psychotherapy center
Getting used to it (1)
강여주
"oh..."
민윤기
"....;;;;;;;"
My brother said as I stared at the back of his head as he was getting a drink from the vending machine.
김석진
"What are you doing?"
강여주
"...Oppa..!!!!"
김석진
"Surprise, what's wrong?"
강여주
"If you look at me that closely, my heart won't stop beating!!"
김석진
"...!! Be quiet. What are you doing when there's someone else there..."
Squeak-knock!
강여주
"That guy is gone?"
김석진
"It's because you keep nagging me."
강여주
"Brother, I'm 15 years old and you're 22."
김석진
"yep."
강여주
"Do you think the age gap is big?"
김석진
"There will be a generation gap."
강여주
"Really? Hmm..."
강여주
"Well, it's okay."
김석진
"What kind of prank are you trying to play again..."
강여주
"Just wait five years."
강여주
"I'll take you then."
민윤기
"get out."
엄마
"Don't you want to listen to your mother? Don't you want to know about that girl?"
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"Fuck, get out of here!!!!!!!"
엄마
"Hmm... okay. But Yoongi."
엄마
"There is a limit to how much I can look after."
widely-
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"evil!!!!!!!!"
It's annoying.
I want to smash them all.
I was so sick of living in a house that was like bean powder that I thought I would die...
???
'Oppa! You have to wait until I come to Korea!'
I was going crazy and wanted to die,
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"It's like X."
엄마
'Oh my, Yoongi!!!'
When I tried to kill myself by cutting my pulse.
I wonder if he wanted to pretend to be good until the end in front of his father.
Even at the last moment when I was about to lose my mind
The author, who was called Mom, was glaring at me with cold eyes.
???
"Die. Die."
???
"It's because of you. Our family is ruined."
Sorry.
???
"I'm so miserable!!!!!!!"
Sorry...
???
"Die!!!! You little bastard!!!!"
Yeah, you'd better blame me like that.
Hate me.
That way I feel at ease.
엄마
"Yoongi. You take over."
money.
엄마
"That's how this mother..."
That damn money.
엄마
"How much has your mom done for you!!!!!!!"
This is crazy.
Did you do it?
I haven't received anything since I was born into this world.
???
"I hate you."
엄마
"You take over."
???
"Just die."
엄마
"You need money to be happy."
Oh, I got something.
What I received when I was born into this world.
indifference
and...
.
..
...
....
.....
..what happened?
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"Oh, shit?"
I had another dream.
What a fucking dream.
nightmare.
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"I received it..."
???
'I like you, oppa!'
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"Still, I was happy for a little while."
..
...
What else was there?
Have I ever been happier than that?
아빠
"Love? What kind of family are you from to say something like that?"
Something I've heard since I was little, but I don't even remember,
엄마
'How old are you to be acting like a child? Look at your brothers!!!!!'
Don't act like a spoiled brat.
Don't show your emotions on your face.
Don't waste money on useless things.
???
'The hospital food is bad today. Ugh.'
Since then, things have gone back to normal.
Because I hid my emotions so much, it felt like they had frozen.
That guy who broke down because of me.
???
'개같은 새끼.'
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"Yeah. Hate me."
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"I don't even know the news. If I do that, it means I'm alive."
Hate me.
That's okay. It's okay to feel resentful.
Anyway...
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"I'm used to being hated."