short story collection

boredom

I'm dating my favorite guy, Daniel.

We cherish and love each other more than anyone else.

No, I loved you.

We are a couple in our second year together, and we have never fought even once, but tragedy struck us.

boredom

I think I'm getting bored.

I still love and like Daniel more than anyone else, but it seems like Niel doesn't love me now. No, he doesn't like me either.

I go to school as usual.

But if there's one thing that's different,

The problem is that Niel isn't next to me right now.

Just a few days ago, we walked to and from school together and were always together, but now, sadly, I am walking this road alone.

Same class, same partner. When we enter school, step into the classroom, and attend class, we inevitably encounter each other.

여주

Hello Niel!

I am happy to greet you again.

강다니엘

uh.

But all I get in return is a cold reply.

They no longer welcome me warmly and kindly.

After school, I call Niel again.

여주

Niera!

강다니엘

why.

여주

...What are you doing today?

강다니엘

I have extra classes at school today. No.

I just asked you what you were doing, but you coldly replied that you weren't doing anything.

여주

Huh? Okay...

You disappeared into your friends' company without even hearing my answer.

여주

ha...

하성운

Oh, why are you doing that again?

I'm currently sitting on a bench near the school, talking to my close male friend, Seongwoon.

여주

I don't know...

하성운

Did you fight with Daniel?

여주

No... I guess you could say we fought...

하성운

Oh, why are you doing that?

I explained the whole story to Seongun.

하성운

What? Daniel was wrong.

여주

...

Thanks to Seongun, who took my side, understood my heart, and comforted me, I felt a little better.

하성운

Heroine, just break up.

여주

ok..?

하성운

Anyway, it seems like he doesn't even like you.

여주

...

하성운

Just find someone who likes you more.

여주

...

하성운

I can't do it.

여주

..?

하성운

I can't break up with you.

여주

...huh...

하성운

Then hold on. Again. You haven't made up your mind yet.

여주

...

하성운

But I like the former better - I think the latter would be difficult for you.

여주

...I'll go for now. Thanks, Seongwoon.

하성운

no-

Should I just break up?

Even if we break up, I think it will only be hard for me.

So, on my way home, when I got home, and even before I went to bed, I only thought about that.

The next day, I walked the same path and entered the classroom with the same complicated thoughts from yesterday.

여주

hi.

강다니엘

..? huh.

You seemed momentarily taken aback by my voice, which was much more subdued than usual, but quickly returned to it.

I couldn't concentrate in class.

Just thinking about it makes me so sad.

I just let the class pass by and when it was lunchtime, I didn't really feel like eating, so I headed to the cafeteria.

?

Hey senior.

Someone called my name and I turned around to see it was the kid who had been hanging out with Niel a lot lately.

여주

...huh?

김예림

My name is Kim Ye-rim.

여주

...huh.

김예림

Niel oppa, can I have it?

What kind of development is this?

여주

what..?

김예림

Senior, you have Seongwoon oppa, right? Don't try to have both like a fox. I'll make Niel oppa mine.

Now that I'm bored, he's trying to take advantage of that to steal Niel away. It's just unbelievable.

여주

Fox year...

I thought back on what Kim Ye-rim said.

강다니엘

what?

여주

..?

You suddenly appeared and asked what was going on.

강다니엘

Kim Yeo-ju, the fox year.

여주

Uh... that's...

강다니엘

You have to speak straight. I didn't know you were that kind of person.

여주

What..? No, Niel..!

강다니엘

Let's go, Yerim

김예림

Yes, brother!!!

He leaves without even listening to what I say.

I called her Kim Yeo-ju stiffly, but she called me Ye-rim very warmly.

This is really absurd.

If that's the case, then let's break up.

You don't even say you want to break up, you just make people feel bad.

For about a week after that, Kim Ye-rim continued to pick on me.

Every time I tried to say something, Daniel would appear as if it were a lie and curse at me.

I see you on my way home.

You who are going with Kim Ye-rim.

Since our houses were in the same direction, the direction they were going and the direction I was going were the same.

After Daniel sent Kim Ye-rim into the house, I called Daniel.

여주

Daniel

강다니엘

...What is it? Why are you here?

여주

...I live this way too...

강다니엘

Oh, so. Why.

여주

Why don't you do it?

강다니엘

what

여주

Why don't you tell me to break up?

강다니엘

what?

여주

You're sick of me now. You're cheating on me so openly. You don't even care about me. You listen to other people besides your girlfriend.

