Senior, please only look at me
9 | Senior, please only look at me.
김태형
You said you had a lot of worries earlier. Are you worried because of me?
이여주
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Unlike before, Taehyung asked me in a cautious tone. When I didn't answer, he opened his mouth again.
김태형
I've given up. So don't worry so much because of me.
이여주
No, I gave up on you...
김태형
I folded it. Really.
이여주
That song from earlier. It felt like it was about us. I guess I can't hold back my heart from leaving...
김태형
It's just a stretch. Don't worry about it.
이여주
Do you still like me?
김태형
My heart remains unchanged.
Taehyung, who had just said he'd given up on her, suddenly declared that his feelings hadn't changed. "Unchanged" meant he still liked her...
Even though I know you're dating Jungkook, my feelings haven't changed. I know you're too in love to let go. Even if you don't know how I feel, I think I know.
이여주
...I'm working.
We returned to our work. Working in an uncomfortable space, it wasn't easy to focus as we'd hoped. Then, Jeongguk's performance, which broke the awkwardness, opened the door.
전정국
iced coffee.
“Wow!”
As Jungkook performed his mic test, the bar erupted in cheers and applause, just like every other time, and everyone focused on Jungkook. He then introduced the song.
전정국
The song I've prepared today is "Catch Me." I've invited some special people to help with both rap and vocals. Now, let's begin.
이여주
When did you come... I was so busy I didn't see you...
After listening to the beginning part of today's song, it seems like a sad song that begs to be held tightly.
전정국
Hold me tight. Hug me...
This song Jungkook chose, like the one Taehyung picked earlier, seemed to sing our story. Jungkook must have known, too. That I wasn't sure how much I loved him.
So, I think I expressed it in song: "Please hold me, please hug me, please love me." It was even sadder because I could see it.
Then came the rap part. I always only listened to Jungkook's vocals, so hearing his rap was refreshing, and the rap that was delivered brought me to tears.
래퍼
I know it's almost the end, but I can't let you go. Don't say anything. Don't leave. Hold me quietly, girl...
After hearing that rap, tears began to flow down my cheeks. I turned my back on Taehyung and wiped them away, afraid that he might see me crying.
김태형
Here it is.
Taehyung was so quick-witted that he handed me a few tissues, not knowing when he'd seen me cry again.
김태형
The song is sad. It's a sad, mournful song that seems to be telling a story... isn't it?
이여주
···That's right.
김태형
Senior, is it really true that you like Jungkook?
이여주
yes···?
김태형
There must be a reason why Jungkook chose such a sad and sorrowful song over an exciting song.
이여주
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김태형
It's all visible to you, senior. Things you don't like.
이여주
Taehyung is really quick-witted...
But thinking back, there was no mention of an official relationship. Jungkook brought it up, but I didn't respond. I was somehow drawn to him, and it just naturally became like a relationship. I just ruined our relationship on my own.
이여주
Come to think of it... we weren't even dating in the first place...
김태형
yes?
Taehyung seemed quite surprised. It makes sense. I thought they were dating, so I was extra cautious. But the result was nothing.
이여주
sorry···.
김태형
Will you... go out with me? No, go out with me, senior.
이여주
But still... is it okay?
김태형
I don't want to be mean to my senior. I feel like I can't live without you.
“Wow!!”
The live show I'd briefly forgotten about ended, and as soon as I looked over at Jungkook, our eyes met. I saw his eyes filled with tears. I shouldn't have looked into those eyes. I wavered. Again. I was so confused that I wanted to abandon this suffocating feeling.
김태형
senior.
이여주
sorry···.
I stormed out of the bar right then and there. The tears that had barely stopped were flowing again, and I felt like I was going crazy. How could I possibly believe that two people liked me?
Since I was bound to choose one anyway, and the one who didn't get chosen would undoubtedly be as sad as I was now, I couldn't help but feel confused.
이여주
Sob sob... Seriously, why are you like this...
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Here···
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