This life is ruined

Ep.20 "The Most Beautiful Night" - One Star Zaka

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(uh)

한주아

(color)

한주아

Haha... It's awkward when there are just the two of us.

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are you okay?

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You were right earlier

한주아

sure

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Thanks to someone, I didn't get hit that much, but whatever

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..thank goodness

한주아

Is your senior okay with that?

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Hey, I'm Bae Jin-young. I won't even nod at something like that.

한주아

Hahaha, it's reliable

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But you...

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How long are you going to call me senior? How long are you going to use formal speech?

한주아

yes?

한주아

ㅋㅋㅋㅋWhat would you like me to call you?

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Oppa

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Brother?

한주아

great

한주아

From now on, don't call me senior, call me oppa!

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..good to hear

한주아

What the heck lol

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And if you're uncomfortable, you don't have to try to talk it out.

한주아

No, I think I can do it

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(Sigh)

한주아

But oppa...

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huh?

한주아

I have a question

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What is it?

한주아

My brother's past story

한주아

When I asked you before, your expression got cold and you were like that... I didn't want to ask you any more...

한주아

That may have been the case then, but now she's my girlfriend.

한주아

I want to know too

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...

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Joo-ah

한주아

huh?

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Do you want to sit down and talk?

After walking a little further, I came across a quiet playground.

I quickly ran to the swing and sat down, and Jinyoung was already sitting next to me.

An awkward silence fell over the playground, as no one knew who should speak first.

And it was Jinyoung who broke the silence.

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Um...where should I start talking?

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If I keep talking, it might get a little long. Is that okay?

한주아

Of course it's okay

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...

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Ever since I was little, my family suffered from domestic violence by my father.

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But the extent of the damage was so severe that my mother had no healthy part on her body.

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I've been hit a lot too

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The day when my mother finally exploded after holding it in for so long and raised her voice at my father

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We had a huge fight that I still remember vividly.

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That was when I was in the second year of middle school...

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I feel like I'm going crazy when I hear my parents fighting.

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I ran out of the house that evening

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After spending about two hours at the PC room, I was kicked out at 10 PM for being a minor. When I returned home...

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(sob)

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Ah... sorry for a moment...

한주아

are you okay

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after..

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Uh...so...when I got home that day, the sight I saw was

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My mother was lying on the ground bleeding, and my father was standing next to me with a cold expression, devoid of any emotion.

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When I see that

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I can't stay there any longer

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I immediately called my aunt, told her about the situation at home, and ran to her house.

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My aunt reported it to the police right away, and then my father was arrested...

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While in prison

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He took his own life

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Actually, at that time, I didn't have even a speck of affection for my dad.

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I didn't feel anything when I heard the news

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After leaving my aunt's house and wandering around, I realized to my bones that no matter how much harm he did to me, my dad was still my dad.

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When I was feeling so miserable every day and thought I couldn't bear it anymore, I met this person.

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It's Woong-hyung

한주아

Who...who?

한주아

Jeon Woong..?

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huh

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That guy is really...

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You taught me how to survive life, not how to live it.

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How can I survive without suffering losses in this terrifying world where only bad things are increasing day by day?

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It taught me what power is.

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The higher you are in a position, the more likely you are to be in a position where others cannot treat you rudely.

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It's easy for me to survive

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To me, who was just a student, there was nothing that could be called power.

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All I could do was eat the best food in school

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To be the best at school

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The students should be afraid of me

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So I chose violence

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If that guy had taught me how to live my life, I wouldn't have done such useless and harmful things.

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But that guy too... what he learned from living life so hard was how to survive, how to not get hurt, how to not suffer any losses.

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Everything you taught me had to be like that...

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And then I met you

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I fall in love with you

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I realized the problem with my actions.

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I became who I am today

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Oppa

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uh?

한주아

Why do you put up with it?

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what..?

한주아

I can see tears welling up in your eyes.

한주아

Why are you holding back?

한주아

Cry, cry

한주아

It hurts more to hold back

Hug)

한주아

You can cry because I'm holding you like this

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..(ugh

Jinyoung, who had been hugging Jooah's waist tightly and shedding tears without sobbing, seemed to calm down a little after a while.

He lets go of Joo-ah's waist and stands up.

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Han Joo-ah

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Joo-ah

한주아

huh?

The longest and warmest night,

The most beautiful night, one I will never forget, deepened.

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*One Star: I drew the picture above, including the background, so you don't have to worry about copyright : )

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And I (Wonstar) decided to write twice in a row until the writer's exam period ends :)♡