One day, my heart said it was dying.
06 | He said he wanted to live.
I'm not afraid of disappearing, but…
I was afraid of not seeing you anymore.
[One day, destruction came to our front door. _ From the drama]
In a quiet hospital room where no words were exchanged for a while...
The only sound that could be heard was the two people's breathing.
In the midst of the awkward silence, it was her attending physician who broke the silence first.
He spoke to her, resting one hand on his head.
담당 주치의
Ms. Han Su-ah, are you serious about what you just said?
한 수아
Yes, I'm serious.
담당 주치의
… that is a drug that is still in the clinical trial stage.
담당 주치의
It is not yet a legally approved item.
담당 주치의
So the risk to the patient is very high..-
The doctor began to explain at length, as if trying to dissuade her from making her choice.
Then she smiled slightly, interrupted the doctor, and answered.
한 수아
Teacher, I know that much too well.
한 수아
There is also the possibility that side effects may occur..-
담당 주치의
Why would someone who knows that well-..!!
The doctor raised his voice and shouted at her when she replied that she said that despite being aware of the side effects.
Even if there is a chance that his patient will survive, which doctor would easily recommend it?
And, if your patient is willing to gamble their life on an unstable drug, even if it means risking their life on a slim chance...
What doctor in the world wouldn't stop her? That's why he couldn't help but get angry at her, his patient.
However, she seemed to not hear what he was saying, and slowly opened her mouth while looking at the doctor with tears in her eyes.
한 수아
Teacher, at first I thought I was going to die...
한 수아
I really tried to accept my fate calmly, unlike other people-…
한 수아
That guy. My one and only boyfriend.
한 수아
Seeing our Jungkook crying…
한 수아
When you look at that, it seems like it could collapse in an instant, right?
She spoke, shedding tears she had been holding back, one by one, and the doctor felt uneasy as he watched her.
Because he knew better than anyone that whatever he said now would not comfort her.
So I could only listen to her without saying anything...
한 수아
Really, dying doesn't matter-..
한 수아
But, after I die, Jeong-guk will be left alone in pain...
한 수아
When I think about that person being so sad...
한 수아
I feel like my heart is being torn to pieces-..
She ended up sobbing loudly and bursting into tears right there.
At that moment, the doctor felt truly sorry for her, who was crying like a child right in front of him.
She rubbed her eyes with both hands, wiped away her tears, and knelt before the doctor.
The doctor, startled by her behavior, started fidgeting and shouted at her.
담당 주치의
Patient Han Su-ah..!
담당 주치의
What are you doing now!?
담당 주치의
Wake up quickly!
한 수아
Teacher, please...
한 수아
Please help me.. Yes??
담당 주치의
Patient Han Su-ah...-
한 수아
Please… I want to live-.
한 수아
As long as I can afford it, it doesn't matter if it's a clinical trial or an unapproved drug!
한 수아
It doesn't matter if there are side effects or if something is wrong with your body..!
한 수아
therefore…-
한 수아
So that I can live next to that person...
한 수아
Teacher, please help me.. please-…
한 수아
Teacher, please save me…
한 수아
I don't want to die leaving that person alone..-
She cried out, holding onto the doctor's leg.
The doctor's eyes, looking at her like that, were suddenly moist...
At that moment, I just felt sorry for her, who was clinging to me and shedding tears.
Can humans be so weak in the face of love?
I'm not afraid of dying... but I want to live because I'm afraid of my loved ones being left alone and sad...
Could there be anything more ironic than this?
Sometimes, there are moments when you can't help but think that God asks questions to humans, but at the same time, He also throws trials at them.
For a while, the only sound in the hospital room was her crying.
전 정국
…-
I just sat there, holding my breath, listening to their conversation from outside the door… -
After some time, only her crying could be heard in the hospital room.
As I listened to her crying voice, tears began to well up in my eyes.
What should I say to her like this..?
What should I do about her tears?
I've always been the one who shouts in front of her and says I'll do anything for her...
Actually, right now, there is nothing left that I can do for her.
When I realized that, it was a moment when I felt so incompetent.
June 20XX.
One day, the sky was so blue and clear.
My [heart] cried, saying it wanted to live.