여주

Then tell me. Let's break up. Tell me to tell you. Then I'll be a little less hurt. Now that you're no longer my boyfriend, whatever you do doesn't matter to me, so I'll at least give up.

여주

But why don't you just break up and make me feel bad? If you do that, it'll only make it harder for me. It'll only hurt more. Did you tell me to do that? Because I'm suffering?

여주

Why are you doing that? Why are you doing this to me? Just tell me, please.

강다니엘

...ha.

여주

...

여주

You do it. Let's break up. Wouldn't that make you feel a little better? That fits the picture better.

강다니엘

...what..?

여주

Tell her to break up.

강다니엘

...Okay, Kim Yeo-ju, let's break up. Just like you said, I'm really sick of you. You have no charm, and the more I see you, the more I get sick of you. I hope we don't have to see each other anymore. Let's not contact each other or see each other anymore.

여주

...Okay. I understand.

Like that, Daniel disappeared without looking back, and I just looked at him with hazy, misty eyes.

*Daniel's POV*

I thought I would feel better if I told him I wanted to break up.

But I feel stuffy inside and something hurts.

Even after several days or weeks have passed, I still can't forget Yeoju.

I only said bad things to the heroine.

I only said hurtful things and hurtful things.

It must have been really hard for Yeoju to be alone, but I ignored that.

I can only imagine how much of a wound it must have been for the female protagonist.

I regret it.

But I can't do anything.

It's already in the past, so I can't act rashly.

Still, I want to catch the heroine.

I just found out.

That the heroine is indispensable to me.

That it really takes up a lot of space in my life.

Why did I only find out now?

Why did I only realize now the pain the heroine must have suffered?

I really hated and loathed myself so much.

I really regret why I did that.

*Yeoju's point of view*

It's been about a month since I broke up with Daniel.

I tried hard to forget Daniel.

I tried hard to erase Daniel.

Today, too, I was returning home normally.

But then someone comes who I absolutely don't want to see.

강다니엘

Lady.

It's Daniel.

여주

...

I tried to just pass by, but Daniel grabbed my wrist.

강다니엘

Lady...

여주

Let go of this.

강다니엘

...Sorry.

여주

...

강다니엘

I'm sorry, heroine...

여주

Why is it like this?

강다니엘

...

여주

Why are you like this? I tried so hard to forget you. I worked so hard to erase you, why are you like this?

여주

You said we should break up. You said you were sick of me. You said we should never see each other again. But why are you like this? What are you doing here?

강다니엘

...I'm sorry, heroine... I just realized that you were indispensable to me... I'm truly sorry...

강다니엘

I'm sorry... I said bad things to you, I took Kim Ye-rim's side over you, I left you with only hurt feelings... I'm sorry for everything...

여주

...

강다니엘

I was so selfish... You were so necessary to me, but I guess I was crazy for a moment...

강다니엘

Lady... I'm really sorry... Please forgive me just this once...

여주

...thank you.

강다니엘

..?

여주

Thank you for apologizing. Thank you for coming back to me.

강다니엘

...

여주

I still haven't forgotten you. I haven't completely erased you yet. So I can open it again. But Niel.

강다니엘

...Ugh...

여주

Could you promise me you won't hurt me like that again?

강다니엘

...Of course. I promise. I won't hurt you like that again.

여주

...Okay then. I'm not mad at you anymore.

강다니엘

...Thank you so much, heroine...I'm really sorry...I really won't do that again...Will you go out with me again..?

여주

good.

강다니엘

Thank you, heroine... I love you.

In fact, you didn't even remember my home. I hated you so much, for only causing me so much pain.

But I can't get angry when you apologize like that.

It's true that I couldn't forget Niel. Because I still liked him. And I kept liking him again.

*Brief Daniel POV*

Even when we said we wanted to break up, you thought of me until the end.

Even now, I feel even more sorry for you who doesn't say anything to me and still embraces me.

What did I do to you like this... Really, why did I do that...

I'm really sorry to the heroine, and I'm also grateful.

Thank you so much, Yeoju.

Sorry.

and

love you

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Wow! 3697 characters!!! I used a lot though

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The birth of a shitpost...

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Hmph... Why am I so bad at writing... The content is so weird...

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Anyway, thank you for reading today!!!

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I'm going to postpone the rainy day farewell bonus episode for a bit because I can't think of any material! (Sorryㅠ

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Thank you! Bye, Bobdungies!