Taesan these days
Before calling Hayoon's name
Open and close your mouth twice.
Before I even start talking,
My heart wavers first,
Without understanding the shaking itself
He was becoming increasingly quiet.
“When I dream these days… my hands keep shaking.”
He said so.
"In my dreams, I miss someone.
I can't see that person's face very well.
But my hands were small and warm… "
He stopped talking.
“…I was used to it. Your hand.”
I avoided his eyes.
The words, the laughter, everything seemed fake.
When all my memories come back,
I'm afraid that this warmth will eventually disappear.
That night
Taesan had a dream.
In front of the front door.
Someone is crying.
He can't open the door.
The sound of crying grows farther and farther away,
He covers his ears with both hands.
"are you okay.
It's okay if you don't remember."
A voice coming from somewhere.
and-
“I think you
I hope you are happy.
Even without memories.”
He suddenly woke up breathless.
Cold sweat on my hands.
Tear stains.
That voice… was Hayoon.
The next day
Taesan met Hayun.
"I had a dream."
He said.
"This time I heard a voice.
…it was your voice."
Hayoon couldn't laugh.
“…What did I say?”
He answered quietly.
“I said it was okay.
“It’s okay if you don’t remember.”
“That kind of talk…
Have you ever done this in real life?”
Hayoon shook her head.
Her lips were white.
"no.
“I have never done it.”
It was a lie.
That was before he erased his memory,
Those were the last words he said.
A few days later.
Taesan found a diary.
Inside the old public practice room,
It doesn't even have my name written on it
My hand kept going there.
The diary was covered in doodles.
One page in the middle.
“2024.6.14
Taesan had a hard time today.
Is it right for me to be by your side?
Even if he didn't know me,
“I will still love him.”
The pen marks were spread out
Paper that has been worn a lot.
He sat there for a long time without moving.
Something passed by quickly.
A familiar font.
A feeling so precise, written without a name.
“…You didn’t write it?”
He asked Hayoon.
It was a gut feeling.
Hayoon didn't answer.
instead,
“Have you ever felt that feeling?”
I asked back like that.
He nodded.
"It's been like that these days.
You seem to know me,
I think I knew you too
Everything is new.
That's weird,
Sometimes… I get scared.”
Hayoon's eyes shook.
“Even if I don’t remember,
“Do you still have feelings?”
He didn't answer.
Instead, I closed my eyes.
One scene that comes to mind is this.
I was crying,
Someone was talking and kissing my forehead.
“If we meet again in the next life,
Don't forget that time."