Suicide by fear
Episode 9
Organizing my things...
배소연
Wow... so I'm being discharged now.
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I know...
배소연
So, sir, I have to go to school again, right?
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Haa.....- Sorry...-
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This is all I can do...
배소연
No problem... Thank you...
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(Hugs) I'm sorry.... Let's just hold on a little longer...
배소연
Yes... heh
That embrace was warm and
His embrace was broad and
That embrace was a comfort.
배소연
Then, I'm going home now.
배소연
I'll go starting tomorrow...
옹성우
okay...-
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let's go...-
배소연
Phew...
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If things get tough, shall we be together?
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yes?
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No... what kind of strange thoughts are you having...
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Since it's spacious anyway...
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Phew....
배소연
is it so...-
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I don't want to be alone in a house that's already so big.
배소연
Please use the entire second floor.
배소연
I'll take the first floor.
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okay..-
배소연
ha......
Today is tough again...
배소연
Let's go into the room..
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ha.....-
It just keeps... increasing sighs
It just keeps...the scars keep increasing...
I want to die....
I want to escape this hell
Seriously... what did I do to deserve this...
Does it really have to be this hard?
배소연
(Take out a utility knife)
Squeak
And so, it grows one line at a time every day.
Blood flowed down my wrist
It wets the white blanket
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ha...-
The bleeding did not stop,
My tears did not stop, either,
My scars have increased too.
People ask
"Why would you self-harm?"
"What does it feel like to self-harm?"
It hurts if you self-harm
The reason I still do it is
That pain at least helped me forget the pain of my emotional wounds.
Because that pain soothed my suicidal impulses, even if only a little.
To be continued in the next episode...