Season 2_Jang Ma-eum, an orphan with a family of 13
#8_I don't have parents, but I have many people who love me
한승우
"hello?"
A beautiful voice, still pleasant to hear, flowed through the airwaves.
I smiled to myself and answered.
장마음
“Hey, I got it?”
한승우
“Um… college?”
장마음
“It won’t be out until next month…”
한승우
"…then?"
It seemed like you prepared as passionately as I did, but I forgot about it.
I was a little surprised.
Seungwoo probably doesn't mind helping me.
장마음
"I'm talking about the audition."
한승우
“Ah… you were a reserve.”
한승우
“What happened to the successful candidates?”
장마음
“I don’t think they’ll tell you about that due to regulations…”
장마음
“Just congratulate me.”
한승우
“Yeah, congratulations, lady.”
Shouldn't I tell him too?
Now, the name 'Heart' has become more important than the heroine.
Should I say that I'm no longer a heroine, but that I've decided to live with my heart?
장마음
“The heart…is….”
한승우
“Okay, mind.”
It seems that you call it your heart without any sense of alienation or alienation.
Maybe he also wanted me to live with my heart.
Especially since he was my friend through most of my sick days.
He already knew it.
In order for me, who is suffering and in pain, to live a little less difficult and a little better life,
That you have to live with your heart, not with your mind.
The name Yeoju is not a name that makes a female protagonist.
That he would remain a supporting character who only looks at the female lead.
But knowing my friend who was so fragile that he could break
I guess I left it until it realized it on its own.
Even if I told her, the little girl would only get hurt.
Because it could be the exact opposite of what you want.
Now that I think about it, he was a friend who was always there for me from beginning to end.
한승우
“I’ll buy you chicken. Do you want to come to my house?”
한승우
“If you come, I’ll pick you up.”
Sitting next to a friend for the first time in a long time and chatting
I'd be happy eating chicken, but today just didn't feel like the day.
First of all, the family that should share this joy was in this house.
장마음
“Sorry. Today…”
한승우
“With the members?”
장마음
“What? Did you expect that?”
한승우
“If you don’t expect it, you’re not even friends of 9 years.”
한승우
“And if you don’t understand, you understand.”
한승우
“Because I feel like I’ll be labeled as a cheapskate.”
장마음
“I think it’s already been taken?”
한승우
"Why? I treated the members well..."
한승우
“After my parents and teachers, there is no one I am so grateful for and respect in my life…?”
Seungwoo was sincere.
I have been diligent and courteous to those I respect and appreciate.
I've seen people say that it's not what it isn't.
I've been watching it for 9 years and it's boring
I had been sick of him for three years.
장마음
“Because my brothers like me so much?”
This was true.
Other than this, the attitude towards Seungwoo,
The way he treated me was not explained.
한승우
“Just the right amount of X”
장마음
“Really…! Want to see it?”
한승우
“…He must be the wannabe of Carats all over the world.”
장마음
“I want those carats.”
장마음
“At least you have parents who love you.”
If I were a member of Seventeen, I wouldn't even say that.
Because I can see how worried my brothers are without even looking.
한승우
“There are at least 16 people who love you, right?”
It would be the number of the 13 members of Seventeen, plus Seungsik, Soobin, and himself.
장마음
“In a way, I am the winner.”
한승우
“Yeah, you’re the winner.”
Seungwoo secretly comforted me, who was hoping for something that was impossible to wish for.
He brought up a different topic again.
한승우
“Did you go out to play after the CSAT?”
장마음
"No? I don't really have anyone to play with. I was sick for a week, I think?"
한승우
“Damn it. Why didn’t you tell me you were sick?”
장마음
“What else would it do if I told you to worry?”
한승우
“I can even joke around.”
장마음
“Ugh, I’m fine, but my brothers won’t stay still.”
한승우
“That seems…right.”
장마음
“That’s why I didn’t say anything.”
한승우
“I see…”
The atmosphere suddenly became tense for 1~2 seconds
Soon Seungwoo opened his mouth again.
한승우
“You’re not going because you don’t have anyone to go with, that’s what it is.”
장마음
"Yeah, my only friends are guys. You guys, Chan."
한승우
"Well, even if I go out with the boys, where else would I go besides a PC room?"
