Delusional Circuit of Megalomania

First Love Han Dong-min 4

“Oh, Dongmin, it’s raining outside.”

한동민

Oh, it's okay. Take care.

I was on my way out after finishing my part-time job.

Did a hole appear in the sky that was perfectly clear during the day?

It rained heavily.

Thump.-

I got into a running stance with the thought of getting drenched in the rain and washing up.

at that time

Han Dong-min

Someone grabbed my name.

김여주

Are you done with your part-time job?

He looked at Dongmin with a faint smile.

한동민

… By any chance, have you been waiting?

김여주

Yeah haha

Her shirt and hair were drenched in the rain, and one side of her face was flushed red from where she had rolled.

한동민

What are you doing in the rain?

한동민

Why the face again…

I ran my eyes down her face.

Red eyes, as if she had just cried, gloomy eyes, one cheek red, and chapped lips.

It was clear that he had been hit by someone.

한동민

Sigh... Let's go inside first.

…

..

.

“What are all those scars?”

I brought her to my studio apartment in a hurry.

김여주

…I fell down-

lie

한동민

By chance

김여주

…I fell down the stairs.

김여주

I was careless..~

한동민

Did you fall on your face?

한동민

It's a miracle that your nose isn't broken.

김여주

…

김여주

…you’re so persistent because you don’t look like that.

The female protagonist frowned as if she was annoyed.

한동민

Yes, yes. - I won't ask.

I sat her down on the bed and brought the first aid kit.

김여주

What, do you have something like this at home?

김여주

He's such a delicate man~

한동민

… No way?

I looked at her.

김여주

… there’s nothing that can’t be done

Han Dong-min is good at making people speechless.

한동민

Ice your cheeks and your lips…

Dongmin's gaze followed her cheek and down to her lips.

There was a strange tension in the gaze that stopped in front of her burst lips.

한동민

…I’ll disinfect it and apply some medicine.

I regained my composure.

김여주

… Yeah, I understand

“Oh, it’s hot..!”

한동민

Please be patient

김여주

Ah, it's hot..!

한동민

The disinfectant is hot, isn't it?

김여주

…annoying, Han Dong-min-

한동민

So just stay still lol

한동민

I'll disinfect it quickly

김여주

…

I applied disinfectant and took out the wound dressing.

Dongmin's finger lightly touched the female protagonist's lips.

I could feel the cautious trembling of the villagers.

His hand smelled like ointment.

I felt like my body was going to flinch at the ticklish touch.

김여주

…it tickles, hurry up and do it

한동민

If you hurry, you'll scream in pain.

김여주

…

That's so true, I have nothing to say.

I had an eerie feeling wondering how much he had figured out about me.

You are quick on the uptake…,

한동민

…

I told you he's secretly like a child...

When I see you screaming in pain from the disinfectant, you can tell that you're only an adult in body...lol

Dongmin thought that appearance was somehow cute.

한동민

Now dry your hair, it's soaked in the rain...;

Dongmin placed a towel over Yeoju's head.

김여주

Uh.., thank you

Look, even if words are indifferent, they are affectionate…

한동민

I'll even give you a change of clothes if you need them.

김여주

huh…

한동민

It might be a little big though.

김여주

…little?

What is it

Just wearing a long-sleeved t-shirt turned it into a one-piece dress.

김여주

… I don’t think it’s a little bit.

한동민

… (laughs)

한동민

…I don't think I'll need pants.

김여주

… Hey, I can see you holding back laughter.

한동민

Oh, really? lol

Now, it was Han Dong-min who was smiling openly.

한동민

You sleep on the bed, I'll sleep on the floor.

He said that and put an ice pack on the female protagonist's face, as if he had made it without realizing it.

김여주

Ugh, tea...! Oh... I see

I took the ice pack that Han Dong-min had handed me and pressed it firmly on my face.

한동민

Should I turn off the lights?

김여주

No, I'm not ready yet

한동민

Then I'll drag it out a little later

김여주

…huh

김여주

But, how long are you going to use polite language?

한동민

…yes?

김여주

We decided to let go of our words

한동민

Oh, I'm not good at talking.

김여주

… Huh, I feel distant~

She seemed to have regained her composure and her smile became more playful.

한동민

You come closer slowly

김여주

…would you like me to come closer?

At this moment, the female protagonist suddenly opened the door.

한동민

…think whatever you want

김여주

Sigh, when will I ever hear my neighbor speak informally to me?

김여주

Won't you do it~~

한동민

…

What do you mean slow, her speed is highway speeding.

한동민

I'll do it if you tell me first.

김여주

…Huh? What?

한동민

Why did you come here today with your face all puffed up?

김여주

…ah

김여주

just…

김여주

just…..

김여주

It's complicated if I say it?

