psychotherapy center
Self-harm (2)
강여주
"Brother.."
김석진
"Who are you to stop me from dying!!!!!!"
강여주
"I just..."
김석진
"I want to die, what are you interfering with!!!!!"
강여주
"......."
김석진
"Get out. Fuck. I don't even want to see you."
강여주
"oppa.."
김석진
"get out!!!!!!!!!!!"
bang-
In the end, I was kicked out.
간호사
"Are you the guardian?"
강여주
"Yes? No..? Should I just call him...a friend.."
간호사
"Really? The only time I saw this patient speak was when I was talking to you..."
강여주
"Oh...but what's going on?"
간호사
"You've finally come to your senses, but if you keep doing that, it's going to be dangerous."
간호사
"It seems like you're almost addicted... You were addicted to drugs when you were first brought in."
강여주
"..ah.."
간호사
"I'm going to go now. Please speak nicely."
강여주
"yes."
After the nurse left, I looked at my brother through the window and then turned my steps toward the hospital room.
강여주
"No matter what, he hates me so much..."
강여주
"I'm tired now."
강여주
"hello?"
[Yes. This is the police station.]
강여주
"What's going on?"
[There's that perpetrator. He got a prison sentence...]
강여주
"!!!! How much is it..?"
[2 years...]
bang-
강여주
"Fuck!!!!!! Aaak!!!!!!!"
The kid who's been hitting me since elementary school has only been doing this for two years? Does that make sense?
When I looked at the thrown cell phone, the LCD screen was already shattered and the screen was turned off.
강여주
"It's okay. I don't have anyone to contact anyway."
I threw everything away and lay down on the bed.
The ceiling was white.
Looking at this reminds me of my mom.
엄마
'Honey, should I make you some kimchi fried rice?'
강여주
"Ugh.."
엄마
'Our heroine is pretty. Mom, give her a hug.'
강여주
"Oh...ah..."
엄마
'My lady.'
강여주
"mom.."
엄마
'Mom loves you so much.'
강여주
"I miss you... sigh..."
Tears started to flow so fast that I couldn't see.
After that,
I think I just cried like crazy.
강여주
"ah.."
김석진
"......."
When I went to the hospital rooftop to cool my swollen eyes, my brother was there.
김석진
"........."
강여주
"Where is that thing up now..? (mumble)"
This hospital is a general hospital.
It must be at least 10 floors high.
however..
At first glance, I was standing on a railing that was obviously precariously high.
no way..
강여주
"Brother."
김석진
"Hah..what are you again?"
강여주
"What are you doing? Are you going to come out of there?"
김석진
"So what? I wish this world would just disappear. People like me aren't needed."
강여주
"Shut up!!! Don't talk nonsense. I understand that you're having a hard time, oppa. But do you think dying will solve all of this?"
김석진
"..Then what should I do.. There is no one on my side."
강여주
"Who said that?"
김석진
"what?"
강여주
"I'm on your side, but who said there's no one on your side?"
I approached my brother, who was standing there blankly, grabbed his arm and made him come down.
Oh, I hugged her too.
강여주
"I don't want to die..."
강여주
"I just don't want to live like that."
김석진
"........"
강여주
"You're trying to survive more than anyone else."
강여주
"I know that feeling."
강여주
"It's okay if there's just one person by your side who comforts you..."
Seeing my brother's body tremble, I thought he was crying. For some reason, my eyes stung.
강여주
"And this is not 'sympathy', this is 'comfort'."
강여주
"Live. Let's live. What should I say to that couple who threw that guy away?"
강여주
"I used to think about this too when I was thinking about my brother."
강여주
"I have to survive."