It was hot like summer, but cold like winter.

#47

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Actually... a little...

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There was a reason why it was difficult....

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Why are you having a hard time?

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huh.

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This happened when I first entered college.

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I have a friend and she has a boyfriend?

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huh.

I slowly opened my mouth, and Jimin listened to my story, responding appropriately.

I didn't want to do something that would remind me of that fact, that memory again, but

Now that I have decided to speak and have started speaking,

I couldn't turn back.

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I just went to a cafe with a friend one time

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My friend called my boyfriend

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I just exchanged greetings and left.

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Oh... yeah.

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I was on my way home,

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A man called me.

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Then he said this.

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Since I'm my type, please give me your phone number.

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.....

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So I gave it to him...

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Now that I'm home, he asked me to meet him on KakaoTalk...

I thought about that day again.

At that time, I really... didn't know what would happen...

I didn't know I would be this broken and struggling...

I was so young at that time,

Because I had no dating experience

I didn't know much and was very clumsy.

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Honestly, I wanted to push it away,

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I wanted to get away from it.

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I hated being hurt so much,

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I didn't even want to be in pain.

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But I couldn't bring myself to push it away.

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ha...

Jimin-oppa sighed and ran his hand through his hair as if he was frustrated while listening to me.

It's so... frustrating..

yes....

I'm going crazy...

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From the next day onwards, the man waited for me every day,

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I always made excuses and pushed him away.

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Even though I pushed him away like that, he didn't give up.

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....

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In the end, I accepted his offer and we talked about many things.

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And that developed into a relationship.

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But... we shouldn't have dated...

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... why?

I couldn't open my mouth after saying that,

My brother kept asking me cautiously why I was silent.

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....

I just looked at the floor without saying anything.

I remembered that again,

That fact hurt me.

I opened my mouth with difficulty.

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.... On our first anniversary....

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I broke up..

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......that everything that person said and did to me was a lie....

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I came to know, because I saw it with my own two eyes and heard it with my own two ears...

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ha.....

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... After that I called my friend,

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I collapsed in my friend's arms,

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When I opened my eyes, I was in a hospital.

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In the depression test I took right after I was discharged from the hospital,

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I was diagnosed with depression,

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It's not completely cured...

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ah...

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Why am I being so careful with my brother now?

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I don't want to get hurt again,

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Because I don't want to be sick.

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But why... to me...?

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When I talk to my brother,

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I think it's okay to talk about it...

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If it's you... I think I can trust you...

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So that's what I'm talking about...

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.... It must have been very difficult...

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You must have endured a lot...

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Thank you for your hard work...

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.....

In my eyes as I listened to Jimin oppa's words

Suddenly,

And tears fell.