수

“You have a fever, lady…”

최승철

“Are you in a lot of pain…? Are you coughing and stuff?”

장여주

“I think I have a cold.”

The voice, cracked and broken, falls without moisture.

Even I didn't want to hear the fluttering voice.

홍지수

“The window… is open? I guess I forgot to close it…”

Shua oppa blamed himself, and I smiled and said there was no need for that.

김민규

“What should we do… We have to go out…”

홍지수

“I really want to be by your side all day, really…”

Min-gyu oppa and Ji-soo oppa probably both felt the same way.

Regardless of the pain, I just want you to be by my side.

I confessed my feelings behind the fact that I was sick.

And I could feel it.

장여주

"It's okay. I've been sick alone more than once."

Everyone listens attentively to my words.

Oh, no.

None of them had ever lived a life similar to mine.

When they were sick, their parents would have taken care of them,

I had never been alone.

장여주

“Ha… I understand how you feel, oppa. I get it, but you have to get your work done. Don’t you think so?”

장여주

“That’s how you feed me.”

He said it a little playfully

Still, there was no sign of the atmosphere loosening.

Damn, I really need to avoid talking about the past from now on.

홍지수

“I’m really sorry…”

장여주

“I told you it’s okay, really?”

All of the Seventeen members, including Jisoo oppa, probably think the same.

I guess he doesn't want to leave me alone, having been alone when I was sick until now.

That's not what I meant.

Enough so you don't have to worry about me

I just wanted to tell you that I am a strong person.

최승철

“We… should go.”

Seungcheol finally sorted things out, and I nodded as I lay down.

My head hurt a little more because of the shaking, but it was really only a little.

Everyone looked apologetic and worried.

They left my room to do some work.

Among them, only Jisoo Oppa remained, knelt down, and met my gaze.

홍지수

“If you can’t stand it anymore, call me… Make up some excuse and go to the hospital, okay?”

장여주

“If you do this, I won’t call you anymore~”

Oppa, you probably know too

I had my own line, and Seventeen had their own line to keep.

They had a lot of boundaries for me to keep because I was a woman.

Of course, it was a grateful thing.

Even if they are close friends, if you try to go a little too far, it will make you feel a little uncomfortable.

But I was almost never the opposite of them.

The line I was keeping was related to their work.

I was able to go sightseeing with their permission, but

I could not tolerate anything that belittled or ruined their work.

Of course, if I did that, the Seventeen members would just scold me a little,

I'm sure they'll figure it out on their own.

홍지수

“I know… but that’s my true feelings.”

I was momentarily surprised by Jisoo oppa's sincerity that suddenly came to me.

I knew that it wasn't an exaggeration to say that if I called, he would somehow come find me.

Because among the 13 people, there wasn't a single person who didn't do that.

He slowly stroked my sweaty head.

홍지수

"I'll be back soon. Much earlier than usual. I just want you to stop suffering alone."

Jisoo's words held so much meaning.

Unlike when I was young and suffered a lot alone

That there is someone who can take care of me,

An earnest and careful request to confide in someone when they are in pain because of their heartache.

I should be the one to say that.

You gave me life and made me happy

Now I have to let them live and be happy.

Before I knew it, I had become their reason for living and the condition of their happiness.

장여주

“Okay… I’ll wait.”

I also gave an answer that contained a lot of meaning.

I will wait for the path that comes to me with happiness,

I will wait patiently until you tell me what is bothering you.

I don't want you to understand me

I'll take it slow so I can understand you.

Shua Oppa smiled and nodded, knowing how I felt.