한동민

Tell me, you're not going to sleep now anyway

김여주

..

Five years ago, I was just an ordinary sculpture student.

Until I met him.

등장인물

Professor | Yeoju, how's your graduation exhibition going?

김여주

Oh, yes, professor

등장인물

Professor | There's someone who's seen your work and wants to support it. How about setting up a meal together sometime?

김여주

Yes? Me?

등장인물

Professor | Okay haha

등장인물

Professor | Congratulations to you, who dreams of becoming a sculptor.

김여주

Wow, I can't believe it..

등장인물

Professor | Then let's make an appointment.

김여주

Yes, Professor!

…

What if I hadn't made that promise then?

"Welcome, are you Kim Yeo-ju?"

김여주

Oh, nice to meet you..

차민욱

This isn't the first time (smiles)

김여주

Uh… Professor?

The person who sponsored me was a liberal arts professor.

김여주

How did... me...

차민욱

I studied fine arts for a short time when I was young.

차민욱

My mother was a fine artist, and art is a field that interests me as well. I have an eye for art.

김여주

Professor, your mother is a fine art artist..?

차민욱

Yes, my mother's name is Emma Dawson. She's Korean-American, so this name is probably more famous.

김여주

… Yes? Emma Dawson?

Emma Dawson, a master of pure art, is your mother???

차민욱

Oh, are you really surprised?

김여주

I'm so surprised... It's an honor

김여주

You are my dream role model.

차민욱

Really? What a coincidence.

김여주

…is this a dream?

차민욱

..yes?

김여주

It's like a dream... right now

차민욱

Haha, that's right

Min-wook burst into laughter at the sight of the honest female lead's face.

So I had frequent meals with Professor Cha Min-wook.

The topic of conversation was art, a common interest.

The purpose of this agreement was really purely academic discussion.

Until I fell in love with him.

Cha Min-wook,

He was a man so meticulously groomed that it was hard to believe he was in his forties. He always smelled of a strong musk perfume.

Although he said it was to mask the smell of cigarettes, the musk scent suited him very well.

Is this what a man's adult scent smells like?

I gradually lost my heart to his mature appearance.

His speech, actions, and affection were evident, and the depth of his artistic world drew me in more and more.

He was a man who couldn't help but be fascinating to me.

김여주

Professor... why don't you get married?

김여주

If you're a professor, there'll be a line of women waiting for you...

차민욱

… I’m drunk, should I get up?

Minwook put down the glass he was drinking from and stood up.

김여주

…I didn't drink. -3-

김여주

Professor, you don't know, my nickname is Jo So-gwa and Sool So-rae..~!!

차민욱

…

Min-wook touched his forehead towards the drunken female lead.

차민욱

Do you know what alcohol you drank?

김여주

..yes?

The heroine quickly lifted the glass she was drinking from.

차민욱

40 degrees in that glass.

차민욱

It's lucky if your throat is still alive

김여주

Hehe,, Professor's joke too..~

김여주

What the heck, 40 degrees, my throat is melting..~

차민욱

Yeah, you don't know because you're young

차민욱

Grow old like me and you'll be dead the next day (smile)

김여주

..The professor treats me like an old man too much..-

차민욱

At this age, I'm an old man.

김여주

… No, that’s not it..-(Chew)

The drunken heroine slumped on the table.

차민욱

Sigh… This is really difficult

Min-wook looked at the female protagonist lying on the table and sighed.

“Are you coming to your senses?”

김여주

..Huh? (Shuddering)

차민욱

You're in the car, are you awake?

김여주

…yes,

차민욱

Drink some water, it'll sober you up

Minwook handed over a bottle of water.

김여주

Oh, thank you..

차민욱

Give me the address, while you're at it.

차민욱

I called a substitute driver, so he'll be here soon.

김여주

Ah, ㅇㅇ-gu ㅇㅇ-dong..

차민욱

… Wait, isn’t that the address of the studio?

김여주

..Yes, I'm staying in the studio for a while because I'm behind on my rent.

차민욱

…

Minwook frowned.

차민욱

There's no bed there, right?

김여주

There's a sofa, you can sleep there.

김여주

There's a bathroom where you can wash yourself, and if you feel uneasy, there's also a bathhouse.

차민욱

…

차민욱

… You’re really good at caring about people.

Clank.-

등장인물

Surrogate | Did you call a surrogate?

차민욱

Yes, sir, please go to ㅇㅇ

김여주

…yes?

김여주

Where are you going..??

차민욱

Our house

김여주

yes??

So somehow I arrived at his house.

The house is so grand that there are even stairs leading to the second floor inside.

김여주

Um... Professor, I think my studio would be more comfortable...

차민욱

How to sleep on the sofa

차민욱

Do you ever have to walk around with your back bent when you get older?

