Senior, please only look at me
14 | Senior, please only look at me.
이여주
Huh? Taehyung···?
김태형
What are you doing here?
이여주
Huh...? Ah... no. You came quickly.
김태형
It's usually around this time. You're the one who came early, aren't you?
이여주
Taehyung, just a moment.
I left Taehyung behind and wandered around for a while. Not even realizing I was using semi-formal language toward Taehyung, I just kept looking for Jungkook.
김태형
Senior! What's wrong? What's wrong?
이여주
Jungkook... haven't you seen him?
김태형
Senior. But why are you suddenly using formal language?
이여주
Huh? When did I ever speak to you politely?
김태형
You kept using formal language just now... What happened between you and Jungkook?
이여주
...No, there wasn't any.
김태형
senior.
I kept talking to Taehyung, and since I was looking somewhere else while talking, Taehyung grabbed my shoulder, came closer, looked into my eyes, and started talking.
김태형
Senior, do you really love me?
이여주
Ah... I'm sorry. No, I'm sorry...
김태형
What are you sorry about? Do you know what you're sorry about and are you saying it?
이여주
I'm sorry, I did everything...
김태형
Yeoju, come to your senses.
Suddenly, instead of calling me by my senior name, he called me by my three-letter name and looked at me. It felt strange to be called "Yeoju" by someone younger than me. Otherwise, it really snapped me to my senses.
김태형
Senior, do you like Jungkook?
이여주
uh···?
김태형
I can see everything. I'm good at reading your mind. You want to tell me to break up now, right?
이여주
no?!
김태형
It's okay. It can happen. You can hate me in one day.
이여주
I said no?
김태형
Even if that's true, I have no intention of letting you go. Especially not if it's because of Jungkook.
김태형
Jungkook told me that even if he developed feelings for Jungkook, he should not come to him.
이여주
Jungkook···?
김태형
Seniors say that their feelings change easily. So, since I don't know if their feelings are sincere, I just go with the flow.
이여주
I··· did that···.
Until yesterday, I'd thought Taehyung wouldn't change his mind easily, but it turns out my feelings were just as people around me said. Others saw me better than I did.
김태형
Senior, if you go to Jungkook now, are you sure you won't come back to me?
이여주
I have no confidence...
김태형
Then listen to me, there you have it. I'm sure Jungkook would like that more too.
이여주
But my heart is telling me to catch Jeongguk, what should I do? Are you just going to let me go like that?
김태형
You don't know how uncomfortable it is to be in between someone you like and their boyfriend, do you? Oh, but that doesn't mean you should break up.
이여주
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김태형
But if you really think it won't work out, then tell me. If you're confident that you can go to Jungkook and not come back to me, then I'll let you go.
이여주
really?
김태형
Do you want to go now? That would upset me.
이여주
Oh... really? Then a little later...
김태형
I'm so naive... I keep my feelings to myself. I don't say them out loud.
이여주
Ah... I know. Don't treat me like an idiot.
김태형
So, I'm telling you to control your feelings well, senior. To be honest, this kind of relationship is hard for me...
Taehyung's words came out of his mouth saying he was having a hard time. Just because of me, I've made it so hard for him. I always think I need to make my own mind up, but it's frustrating because my mind isn't following suit. I'm shaking with anxiety that if I keep going like this, I'll lose both of them.
김태형
If you don't like me, just tell me now.
이여주
······.
I couldn't bring myself to speak. I didn't know my own feelings. I was afraid that if I spoke carelessly, I'd say something strange and only hurt her. I was cautious about what I said.
이여주
I don't know... really my heart.
김태형
If you don't like it, avoid it.
Then Taehyung came closer to me, step by step. He grabbed my shoulder like before and brought our faces closer. Then he kissed me gently. He didn't say anything, but it seemed like he was telling me he really liked me. I was surprised again, but I didn't avoid him.
김태형
This is my last message.
이여주
what do you mean?
김태형
Senior, we're breaking up.
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