I shook my head with a smile. He looks at me, raising his eyebrows. "We were just...bonding," I said. "Oh,"he replied before chuckling. He started driving and it was silent. His mom fell asleep when she rest her head on my shoulder.
As time pass by, seungyoun sighed, a very exhausted sigh.
And I was thinking about what mother said ealier, and I don't think she ment it...stop smiling? I havent been smiling the whole time, that was probably why she even asked me in the first place.
Obviously seungyoun was still smiling, like he always do, outside the house. Well...at home as well when he's drunk..or having a hangover or when...he's lying to me.
Mother, obviously wants a grandchild if not..I do. I'm well and we are financially stable now.. well like how we used to...but I'm ready now.
But ofcourse if we do, now, its not making love anymore...
My eyes starts to tear up as I was thinking about this and I don't want him to see me cry, because then it will look like I actually love him.. which I do but I wish not.
He's humming a song at the front living his best life, while I'm here trying my best to not blink so these tears wont fall. This hatred is only hurting me... he doesn't care.
Y/n,he doesn't care...
I wiped my eyes which woke his mother up, "I'm so sorry mom,"I said. "Huh?no no,I should be your body must be aching right now," she said shaking her head. I replied,"No my body's fine.."
The car then stopped. "We're here," Seungyoun said as we arrived at our hotel. "Let's go," seugyoun said as he went out and open the trunk. I went out as well and we all checked in to our hotel room. His mother suggested that she sleeps alone and seungyoun and I share a room together.
We were now alone at our room, and I saw that there were two single beds. I was shocked but seungyoun just jumped to one of the beds. I was baffled he didn't seem like he cared,it was a long drive but he didn't even point it out...did he not realise? Or did he forget.I'm here, his wife is with him.
I took a deep breath ready to shout,"chagi I'll shower first ok," I said calmly with a smile that he doesn't even care to see. I went in and slamed the door. I stood there angry,"I didn't mean to slam the door!"I yelled I didn't want him to ask me, I didn't even wanna hear his voice. "Ok!"he replied.
Ugh! I fell down on the floor, I cried silently...I honestly felt like screaming at this point. I kept crying but it didn't make feel any better..instead it made me feel more pathetic..that this man is getting on my nerves without doing anything wrong it makes me sound like an attention seeker hungry for his love it was annoying.
I sat blankly on the toilet as the floor felt too cold. I still felt like crying. Suddenly, I heard a knock. "Chagi I notice that you...left your towel, tooth brush, soap,face wash...and practically everthing" he said behind the door.
I didn't want him to see me like this, so I opened the door just a little bit to fit his hand and he hand me my things one by one. "Chagi are you naked? Why cant you just take this, these are a lot of things," he asked. "Ya! ..j-just pass it to me...ok! or just-leave it on the floor...just go!" I stuttered, why would he mention that!
"Ok ok, i'm sorry...you don't heve to be shy about it,"he laughed. "Ya!!you pervert" I shouted. "What...why???!!?we're married its ok to talk about it!" He continues. "JUST GO!!" I screamed for the last time. He then went away. My face was red and I felt hot as I shut the door. I don't know if its anger or I'm blushing.
After some time, I went out of the toilet and I saw him on his bed,"oh you're done?" He said going straight to the toilet as his phone rang. He must be calling that girl again.
I sat on my bed and saw the hotel phone on the table next to me, I dialed mother's room number and she aswered the phone,"who is this?" She asked. "It's me, your favourite child..y/n!" I answered cheerfully because I was excited to use the hotel phone.
"Aigoo my only daughter, seungyoun will get jelous if he hears that," she replied. "You seem to be in a good mood.."she continues,"mother are you not bored there alone, I could go visit you, you're just two rooms away from us," I suggested. "No no, go spend time with seungyoun he doesn't like being alone, when he was a child he would always play with his friends even if we buy him the most expensive toys," she said. "Now his toys are all piled up in a box at home," she continues.
We chatted until seungyoun went out of the toilet, I told him it was his mother and they both chatt for few minutes and we greeted her and the call ended. Seungyoun went away to put on his clothes and I lied down ready for bed.
I was facing the side opposite to his bed, thinking about how his mom talked about children and all the toys at her house. I felt guilty, I can't just go up to him now. We're not in good terms. We're not even on the same bed.
I slowly closed my eyes, when I heard a noise coming from seugyouns bed which got louder and finally stopped when I felt my bed get slightly pushed. I turned around and saw our bed connected, he pushed it.
"There were no queen beds left when we checked in...I'm sorry for the noise you can go back to sleep now,"seungyoun said as he lied down. I lied down, confused.
Slightly smiling, in this moment I thought,
"Does he still like me?"
To be continued