※Please ignore this, it's just the delusion of a crazy person who is overly immersed.
※Excessive delusions are not good for your health.
[1945.1.××]
You finally left
To me who misses and loves you so much
He left me behind, leaving behind only one letter.
Your last step for your country will be your last
If I had known, if I had known that the warm embrace that carefully held me would be the last, I would have stayed with you a little longer
I should have been more mischievous than usual.
I should have told you not to stop me
I felt relieved by your usual smile
I can walk. ...
I may have been fooled
Why did you smile like usual back then? If I knew it would be the last time, I would have held on to you longer than usual.
Why did you give me a sense of relief when you must have?
I hate you so much for leaving so vainly, but I miss you so much again. If you come back again.
I love you, something I never said before in my life.
I want to do it
I always feel embarrassed when you say you love me
The words I couldn't say are now like this after you left
It feels like I'm floating around like a letter with no destination.
[1945.2.××]
I regret not being able to see the end of you.
I have come to the place where I performed my mission. Now this place is
The operation that cost you your life was a success, so I hope you feel a little better.
I can now rest comfortably
Your colleagues speak to me, but I
You ran away and came back to your room with your colleagues.
Because when I look at it, I think of you and I feel like crying
I miss you so much, I miss you so much
You may be watching me from above.
No, you are under the ground where I am
You may look up, your autopsy is not yet done.
They say it wasn't found
I, who have not even seen your last appearance, am still unable to help but miss you
I miss you, even with a cold body, with longing eyes
It's okay if you don't look at me, just look at you
I just want to
[1945.3.××]
When I heard that your body had finally been found,
I ran barefoot, even though my feet were dirty and stuck in rocks.
I don't care, you come first.
After seeing your cold corpse, I ran away again.
It's over. You're the one I wanted to see so badly... Why did you have to come?
I wonder if I should see you like this... Today, you are
It's a day that makes me hate you more and more
[1945.4.××]
I brought your remains home.
Our new home is still the same as before, you are the one who took me
The flowers I planted for you have bloomed beautifully and are with you
The bedroom where I slept was neatly made with the blankets as always.
It was like I slept here yesterday too
It was almost like an illusion
The last time I saw you was when the cold wind was blowing
It was winter, but the weather has gotten warmer and the streets are nice.
Flowers bloom as you walk
A new season has come, but why do you come to me?
Are you not coming? Is this all a lie?
When I open my eyes, you are next to me with your eyes closed,
I think every day that you're sleeping
The day you leave, when spring comes, let's go see the flowers together
Where are you, the one I promised, and am I left alone in this large room?
Are you writing?
For me who loves flowers, I often go out and come back with flowers.
You who bought it and gave it to me shyly
I remember all the flowers you gave me in a vase
I put them in, but before I knew it, all the flowers had withered.
I used to throw away all the withered flowers, but now I feel like
I'm afraid that without flowers I'll forget you
Leave it as is
If you see this sight, quickly plant a new flower
When buying flowers, throw away the withered flowers and put new flowers in the vase.
You told me to put it in, right?
[1945.5.××]
It's May, my birthday. A few years ago, my father
Instead of the birthday present you gave me every year, I gave you a shocking message.
You did, that was the promise of our engagement.
Back then, I was young and just said no to engagement.
I was scared in itself, but what kind of person was my fiancé?
I think the people's diary was the scariest.
I wonder if he will hit me, a pro-Japanese person.
I wonder if he is my child, or if he approached me on purpose to assassinate me.
I had all sorts of unfortunate thoughts
But you were kind to me from the beginning and gave me a lot of help.
He was the son of an independence activist and would do anything for me.
You did it and you really loved me
You expressed that you were there.
So I open my heart to you and I adore you
I don't know if it was the best in Gyeongseong
Maybe it was a natural result, since you were famous for your beauty.
I don't know
May, a few years ago when I first met you, was the month I lived
The hottest and happiest birthday in my 18 years of life
It was a great year for me because I met you.
I also received a birthday present
Since then, every year on my birthday, I forget my birthday.
I really liked you taking care of me without being too careful
The act of hugging me and bowing your head in embarrassment while giving me a gift
He held out his hand and gently touched the back of my hand.
I liked everything about you kissing me
Ah, that back-of-the-hand kiss that I learned at the French embassy.
When I received it, I saw your two ears turn red.
I burst out laughing when I saw it
Every action you take is considerate of me.
I really like it because it shows that it is a thoughtful action.