장마음
“I go to karaoke sometimes.”
한승우
“That’s because we are preparing to major in music.”
한승우
“That’s because Chan-nim is already a singer.”
한승우
“If it weren’t for that, I wouldn’t have gone to karaoke.”
장마음
“I know that too.”
한승우
"Do you need a girlfriend? I feel like I'm stuck among too many guys..."
I smiled happily at Seungwoo's concern.
It's true that it's only between men, but it's not like I'm stuck in it.
I've managed to keep my place, and sometimes I've even managed to beat them.
장마음
“No. I don’t think that’s necessary.”
한승우
"Why? You'll need a girl."
장마음
“I don’t know if it’s necessary because I don’t have any girls.”
Seungwoo seemed to understand it in his own way.
The obvious principle that if it didn't exist, we wouldn't miss it or want it.
한승우
“Oh, yeah. I see what you mean.”
한승우
“But I hear a woman’s voice. Who is it?”
As the call dragged on, it was Jisoo's voice looking for me, but it was a woman's voice.
Jisoo oppa and Jeonghan oppa are both pretty young, but…
It's not so loud that you could mistake it for a woman's voice.
장마음
“Jisoo’s oppa’s voice.”
한승우
“Huh? If it’s Jisoo oppa… it’s Joshua…”
장마음
"Your ears are weird. Where does that sound like a woman's voice?"
한승우
“Tsk. It sounded like a woman’s voice to me.”
한승우
"Okay, let's hang up. I don't want to be filmed anymore. If I get filmed anymore, we might never see each other again."
장마음
"That's not true. But I really need to quit now."
장마음
“I’ll contact you later.”
한승우
"Yeah. Congratulations, Ma-eum."
No matter how many times I heard the name Heart, it was beautiful.
How could you use a different name for this one?
I felt a little sorry for my name.
윤정한
“Heart!”
Jeonghan felt better at his brother's careless call.
He answered with a big smile.
장마음
“Yeah, get out now!”
As I came outside, Min-gyu Oppa had prepared a meal for me, which he hadn't cooked in a while.
Japchae, beef, and even my favorite Gyeongsang-do style beef soup.
It was truly a meal made for me.
The members from Gyeongsang Province are Wonwoo, Jihoon, and Seungkwan, who lived in Busan when he was young. Although there were three of them,
I was touched that they cooked it for me in Gyeongsang-do style instead of Seoul style.
윤정한
"Eat lots, Ma-eum. Congratulations!"
I just smiled happily at them, congratulating me as if it were their own.
Because I felt like no reaction would be able to respond to my brothers' congratulations.
장마음
"Yeah. Thanks, oppa. Hehe."
Instead, I became a little childish.
My brothers laughed and said they understood me like that.
이지훈
“Good work, heart.”
When Jihoon even called me "Ma-eum" (heart), my heart fluttered.
Until recently, the name of the heart was,
It was a name that only a very small number of members knew.
장마음
"huh!"
But now all the members know, and I'm so happy that they call me that.
At least I was happy that I could be myself in front of them.
이찬
"I'm sorry you had a hard time, Jang Ma-eum."
Chan-i's slightly playful words.
Chan-i probably knows very well what the word "heart" means to me.
Maybe he's doing that because he's embarrassed.
장마음
"Oh, right. I'm sorry for the pain, Jang Ma-eum."
The laughter of 14 people filled the sky.
What's to come will be more than what's happened so far,
It would have been more eventful, but I wasn't scared.
Because I had them, and they had me.
Without worrying about the future, today was such a happy day.
장마음
“…That reminds me of something.”
At my words, Jihoon looked back at me, slightly drunk.
Oh, they didn't say anything, but my older brothers, who are adults, drank a few beers.
장마음
“Because we’re together, we can laugh, and because it’s you, we can cry.”
장마음
“And there is no reason why it cannot be done.”
And this phrase later became a track on Seventeen's third mini-album, "Going Seventeen," titled "Smile Flower."
And Jihoon said to me.
이지훈
"I'll let the fans know that I wrote what I wanted to say to the members."
이지훈
"Of course that's true, but at least this part is what I want to tell you."
He said, warm words I could never have imagined.