김여주

But... if I'm here, the professor will be uncomfortable.

차민욱

You're sleeping at someone else's house, so it's more uncomfortable for you

차민욱

I'm staying at a nearby hotel

차민욱

I don't know if that would be more comfortable for you.

김여주

yes??

차민욱

There are a lot of empty rooms, so be sure to sleep on the bed. If you're hungry, you can eat anything from the fridge.

차민욱

I wonder what there is, but then again, there is delivery.

김여주

No no..!! I'm really okay

김여주

How can you eat and sleep in an ownerless house..!!

차민욱

If it's uncomfortable, think of it as a hotel

차민욱

I'll charge you a cleaning fee (just kidding)

김여주

…

김여주

… No, it's okay

김여주

Professor, don't go to the hotel. Stay here and sleep.

차민욱

Why are you trying to sleep on the sofa in the studio?

김여주

… No, I'll sleep here

김여주

So, Professor, you should sleep here too.

Deep down, I was hoping to be with you longer.

차민욱

Yeah, there are a lot of rooms..

Min-wook didn't feel like it, but he thought it would be more comfortable than having his student sleep on the uncomfortable sofa in the study.

However, the line should not be crossed.

Knock knock...

김여주

Professor, are you sleeping?

차민욱

Why, do you need anything?

김여주

No... I can't sleep

차민욱

Hmm, should I sing you a lullaby?

Minwook smiled faintly.

김여주

..am I a kid?

I was so touched, my heart ached.

차민욱

After all, there's no adult who would whine about not being able to sleep.

김여주

…

김여주

… Yes, the adult professor did a good job

차민욱

Yeah, go in and sleep

dump.-

김여주

Can't I?

I collapsed onto Minwook's bed.

차민욱

What should we do?

Minwook's expression was cold.

김여주

Professor, in your eyes, I am just a child?

차민욱

… I'm really drunk

차민욱

Why don't you go to your room and sleep instead of doing something you'll regret in the morning?

김여주

I mean it, my heart.

차민욱

…

차민욱

…you know that won’t work, right?

김여주

…Why, am I too young to be your teacher?

김여주

24 years old?

차민욱

Do you know how old I am?

김여주

…

김여주

…so what if we're older

차민욱

Older...? Haha

Min-wook laughs in amazement at Yeo-ju's bold answer.

차민욱

When you were sucking on candy, I was sucking on cigarettes.

차민욱

Because he's older, it's not even funny

김여주

…

차민욱

If I met you at this age...

김여주

…it’s so sweet.

차민욱

What the heck? (embarrassed)

Min-wook looked at Yeo-ju with a puzzled expression.

김여주

I'm not even a minor, it's funny...

김여주

They are both grown men and women, what's the problem!!

김여주

And on this night...! If a woman comes to my bedroom! I can't even act like a man!!

Dab thump))

차민욱

Seriously, I'm drunk. This... I have no words for it.

Min-wook urgently covered Yeo-ju's mouth.

I could feel the urgency in his hands, which were dripping with sweat.

김여주

Oops, oops..!!

차민욱

Oh... I'm going crazy

차민욱

Did I bring a person or a mad dog? (sigh)

김여주

Swish,

Yeo-ju bit Min-wook's hand that was covering her mouth.

차민욱

!

Yeo-ju, who was freed from Min-wook's hands, had nowhere else to go.

The bottom line is the capital, let's go for it.

side.-

김여주

If you don't like it from now on, just kick it out.

김여주

Because I'll fall asleep curled up on the sofa in the studio.

차민욱

…

차민욱

…ha.-

…

..

.

So our relationship became strangely twisted.

차민욱

under..-

Early one morning, Min-wook was lying on the sofa with a cigarette in his mouth.

김여주

Why are you up already?

차민욱

… more sleep, why did you come out

김여주

I'm anxious because the professor isn't here...

차민욱

…

차민욱

… Smoking is allowed indoors, so please be aware of this

Ha. - With each exhalation, cigarette smoke billowed over his head.

김여주

Are you thinking of quitting smoking now?

차민욱

Why, live long?

김여주

..yes, it would be good to live long

차민욱

Are you even going to lift my hand?

김여주

…

차민욱

…?

차민욱

Hey.., no way;

김여주

Just, you can imagine...

차민욱

Haa..-, I'm definitely crazy..

Min-wook extinguished the cigarette he was holding in his mouth in horror.

So, the relationship between Min-wook and Yeo-ju remained unresolved.

Although Yeo-ju spent time with Min-wook by visiting his house, he never showed any emotional connection with her.

Perhaps the time we spent together was cold. I could see that we were drawing emotional lines.

No, rather, it seemed like he was treating me more indifferently, as if he was trying to tear me away from the foolish love I had fallen for.

