tricolor cat
00. Limited time
The end of March. The cherry blossoms are falling.
I just got diagnosed with cancer. I have seven months left to live.
I'm scared, but at the same time, I can't believe it because I've never died before.
I feel a little regretful because I think that even if someone suddenly stabs me and I die on this road I'm walking on now, nothing will change.
It has been less than two months since I divorced my wife of three years, and less than two months since my mother passed away following my father.
I touched my dry eyes, which were so dry that there were no tears left, and put on my cap as usual and started walking again.
A dark highway. Nothing pleasant to see.
Suddenly, as if something had occurred to me, I pushed my hand between the cars whizzing by and waved it gently.
Yet, among the cars that whizz by without a trace
You approached me slowly and stopped in front of me.
민시율
hi
박지민
...Hello~
민시율
Are you asking me to burn it?
Instead of answering the man's question, he just chuckled and nodded.
민시율
I like black hair.
박지민
This is the first time my head has been helpful.
I raised my eyebrows and sat down next to him.
민시율
How old are you?
박지민
Twenty-three-.
민시율
Twenty-five. Where to go?
When Min Yoongi said, “Where are you going?”, I suddenly thought of the house I lived in with my wife and the house I lived in with my mother.
It seemed such a waste to spend the rest of my time in that cold house.
박지민
..nothing lol
민시율
...doesn't exist?
박지민
huh-
민시율
Well then, what can I do?
민시율
Is it good?
박지민
Yeah- awesome!
민시율
How long will you be here?
박지민
Seven months-!
민시율
why?
박지민
I don't think I'll really need a house after that.
민시율
What are you talking about?
박지민
When you go abroad!
민시율
ah
박지민
Hey, where is my room?
민시율
Oh, there isn't any.
박지민
huh?
민시율
There is only one room.
박지민
Well, sleeping together isn't bad either-
민시율
Yeah. By the way, it's almost dinner time, so I'm going to go do some shopping.
박지민
huh-!
I was lost in thought.
What do you do with the rest of your time?
박지민
....
박지민
I guess I've been living a more boring life than I thought.
at that time
I got a call from an unknown number.
Woohoo-
박지민
hello?
경찰
Hello, this is detective 000 from the violent crimes unit of **Police Station.
박지민
Ah...yes
경찰
....I apologize for the late hour, but...Jimin's mother
박지민
....yes
경찰
...was found to be a murder.
박지민
...yes?
As the thought of his mother suddenly welled up in his mind, tears flowed like anyone else's, and his lips formed a hollow laugh as if he was dumbfounded.
박지민
Oh, yes.. Go, thank you..
경찰
...Yes.. Take care and I'll hang up now.
Thump-
~~ ~~
Me playing the piano in the living room while my mom looks at me
~~ ~
I pressed the door gently one last time and looked at my mother.
엄마
My son, what will you be when you grow up?
He hugged me and said.
박지민
music-!
엄마
music?
엄마
Then I wish my mom would appear in my son's symphony-
박지민
huh,!
박지민
Ha, huff.. haa.. ugh, aah!..
I walked as if drawn to the piano in one corner of the living room.
I put my hands on the piano.
And then I started playing the piano.
The only song I can play.
Last Carnival
A soft melody was heard.
This song was the only one on the tape my mother left behind.
This is the only song I remember, even though I couldn't play the piano because it was my mother's favorite.
박지민
Mom, just wait a minute... just wait a minute... I'll be going soon too...
I closed my eyes and barely breathed, almost as if I had fainted.
Only my fingers moved.
I'm dying.