Self-harm club

#28. Jisoo's Past [1]

When I was young, I always went out to play somewhere with my parents once a month.

That day, as always, I went to the amusement park with my parents.

지수엄마

Jisoo, mom will be back soon, so wait~

지수엄마

I'll be back soon~

홍지수

Are you really going to come so soon?

지수엄마

Yeah, of course..!

홍지수

Then you have to come quickly!

지수엄마

Okay..~

홍지수

Hehe

지수엄마

Seriously... I'll be back soon...

홍지수

Hey, come quickly!

An hour passed like that.

홍지수

Why aren't you coming?

홍지수

It's been a long time...

홍지수

No, I said I'd be back soon!

홍지수

If you wait, it will come~!

So I spent an hour or two hours

I waited quietly until the amusement park closed.

홍지수

It's...cold...

홍지수

Mom... why aren't you coming?

홍지수

Ugh..

직원

Hey kid..?

홍지수

yes..?

직원

Parents...where are you?

홍지수

I don't know.. He told me to wait here for a moment because he was going somewhere..

직원

Really? But I have to get out of here now?

홍지수

No, I can't... I have to wait for my mom...

직원

Oh, I thought your mom was outside earlier?

홍지수

Really?

직원

Yeah! So, should I go out with you?

홍지수

yes

So I followed the employee and went to Adingar.

It was a police station.

직원

I think the parents abandoned the kids at an amusement park.

직원

I don't know what to do...

경찰

Did you really abandon the child?

직원

I don't know...

경찰

then..

경찰

Hey kid over there

홍지수

yes?

경찰

What did your parents say before they left?

홍지수

uh..

홍지수

He told me to wait while he brought it to me.

홍지수

You kept saying you'd be back soon!

경찰

How long have you been waiting?

홍지수

Uh...until the sky gets dark...?

경찰

Oh, I see

경찰

Um...Mom is going on a short trip, so can you wait somewhere else for a while?

홍지수

yes..?

홍지수

If your mom comes, I can wait for you anywhere!

경찰

Yeah, you're so kind.

직원

Then where should I go?

경찰

I guess I should go to the orphanage

직원

Yes? Send them straight to the orphanage?

홍지수

Where is the orphanage?

경찰

Oh, there are a lot of friends and it's a really nice place.

홍지수

Then, when you go there, are you with your mom?

경찰

then..!

홍지수

Really? Then I'll go there!

경찰

Haha yeah

직원

Are you really going to send it..?

경찰

Then where should I send the child? There is no one to take care of this child now, and there are no relatives.

직원

Oh yeah..

That's how I ended up living in an orphanage.

But I didn't adapt well

Because I was smaller, weaker, and a bit shorter than the others.

So I was bullied at the orphanage

아이1

Hey! I told you that was mine!

아이2

No, it was originally mine!!

아이1

Give it to me quickly!

아이2

Ah, let go of this!!

bang

홍지수

ah..!

아이1

Mr. Ha, what the heck, I fell because of you!

아이2

What the heck! This is broken!

홍지수

I'm...sorry...

아이1

Ah, I really hate the sight of it

아이2

Let's just go in and play

아이1

Then

홍지수

I did nothing wrong...

홍지수

When is mom coming?

홍지수

You said you'd come here...

여자아이

Why are you mumbling like that?

홍지수

uh?

여자아이

Why are you muttering so much?

홍지수

I didn't do anything...

여자아이

You were just talking to yourself earlier

홍지수

..mom...

여자아이

what?

홍지수

Sister, do you know when mom is coming?

여자아이

mom?

여자아이

Are you crazy?

여자아이

Mom isn't coming

홍지수

Huh? Why?

여자아이

Because I threw it away

홍지수

My mom never abandoned me!

여자아이

Then why are you here?

여자아이

This is where abandoned children come.

여자아이

I was abandoned when I was 7 and stayed here for 8 years.

홍지수

So... am I abandoned too..?

홍지수

Really..?

여자아이

of course

홍지수

No..hey..sigh..

홍지수

Oh my, my mom won't abandon me..!!!

홍지수

Huhu ...

신부님

Oh my, Jisoo, why are you crying..!!

홍지수

Who...my older sister...

홍지수

I...uh, I was abandoned...sob

홍지수

My mom abandoned me...

홍지수

Am I really abandoned..? Yes..?

홍지수

Throwing it away...sigh I said I was throwing it away because I didn't need it...sob

홍지수

Did my mom throw me away because she didn't need me?

신부님

No, absolutely not~

신부님

Mom will come. Just wait here for a bit. She will be here. Stop!

홍지수

Oh my, really...

신부님

Then don't cry..

신부님

Unhaun! You say that to the kids again, you're going to get in trouble!

여자아이

That's right!!! Why are you doing this to me!!

홍지수

Ugh...

신부님

Okay, don't believe what I say and let's go in.

홍지수

yes..

That's when I realized I was abandoned.

At that time, I was only 7 years old

I was so hurt at such a young age that I cried all day.

홍지수

No, it wasn't abandoned..

홍지수

Mom said she'd be here soon...

홍지수

are you okay..

((bang

홍지수

Hehe, it'll be okay

((bang

홍지수

Ugh...

((bang

That's when I first started self-harming, banging my head against the wall.

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Jakka's

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Time☆

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Okay, from now on, I'm going to end with TMI like this><

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Today's TMI

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I was watching a movie with my friends and I cried because I was so sad☆

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Well then, that's it><

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((ㄴㅇ ㅌㅂㅎ ㅎㅈ It's fun, please watch it(?)