Suddenly.-

차민욱

Cigarettes are

김여주

Here it is, Dunhill

Yeo-ju handed Min-wook a pack of cigarettes.

And with a lemon candy in one hand.

차민욱

What is this again?

김여주

It's a smoking cessation candy.

김여주

These days, they say they're holding on with smoking cessation candy.

김여주

Last time, you said you didn't like strawberry flavor, so I changed it to lemon flavor.

차민욱

…her,

차민욱

But that's not really my taste.

김여주

Of course, since you are an adult, Professor^^

차민욱

…now you even notice

Minwook opened the lemon-flavored Chupop Chups plastic bag and put it in his mouth.

차민욱

..Yeah, I'd rather be new

Minwook rolled the candy in his mouth once or twice and made a face as if he was satisfied with it.

김여주

Do you like lemon flavor?

차민욱

Sit down, let's go

김여주

I'll buy lemon flavor next time too haha

차민욱

Or so

차민욱

Belt or saddle

김여주

…yes yes-

Boohoo...-

“You go in first.”

김여주

What about the professor?

차민욱

I'll park and come in.

차민욱

…however,

Min-wook glanced down and stopped in front of Yeo-ju's shoes.

차민욱

They're sneakers

김여주

Ah.., because I wear heels so often... my feet..

차민욱

When you meet me, wear only heels.

차민욱

Because it looks better that way.

김여주

… Yes, I understand

He sometimes had strange stubbornness.

But I was also amazing for following his words to the letter.

I've also gotten used to the daily routine of wearing heels.

I tried to stay by his side until the end.

But I didn't know that my efforts were really useless.

Until the topic of marriage came out of his mouth.

“I’m preparing for marriage.”

김여주

yes?

차민욱

Now that I'm full of energy, I can't put it off any longer.

차민욱

To find out about a blind date

김여주

…

김여주

… Then, what happens to me?

차민욱

If I get married, if you don't want to be my mistress, you'll have to live your own life.

김여주

…

김여주

… I’ll go first.

…

..

.

I left the house in shock.

But the only place I could go was the studio.

The daily routine was always repeating: professor's house -> studio -> convenience store -> home again.

The only thing I could get away from him was the convenience store in front of my house.

김여주

Hi, Dongmin..~

Picking on the convenience store worker was a small source of entertainment in my tiring daily life.

한동민

… Welcome

김여주

lol

Looking at that stiff, hardened face, a wicked symbol that made me want to tease him popped out.

It's clear that I got it from Cha Min-wook.

김여주

Dongmin, eat this~^^

I gave the part-timer a strawberry-flavored candy.

It was a cute tantrum to give her strawberry candy that she wasn't even going to eat.

I wanted to know the psychology of Cha Min-wook, who acts like an adult and pretends to be an adult.

한동민

…

The part-timer who received the strawberry-flavored candy looked at the candy's outer shell with a disgusted expression, as if he was about to pierce it.

That face was so funny

There was a playful charm to the cute corner.

I felt relieved in front of that young part-timer.

In front of him, I didn't have to wear high heels. I didn't have to worry about what other people thought all day. I could show off my usual self without any problems.

I even briefly wondered how nice it would be if the weight of my heart could tilt in that direction.

I thought about it the whole time I was dragging Han Dong-min's slippers that day.

What if I had liked you?

I wonder if this feeling is a little bit better.

I wanted to like that kid.

To put my mind at ease.

…

… that can't be possible

I went to his blind date place one by one.

차민욱

Why are you here…

김여주

…

I came back after causing a huge commotion.

Who would have thought that Cha Min-wook's blind date would hit him in the face?

The cheek I was hit on was cold.

But at this rate, I have no intention of marrying Cha Min-wook.

There must be a crazy woman next to you, so you'll avoid her because her shit is dirty.

차민욱

If I ruin one person, I ruin them badly.

차민욱

If you've pushed it this far, shouldn't it have fallen off on its own?

차민욱

Do you really not know, or are you pretending not to know?

김여주

…How can a professor just cut it off at will?

김여주

Then why don’t you kick him out then?

차민욱

…

차민욱

…ha,,

…

..

.

The way back was so miserable.

My luck was so bad that I got drenched in a sudden downpour.

김여주

…fuck (mumble)

Meanwhile, Cha Min-wook's face came to mind.

The harsh words he had spoken to me, his tired face turned towards me, came back to me one by one.

Seriously, are you sick of me now?

I felt depressed at the thought.

At times like this, I feel selfish again

That guy.

Han Dong-min

한동민

?

김여주

Are you done with your part-time job?

한동민

… By any chance, have you been waiting?

김여주

Yeah haha

I went to see that guy again.

…

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I think it will end in the next episode

I felt a sense of responsibility for the comments from the last episode, so I wrote this in a hurry... haha🙈