A collection of short stories about Baekhyun Byun
Universe
Contrary to my feelings, I said hurtful words. I, who made you suffer, am also suffering.
변백현
"Let's break up."
For some reason, words that hurt you came out of my mouth. I thought I'd never hurt you again, but they came out against my will, unintentionally. The words I'd only ever thought about in my head finally came out of my mouth and were spoken to you.
The reason I thought this was because I realized you seemed to be having a hard time while you were by my side. As I thought about it, it seemed like your struggles were rubbing off on me.
Nothing has improved, contrary to my resolutions. I regret always disappointing you.
So, I wanted to make you happy without making you feel tired, even though you seemed tired. So, I made a promise to myself that I would make you happy from now on. A few days passed after making that promise, but nothing had changed. Even though nothing had changed, I waited for your reaction, but you weren't happy.
I built up high hopes, telling you I'd make you happy, only to end up disappointing you. Seeing you disappoint me filled me with regret. I was afraid you'd be even more disappointed if you stayed with me, so I told you we should break up.
I don't think I'll ever forget the night when the wind gets cold, I blow my breath and touch your breath
Memories with you, I can't forget. Because they were only such happy times.. The wind has grown colder since we parted ways. I thought I would be with you even when the wind grew cold, but you're no longer by my side. Are you playing, blowing on my breath like last winter, at a distance where we can't even breathe?
A night of dreaming of tomorrow, shining like starlight, with warm embraces and happy laughter
Last winter,
나
"Hey! Look at your breath, it's really cold~ Hoo~ Hoo~ Haha"
You, who had been smiling happily while blowing on my breath, hugged me saying you were cold.
나
"Ah~ It's warm~ Hehe"
You, smiling happily in my arms, shone like the stars in the sky in my eyes. I hope this happiness continues tomorrow, I thought, beneath the starlight shining in the dark night sky.
I``ll search the universe Until I find you again I won't let go of even the smallest memory
If I can't find you in this country, in this world, I'll go to space and find you. I'll remember every single one of these memories, even the smallest ones, until I find you again.
Our memories, engraved in the seasons, will return again and again to call you.
If I forget, our memories will come back to me with each change of season. I'm told to look for you, that if I stay still, I'll forget, and so the seasons that return again and again will call out to me in my memories.
Laughter and tears, wounds and healing, questions and answers are all within you.
In the memories brought by the seasons, you brought back memories I hadn't even thought of. You reminded me of your smile, which I longed to see so much, and of you crying after we said goodbye.
As expected, I knew I'd hurt you if I said we should break up, and I wanted to soothe that pain, that hurt. But now that I'd said we should break up, I couldn't do anything because I wondered what I could do.
You even asked me questions. What should I do? I don't want to hurt that woman. You asked me questions, but the answers didn't come from me. I should have asked you. Maybe you could have found the answers...
The moment my little universe, my world, disappears, I too will disappear.
You are my whole world, my little universe. If you were to die or disappear, I might disappear from this world too.
I``ll search the universe Until I find you again I won't let go of even the smallest memory
So, so. I had to find you. To protect my world, my universe. I knew my choice was wrong. I now realize that if I were to break up with you, my universe would be given to someone else.
Now I'll chase you to the ends of the universe, until I find you again. Before I lose the memories that hold your memories.
Our memories, engraved in the seasons, will return again and again to call you.
Memories of that season and that day with you return again and again, swirling through my mind. Now it feels like you're calling me. I was going crazy. I tried to forget you, but I couldn't. I stayed up all night, but all I could think about were memories of you.
Memories always bring tears Woo baby, where everything has been washed away Leave only you behind
Even though I can't forget, the memories bring tears to my eyes. The sight of you crying was so painful that I cried. Why is it that my memories of everything have faded, yet you remain in my memory? Now that memories have brought tears to my eyes, tears are streaming down my cheeks.
I know that it's not a feeling that can be broken in just one day.
The day we broke up, I vowed to break up with him immediately, to forget him. Maybe it wasn't because I hated him, but because I tried to break up with him, I couldn't.
It hurts so much that I go to you no matter where you are
That unbreakable heart only felt painful. I tried to forget you, but instead of forgetting, my heart seemed to only deepen. So, to not forget, I held on to every memory, every recollection, of you.
So I didn't hesitate any longer. I just ran. I didn't know where you were, but I ran everywhere to find you.
I``ll search the universe Until I find you again I won't let go of even the smallest memory
I haven't forgotten your memories, I haven't missed a single one. Even if I find you again, I won't forget you. Even if I go to space, I won't forget you.
Our memories engraved in the seasons are again
This winter's absence is enough. I want to be with you in other seasons, like when we were dating. The four seasons filled with our memories will return with our memories.
I will definitely come back and find you
So, I'll find you again. For memories to be etched into the seasons again. I ran to that place, and there you were. It's deep night now, the moon is out, and there are no people. You were afraid of the night. But why are you here? It's dark, and no one is around...
Squeak - I saw you on the swing. Why didn't I know I could find you if I just looked for it? This place was the playground, where you and I often went on dates. It was just a short walk, so why hadn't I looked for it until now?
Regret washed over me. I thought you might have been waiting here every day, hoping I wouldn't show up. It's scary... because of me... why did you think of looking for me now? So I walked up to you, who was on the swing.
변백현
"Why are you here? You're scared of the night."
Because that's love Because that's love
As if he heard me, he stopped swinging with a squeak and looked up at me.
나
"Who are you.."
It had been a long time since I saw you, and your face seemed frozen, and your eyes were red. You had probably been crying.
변백현
"Did you cry?"
I was worried about you, your eyes reddened. So I asked you if you were crying.
나
"No, I didn't cry."
As soon as you finished speaking, I grabbed you and held you in my arms as you were about to turn around and leave.
변백현
"Oh, it's cold. You're frozen. How long have you been here?"
You struggled helplessly in my arms. I thought it was because you were frozen from the cold. But then, you spoke, your voice choked with tears.
나
"What are you... I played with you to my heart's content and then abandoned you, and now why are you doing this... sob sob..."
It's been a long time since I heard my loved one cry, and a long time since I heard their voice... I missed you again. It was so good. Even hearing you cry...
변백현
"I'm sorry, I won't leave you anymore. I tried to break up with you and forget you, but... I can't seem to break this feeling, so I came to find you again.
변백현
I realized this time, that love isn't something you can just cut off. It was so hard for me. I tried to forget, but I couldn't. I guess that's love.
It seemed to give me a deep sense of reflection, a reflection I'd always taken lightly on. I reminded myself, time and time again, that this is love. No matter how hard I try, I can't forget you. You're like my world, and the memories and recollections of loving you. Something I can't let go of. It made me realize that this is love.
작가
This time, I tried writing with Universe lyrics. Do you think it's good? The repetitive parts are a bit difficult, so there are some awkward parts, but please look at it favorably. Thank you! Please rate, comment, and subscribe!