5 years ago, 5 years later

Ep.15 Nightmare

write. Uhwari

Do-hwan slowly let go of Yeo-ju's hand. No, it seemed as if the strength in his hand had gone.

Do-hwan gave Yeo-ju a sly smile.

우도환[21]

"Ha, that's too bad. I wish I was faster than Choi Soo-bin."

이여주[19]

“..........”

Yeoju avoided Dohwan's eyes without saying a word.

우도환[21]

"Don't be so awkward. Why are you more serious than me?"

이여주[19]

“I’m sorry… I should have known from the beginning...”

이여주[19]

“I was so tactless.”

우도환[21]

“So why is someone who is so perceptive so clueless in a place like this?”

이여주[19]

“Because no one has ever liked me.”

Do-hwan bent his knees and got eye level with the female protagonist.

우도환[21]

“Who is the person you like in front of you?”

우도환[21]

“Don’t think that no one likes you. There are more people who like you than you think.”

우도환[21]

“It’s the same even if you look at me.”

Yeoju finally looked straight into Dohwan's eyes.

우도환[21]

“I should be as happy as I am.”

우도환[21]

“You’re the first one to drive me, so I’ll be happy in return.”

The heroine nodded quietly.

우도환[21]

“But don’t cut off contact with me.”

Do-hwan smiled at Yeo-ju, then turned around and went somewhere.

The heroine lowered her head and headed home after a few minutes.

Do-hwan took out a cigarette, looked at it intently, and threw it to the floor.

이여주[14]

“I’m Lee Yeo-ju. What’s your name?”

우도환[16]

Woo Do-hwan. How old are you?

I miss those days, even though it all happened because of Choi Soo-bin.

I liked you, I loved you. That's for sure.

우도환[21]

"Goodbye now"

Do-hwan went out into the alley

And I decided never to return to this alley again.

But a few tears flowed from Do-hwan's eyes. Deeper and more intense tears than the end of unrequited love, as if he were now emptying them out with his tears. Five years of love.

About a week passed since then. Do-hwan sent me text messages as usual, but he never mentioned inviting me to come.

And today

이여주[19]

“The day of the school trip”

Normally I wouldn't be nervous at all, but I was nervous because I thought I was traveling with Subin.

The destination of the school trip is Jeju Island

Men and women sat separately, and the female lead couldn't even sit near Subin.

이여주[19]

"Ha, I'm so tired"

It was Yeo-ju's first time on an airplane, but she wasn't particularly impressed because she's a child who doesn't express her emotions.

No one could tell what Subin's face looked like, but Yeoju knew she was excited.

이여주[19]

‘You’re cute’

The heroine smiled slightly.

After getting off the plane, I arrived at my lodging without even saying a word to Subin.

Her roommate went to meet his friends in another room, and the woman, left alone, collapsed on the bed.

이여주[19]

“I wish every day could be this peaceful.”

The female protagonist lay down for a while, unpacked her luggage, and then came out into the hallway at the teacher's direction.

선생님

“Okay, men and women, stand in a line.”

Yeoju quickly stood next to Soobin.

이여주[19]

“Hello Subin, it’s been a while, hasn’t it?”

최수빈[19]

“Oh, I see.”

이여주[19]

“No, that’s not really true. I’m just asking why you didn’t come to me during break earlier.”

최수빈[19]

“Why should I go?”

이여주[19]

“I don’t even have any friends”

최수빈[19]

"losing"

이여주[19]

"Hey Choi Soo-bin, don't be alone. Come here."

The heroine spoke to Soobin, who was just sitting in the shade.

최수빈[19]

“I don’t like it, it’s hot”

Honestly, since I'm the kind of girl who hates heat and burning things, I thought that was right and sat down next to Soobin.

이여주[19]

“It’s peaceful”

Subin nodded slightly without saying anything.

이여주[19]

“Peace is closer than you think.”

이여주[19]

“Things that were unthinkable just a few years ago are happening now.”

최수빈[19]

“What is happening”

이여주[19]

“Meeting you”

I thought I'd never see you again. I blamed myself for letting you go, saying my world had already crumbled.

But now you are by my side, even though you are a little different.

최수빈[19]

“..........”

Subin just touched the sand without saying anything.

Even without saying anything, I loved this moment being next to you.

선생님

“Today is the first day, so I’ll go right in, but tomorrow is a bit busy, so get some sleep and see you tomorrow.”

After waving briefly at Subin, Yeoju went into her room.

여학생

“Honey, did you bring lotion?”

이여주[19]

"huh"

여학생

“Oh really? Can you lend it to me?? I forgot to bring it... I’ll just use it for a little bit!”

It was something a normal female protagonist would have ignored. She was attached to her possessions.

이여주[19]

"Okay. Okay, write it down."

여학생

“Thank you~!”

The heroine smiled faintly, proud of her changing appearance.

If you saw my changing appearance, what kind of expression would you make?

Trigger Warning: This material may cause trauma.

“Lady..., save me....”

이여주[7]

“I’m home! Mom! I did some origami at kindergarten today, and look at this! It’s a crown! I’m giving this to you… Mom?”

The heroine's words trailed off, and the focus of her eyes naturally blurred.

