[Short Story] Please save me.
Please save me. Leave me alone.
한여주
"Umm...did you sleep well?"
여주 엄마
"Oh. Did you sleep well?"
여주 엄마
"Mom, I have to go out now, so take out the side dishes from the fridge and make sure to eat breakfast. It's going to rain, so bring an umbrella, okay?"
한여주
"Yes, have a nice trip!"
As soon as I woke up, my mother said a quick hello and left the house for work.
한여주
"...I don't feel like eating..."
My mom insisted I eat breakfast, but I didn't really feel like it. I didn't have much of an appetite either...
한여주
"Hey, I don't know."
I decided not to eat. I wasn't really...in the mood.
한여주
"Ugh...I should go to school..."
Another boring and repetitive day has begun.
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##high school
I finally arrived at school. I had to go into the classroom... but I was afraid to open the classroom door.
Drumroll-
Finally, I opened the door. Is this the first or second time... I need to get used to it...
When I came in, the kids looked at me with an expression that said, 'Why is that kid here?'
Actually, I was scared. I was so scared. But I tried not to pay attention and calmly put my bag back on the table.
한여주
"phew...."
정채연
"Oh? Bully! You came early?"
Oh, right. I didn't tell you. I was bullied.
한여주
"Uh...hello..."
기희현
"Chaeyeon~ I don't want to drink milkㅠ"
정채연
"Stop talking and just eat. What are you going to do with that small stature?"
기희현
"Jung Chaeyeon was really bad..."
정채연
"Yeah, I'm bad. What should I do?"
기희현
"Tch...I really hate white milk..."
Heehyun approached the female protagonist while saying that.
기희현
"Oh my~ You're shorter than me? You must drink a lot of milk to grow taller."
Why are my anxious premonitions never wrong... 'Gurruk-' Milk flowed mercilessly into my head.
한여주
"........."
Tears welled up in my eyes without me realizing it. I tried to hold them back, but I couldn't. I hated this situation so much.
I left school without even realizing it. I went there so impulsively.
riverside.
Thump- thump-
한여주
"Huh? It's raining..."
Even the sky seemed to speak for me.
한여주
"I miss you, oppa, it's been a while..."
I took a piece of paper out of my pocket.
Oh, what's this piece of paper? It's the will of my older brother, who committed suicide due to bullying.
I miss you so much, oppa.
I really miss my brother who was always bright in front of me.
I miss my brother so much, who always hid his difficulties from his family and smiled.
한여주
"....Fuck"
Actually, there was a time when I resented my brother.
I thought it was all my brother's fault that my father left home after fighting with my mother, that I was bullied, and that even when I transferred schools, the label of "the younger sibling of the older brother who committed suicide" followed me around like a label.
I hated him so much for leaving me behind.
한여주
"........"
He grabbed the water with his hand without saying anything.
한여주
"Ugh... it's cold..."
I didn't remember my mother's words about the danger of water rising on rainy days.
Suddenly, I remembered that day a few years ago when my brother fell into this water and was pulled out as a cold corpse.
The day I first realized the incompetence of humanity. The day I blamed myself for being unable to do anything but cry...
It was the winter break when my brother was transitioning from a second year of high school to a third year of high school, right..?
구급대원
"Transport quickly!!!!"
여주 엄마
"Yoongi... please save me... our Yoongi is only 19 years old... please...!!!"
한여주
"Ugh..."
The heroine closed her eyes, trying to erase the memory of that day, as if the mere thought of it was painful.
Time has already passed so quickly...
Suddenly-
The heroine stood and looked at the river.
한여주
"You know, Mom. I... I..."
한여주
"I hate this world so much..."
한여주
"In this world where everything is judged by appearance and grades... People who inflict unforgettable scars on me and then forget my existence..."
한여주
"The social atmosphere that makes it impossible for me to think, 'My brother did that, so I should avoid him...' even after seeing him commit suicide due to bullying..."
한여주
"I'm going to be an adult soon, but I don't know what I'm going to do or what I want to do. I feel like I'm the only one left behind..."
한여주
"I'm so scared of this world... I don't know what to do..."
한여주
"My heart is heavy, I can't explain this feeling... It's so painful and aching... I'm trying to smile, but somewhere in my heart, it's driving me to hell..."
한여주
"Please save me... Please... Leave me alone..."
Tears as white as jade flowed from the heroine's eyes.
한여주
"I wanted to live just to see my mom, and I wanted to live well so that I could show off to my country... I'm sorry, I'm just so tired."
The heroine approached the water with trembling legs.
And at that moment, when the sound of rain hitting the water was unusually loud...
with a plop-
???
"Where..."
The heroine tried to jump into the water, but only her shoes were caught by someone.
한여주
"...Fuck..."
한여주
"Why are you stopping me? Why on earth!!!! You're finally going to die... You're going to die because you don't want to live anymore. What's so frustrating about that?"
한여주
"Don't harm yourself... Don't kill yourself... Why are you interfering so much when you haven't done anything for me?"
