It was just like that. The circular numbers on the tiny icons, the size of fingernails, the various alarms that took up space at the top of the screen, they were all incredibly boring. It was the first summer that had arrived without Choi Seungcheol infiltrating my daily life. It was unusually hot, and flies would swarm me frequently. Every time, I'd wave my hand away without showing any sign of annoyance, and only then would they go away. When summer comes, I forget winter. In summers like this, I miss the distinct scent of winter. Then, when winter returns, I miss summer again. Choi Seungcheol, you're the same. You were so integral to my life that I couldn't even imagine the days without you, and with your sudden disappearance, the deep feelings of those days together were fading away. You vanished in an instant? Was it really just an instant? Couldn't I have done something more at the end?
You were my inhalation and my exhalation. I let you go, never realizing your existence, your precious value, because we shared our daily lives together and took it for granted. I couldn't breathe without you. Breathing without inhalation and exhalation cannot be breathing. Without breathing, the heart cannot beat. Without you, I am dead. Although physically, my blood is still flowing throughout my body, my mind, my soul, and my energy are all dead. I remain by your cold side, where the blood has truly stopped moving. We are far apart, yet we are together, unable to feel or see each other's warmth. If we weren't together, my heart wouldn't ache this much. For my mind to breathe properly, couldn't you stay by my side just a little longer?
Just for one day,
Just a few minutes,
Just a little bit,
For life only.