[Short Story] Dream World
Sister...when are you coming?
Night. The starry sky was eerily beautiful that night.
Today I go to the rooftop again.
Clank-
When I opened the door, I loved the feeling of the wind, the only thing that greeted me. For some reason, it felt like it was washing away my stuffiness.
I found myself laughing while crying without realizing it.
Step by step- step by step-
I walk slowly on trembling legs, lean against the railing, and then dig through my pockets to take out a cigarette and a lighter.
Click-
I lit a cigarette with a lighter. The smoke from the cigarette enveloped my body.
It's not good for your health, but...what's the big deal? This is the last one.
As the cigarette faded, I picked up my phone. And I sent a text message to someone.
[Seokjin, hello? I'm sorry for being such an irresponsible girlfriend... But I'm having a really hard time right now. I'm sure you're having a hard time too... I'm sorry. Now that I'm writing this, I don't know what to say. I have so much to say...]
[I'll go somewhere comfortable when the sun rises this morning. Thank you for everything. For being my one and only boyfriend, for being so good to me. I love you.]
To some people, this might seem like a long message.
But it's too short for me?
I wanted to pour out all my heart, but I stopped because I was afraid that if I kept thinking about Seokjin, I wouldn't be able to die.
김여주
"....Please save me."
I know. It's ridiculous what I said in this situation. But what can I do? This is so hard, I want to die at any moment.
I was born because of people, and I felt great happiness because of people. But I became unhappy because of people. Now I'm about to die.
People...what's so great about something like that that it makes me so miserable.
Have you ever been to a dream world?
I've been there. Everyone there cares about me. Everyone listens to me, and everyone is kind to me. It's a world away from this miserable reality.
But I ruined everything. In a single moment. No, it seems like it was all my fault from the beginning. I lost my purpose in life.
I want to die like this. It's so hard. I guess dying is hard after all. Today, I'm doing the same thing I've done dozens of times.
But I'm going to die. There's no prince charming in this world to save me. I'm too weak to endure the world's bitterness.
김여주
"Thank you all..."
I put my feet in the air. At that time
Clank-
김석진
"Sister! Sister Yeoju!!!"
...It's Seokjin. It's definitely Seokjin's voice.
I missed you, Seokjin...
But somehow. I've already been with my feet in the air for a long time.
I miss Seokjin, but now I can die. The fact that I'm going to die makes me laugh without realizing it.
Kick-
[Seokjin's point of view]
부장
"Thank you for your hard work. Now everyone is leaving work."
사원들
"yes!"
Tiring-
The thought of having to work until dawn on a Friday night was disgusting. But my mood lifted when my sister texted me right after work, right when I was supposed to get off work.
But what the heck.
Suddenly, I remembered the in☆gram my older sister posted last night.
☆_The_sky_looks_warm_today_
☆_I'm going on a long journey now_ Don't look for me_
Looking back at the photo that came up on SNS earlier, it looked like the rooftop of my sister's house.
I ran. I ran like crazy. And that's how I got to the rooftop.
Clank-
김석진
"Sister!! Sister Yeoju!!!"
I desperately called out to my sister. Where on earth is my sister?
...Fuck. Is that person our female lead?
In my eyes
She seemed to have given up everything in the world.
She seemed to have decided on something.
Her eyes were half open.
I sent both feet into the air.
Thump-
김석진
"...Uh.. Sister Yeoju? Sister!!!"
Surely... no... it must be a dream...
I denied reality. Tears streamed down my cheeks, unexplained. But I soon came to my senses and called 119.
김석진
"Is that 119? Is there anyone here..."
° ° °
의사
"I'm sorry, but patient Kim Yeo-ju..."
...lie.
How am I supposed to live without my older sister?
I miss you so much today.
° ° °
That happened a few years ago...
Sister! It's already spring!
Aren't the flowers pretty? The cherry blossom festival is coming up soon. Come hang out with me during the festival!
Hey... Sister, you didn't come in the spring! ㅠ
How long have I waited...
If you come quickly now, I'll give you this! It'll be delicious, right?
It's fall! The colors of the leaves are beautiful, aren't they?
I wish my sister could have come with me to watch it like a few years agoㅠㅠ
I saved up money and bought a gift for my older sister!
Don't cry because you're so touched!
Sister...why aren't you coming...?
I miss you, sister...
You've set off on a long journey. You've boarded a train from which you'll never return.
I miss you so much. A part of my heart feels empty now that you're gone.
What can I do even if I know you can't come... I can't live without you.
I hope you miss me too. No, I hope you regret dying. I hope you quickly realize that this is not a place of comfort, but a place of regret.
The sun will rise brightly like your future, so what if you only see part of it? You should enjoy it all and then close your eyes when you're old.
If it's hard, tell me.
These words. I know they're hard to hear. How painful they are. How much courage it takes to talk about difficult things...
My sister must have had a hard time... But don't leave like that. If you leave, I'll want to follow you too...
Still, I'm going to give you some time. Time alone. Time for yourself. Don't be lonely during that time.
I'll keep watching over you. If you look like you're having a hard time, I'll go over and give you a big hug.
It must be hard, but keep up the good work. We'll overcome this and meet again. I'll also struggle in the world below in the meantime.
I love you so much.