???
"Don't do this... please..."
??? grabbed the female protagonist's hand tightly.
한여주
"Ah, I'm so pathetic, aren't I? Well... there are many people who have it harder than me... but they all overcome it, but I'm like this..."
한여주
"I'm sorry this is all I can do..."
민윤기
"This is all there is... Everything in the world is precious... You who are reading this are precious, and everything is precious."
한여주
"Please... I've decided to die... Don't shake me..."
민윤기
"I know... it's scary... no, I'm not involved, so I can't know everything. How could I possibly fathom how difficult it is..."
민윤기
"But there is something..."
Step by step, Yoon-gi approached the female protagonist.
민윤기
"Once this time passes, everyone can be happy."
한여주
"...Lies... You're all the same. You make people miserable with words that are like torture and hope..."
민윤기
"It might sound like a hopeless torture...enough...but I'm serious. In my experience, even if it's hard now, it will all become a memory later?"
민윤기
"Even if it's hard and tiring right now, like I'm going to die... later on, you'll all say, 'That was how it was back then~'... If I just endure this now... this crisis, everything will be okay and I'll shine."
한여주
"I'm sorry, but I don't believe that."
민윤기
"Trust me, even if it's just this once...just this once..."
한여주
"Don't come any closer... I feel like I'm going to change my mind..."
한여주
"Do you know how hard it was for me to choose this course of action? The thought of dying is so terrifying, so frightening... I want to end this life I hate just thinking about..."
민윤기
"..please..."
한여주
"I think if I disappear from here right now, I'll be able to see you... I miss you so much..."
민윤기
"I want to comfort you. I want to lead you on the right path... but I'm still immature."
민윤기
"I don't want to say the obvious, 'Cheer up'... but I guess I'm not mature enough yet. You've worked hard. You've been through a lot."
한여주
"Ugh... I don't want to live this life, crying silently every day... being ignored and treated like I have no feelings... I'm so tired..."
The heroine shed tears. Before she knew it, Yoon-ki was holding her tightly.
한여주
"Please let me go... I think I'll be happy if I die like this. No, at least I won't be unhappy."
민윤기
"Please stop! I'm angry now. Suicide is not an escape..."
한여주
"I'm sorry. I wanted to avoid it like this. I never wanted to feel this pain again... But if I keep living like this, I feel like it'll be worse than not living at all."
As the heroine was about to walk back towards the river, her legs gave out and she fell before even reaching the water.
민윤기
"A...are you okay?!"
한여주
"Ugh..."
When Yoon-gi touched the female protagonist's forehead, it seemed to be wet from the rain and she had a high fever.
민윤기
"Ah...what should I do with this..."
Yoon-ki took Yeo-ju's phone out of his pocket and called Yeo-ju's mother.
민윤기
-My daughter is collapsing right now... ♤♤See you at the hospital. I'll be there.
여주 엄마
-Huh? Oh..the female protagonist collapsed?! I'll go right now..!!!!!
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♤♤Hospital
한여주
"Ugh...what is this...it was a river just a moment ago..."
This smell...the Ringer needle stuck in my hand...no matter how much I thought about it, it was a hospital.
한여주
"....I guess I'm alive..."
When Yeoju looked to her side, she saw her mother, who had been worried about her and was nursing her, falling asleep.
한여주
"I hate being alive so much... but it feels good to see my mom...”
여주 엄마
"Uhh...huh? Are you awake, Yeoju? Hehe"
한여주
"Mom...I love you."
The woman hugged her mother tightly, tears welling up in her eyes.
여주 엄마
"Oh my, that kid... Mom loves Yeoju a lot too. I feel so secure and happy that Yeoju is by my side."
A few years later
한여주
"Yoongi oppa! Look at this flower! It's so pretty!"
민윤기
"Oh~ She's pretty! Of course not as pretty as the female lead."
한여주
"Hey...what is it lol"
Yoongi oppa became like a real older brother to me. It was so hard until a few years ago... but now I'm so happy.
It's so good. I'm so happy that I've persevered through difficult times and am finally living my life.
민윤기
"What are you thinking, Yeoju?"
한여주
"Huh? Just thinking about my older brother..."
Well... it's not like I forgot about you, though...
한여주
"But I'm so happy right now. I have Yoongi oppa by my side. I have friends who care about me."
한여주
"I want to feel this way with my brother too..."
I was so happy and excited that I briefly forgot about my brother. But I kept thinking about him. He's so close, even though he's far away.
민윤기
"Hey, let's go eat hamburgers!"
한여주
"Okay"
M Donald
민윤기
"Here, lady. Your favorite burger!"
한여주
"Oh, you know what kind of burger I like?"
Perhaps my brother was reincarnated. In the air I breathe now. In these shoes I'm wearing. In the brightest star in the night sky.
Maybe it's the hamburger you're eating right now.
한여주
"I'm sorry, oppa..."
The heroine whispered softly and took a bite of the hamburger.