어머니는 사고로 돌아가시고 남은 건 알코올 중독자 아버지, 친했던 친구의 배신으로 학교에서는 왕따. 나에게 남은 건 하나도 없었다.

※ 폭력과 욕설이 많이 들어 있습니다. 욕과 폭력을 꺼려하시는 분들은 안 보시는 걸 추천드립니다※

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저는 왕따입니다

EP. 02 | 장난감이니까

Without realizing it, I shook off their hands, grabbed my bag, and ran out of the classroom.

I came out of school and rummaged through my school bag.

A crumpled 5,000 won note found deep in the bag.

I went into the pharmacy holding that bill.

If I hadn't been hit by my dad, we wouldn't have become close.

The pharmacist thought for a while, then rummaged through a drawer and handed me a bottle of sleeping pills.

Here's 3,000 won, it's free if you call me oppa

Sticking out my lips looks a little crooked, but that doesn't matter to me.

I handed over a crumpled 5,000 won note, received 2,000 won in change, and took some sleeping pills.

Sleeping pills... Don't take too much at once.

I muttered something and walked quickly to a nearby supermarket to buy some bottled water.

I went into a deserted park and sat down on a bench.

He opened the bottle of sleeping pills and poured them into his mouth without hesitation as the pills fell into his palm.

I swallowed it with water and then threw the bottle of sleeping pills on the floor.

I was lying on the bench looking at the clear sky, and I started to feel sleepy, perhaps because of the sleeping pills.

When I opened my eyes, which seemed like they would never open again, I saw a dark sky.

I took out my phone and checked the time. It was already 11 PM.

I walked home with difficulty, my steps trembling.

Hey you bitch!! What time is it and why are you coming in now!!

At my father's words, I went into my room without saying a word and locked the door.

The door rattled for a moment, but then it quieted down.

I rummaged through my desk drawer and pulled out a box cutter.

I lightly drew a line on my wrist and red blood began to flow from the thin line.

I was in pain... I suddenly felt scared as if I was going to lose my breath.