여주 아빠

“If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be living like this!”

여주 엄마

“Keuk.. Sa.. Save me... Please..”

The female protagonist froze motionless, unable to shed a single tear. Her father climbed on top of her mother and strangled her without mercy.

Yeoju's mother followed the tears flowing down her face and met Yeoju's eyes. Her other cheek was swollen and swollen.

여주 엄마

“My lady...my lady.....”

여주 엄마

“Please save Mom...”

The heroine's mother grabbed the father's collar, scratched his face, and kicked his feet, but the alcoholic's strength was strong.

From the head of the female protagonist's mother, blood flowed out, redder than the two people's hearts that had once burned more intensely and crimson than the passionate love between them, and soaked the floor.

이여주[7]

“Mom...Mom..?”

I didn't think about anything. I just ran to my mom and hugged her. No, I hugged her.

After holding her, I noticed that my body was covered in blood. I felt guilty, as if I had killed her.

이여주[7]

“Mom...Mom...!”

이여주[7]

“Why can’t I hear my heartbeat..”

Just as a mere bug dies with a snap, so too does a person die with a snap.

He died helplessly, unable to even scream. He died in a hurry, shedding tears.

However, my father was briefly imprisoned for being mentally unstable and drunk due to alcoholism.

I ruined someone's life, I took someone's life, and the sin was very weak. I killed someone with that damned alcohol, I rotted someone.

That damned drink got that kid out without even paying for his crimes.

Why is it that the perpetrator is the one who is blamed, but the victim cries, spit out blood?

"Hey, why didn't you save Mom? I screamed for you to save me. Save me, save me, save me, save me, save me, save me, ahhh."

Why did you just watch me die, huh?

이여주[19]

"omg!"

With a short, jaw-stopping cry, the heroine woke up from a nightmare, not a sleep.

이여주[19]

“Ha...this dream again.....”

The female protagonist spoke softly. Fortunately, her roommate was sleeping soundly next to her.

Whenever I try to forget, I have this dream again. Does my mother resent me? If only I had called an ambulance just a little sooner, wouldn't she still be alive?

The past cannot be rectified, but people live with regret because they remember the past.

I felt like I couldn't sleep any longer, so I quietly left the room.

As I walked a little further from the accommodation, a view that I could not see in the city unfolded.

이여주[19]

"pretty....."

Yeoju found a bench. Subin was sitting there.

이여주[19]

“What, why aren’t you sleeping?”

Yeoju sat down next to Soobin, and Soobin was startled for a moment.

최수빈[19]

“I just can’t sleep.”

최수빈[19]

“Why did you come out?”

이여주[19]

“I just... can’t sleep either.”

Subin glanced at Yeoju for a moment, then looked up at the sky again.

이여주[19]

“The sky is pretty.”

최수빈[19]

“That’s right.”

이여주[19]

“It’s a sight you can’t see in the city.”

최수빈[19]

“I think there are many beautiful things in the world that cannot be seen with the eyes.”

Subin seemed intoxicated by the dawn's emotions. Yeoju smiled briefly, remembering Subin from five years ago.

이여주[19]

"Why is something so beautiful hidden? Oh, no. In the old days, this sky must have bloomed all over the country."

이여주[19]

“In the end, it was people who made this beautiful thing pure.”

Soobin continued speaking after seeing the slightly depressed Yeoju's slumped shoulders.

최수빈[19]

"Even if we hide beauty, it still exists somewhere. It's not that it's gone, it's just that we can't find it."

최수빈[19]

“And it feels even better when you get lucky like us and find it, right?”

Yeoju looked at Subin, lifted her head, and nodded vigorously.

Happiness is the same. Even if you think it's gone because of people, if you look for it, it's there. It's not gone, it's hidden.

That happiness is so precious and valuable that we must cherish it even more. Because it was hard to find.

That's why I love Subin so much

I feel relieved. I used to feel complicated when I dreamed of my mother, but today was different.

I even had a crazy thought: Did my mom wake me up just to meet this beautiful sky and Subin?

When I tell this dream like this, it doesn't feel like a nightmare.

Yeo-ju nods off, as if her tension has eased. She rests her head on Subin's shoulder and falls asleep.

Subin made a flustered expression, then took off her outer garment and covered the female protagonist.

최수빈[19]

“........”

최수빈[19]

“If you come out with your eyes red, how can I push you away? Seriously...”

I'm trying so hard to push you away. Being stuck with you makes me have nightmares. The nightmare from five years ago.

I had a nightmare today because I was with you, so I came out. And then, a little while later, you, the cause of my nightmare, came out.

I felt really bad the moment I saw him. He was the main character in my nightmares.

but

I couldn't push away your cold sweat, rapid breathing, and red eyes.

And this wonderful scenery and the conversation that really touched my heart

The dream wasn't like a nightmare.

Ep.15 Nightmare

우화리

What the heck, I don't know what the hell you're talking about

우화리

Oh, I'm so out of it with two weeks left until the exam that I forgot to write halfway through.

우화리

Please let me know if there's anything I need to fix. I'm out of my mind.

우화리

There probably won't be any posts for two weeks now because I have an exam in two weeks.

우화리

Well, thank you for watching today too.