I was happy, of course, just being with you
It was a great happiness for me
[1945.6.××]
As the days get warmer, clothing becomes much lighter than before.
I lost. After a long time, I went to the market and had noodles.
I remember eating noodles with you before
It came to mind
As I was walking down the street, a cool fountain pen caught my eye.
When I bought several, the seller asked me a question.
He asked if I was buying a gift for my husband.
To that question, I slowly nodded, and the person selling it said
The husband was so happy when such a pretty woman bought him a gift.
He said it would be nice
At that, I couldn't bring myself to tell you that you were far away
I couldn't do it and quickly left the place.
Just thinking about you makes my eyes water like stars are floating around my eyes
It becomes moist
When I got home and opened your closet after a long time,
I put the fountain pen I bought in the front pocket of my suit.
It fits well, just like it was originally there.
When I open the closet, your scent comes out and I think of you for no reason.
I quietly wiped away the tears that had piled up on my clothes.
I'm afraid that if I dust off your scent, it will disappear too.
I just sat there and cried. It's been a while since I've seen this.
I miss and like your scent so much...
I cried like that for a long time
[1945.7.××]
I was taking out your photo after a long time and suddenly I thought of you
I realized I didn't have any pictures of us together.
If I had known it would turn out like this, I would have taken at least one picture.
Yes, we will definitely take a picture together once we finish this operation.
The promise I made to you to take a picture has become something I can never keep.
It would have been better if I hadn't made the appointment at all.
Why did you make this appointment to remind me of you?
Are you doing it? I miss you more today than ever before.
When you came back to me after your autopsy,
Inside the wallet in my front pocket was a precious photo of me.
It was put in why every time you look at your wallet
I just realized why you smiled so brightly.
That wallet was a gift I gave you for your birthday.
I remember you always carrying that wallet with you.
Even when I tell you to change it because it's too old, you
He smiled brightly and said no.
I wiped the dirt off that wallet and went to the place you often went to.
I left it on the desk in the study. You are far away.
I hope you look at that wallet and are happy when you come back.
I sincerely hope so
[1945.8.×]
It seems like liberation is really coming. I can see it just by walking down the street.
The Japanese officials and police officers have disappeared from sight.
Even if the Taegeukgi is hanging in a store, they beat or shoot at it
The person is gone
If you were here too, you would probably be holding the Taegeukgi together
He may have shouted "Long Live Korean Independence" more than anyone else.
Because you are the one who earnestly hoped for the liberation of your country.
All of your colleagues who went on the operation with you are safe.
I'm back, but why aren't you the only one who hasn't come back?
Of the seven people who went together, only one did not return.
The operation was a success. No, was it really a success?
I shouldn't think like this, but why didn't you come back?
I wish that one person was you. I would rather have someone else.
I thought it would be nice too
But you even died a noble death for your country.
You may think it's a sacrifice. In the past, the things you did for your country were really cool and good.
But today, I find your thoughts quite unpleasant.
[1945.8.15]
Now, half a year after you left, for the sake of the country
That your sacrificed life was not in vain
As you can see, we have achieved liberation.
But you did not return. You are the fatherland.
You gave happiness to people, but you left me, who loved you the most, leaving only sorrow.
The streets are covered with Taegeukgi flags and people are all out
I too am shouting together for Korean independence.
Your colleagues and our parents also support each other
I am enjoying the happiness of liberation while hugging you.
I wish you could feel this happiness too. What's so special about it?
You must have gone early because you were busy. You must have gone early because you wanted the liberation so much.
It has finally been achieved, but why are you the only one who cannot see liberation?
Is it?
After being out all day with a full stomach, I came home.
Your colleagues came to my house and I met them.
I brought them into the house and they greeted me.
He handed me a letter, so I read it.
If you read this letter, I probably won't be with you.
I guess so, but don't be too sad, ma'am.
I'm always by your side, so don't be too sad.
Don't remember me for too long
There are only two things I want: the liberation of my country,
One is that I hope my wife gives birth to our child and raises him well.
I wish
I'm going to end up like this without seeing our child. I'm a bad father who hasn't been able to show my face even once, but I've thought of a name.
When the child is born, I will do what I have in mind
Please give it a name
If it's a girl, Raon, if it's a boy, Gaon
Please build it and by the time the child is born, liberation will come
I hope this will show that my sacrifice was not in vain.
Please, let's not let our children go through such a terrible situation again.
My dad put in a lot of effort to make it happen... that's all we can say
I hope the child understands
I will end this letter here. I loved you so much, and I love you,
I will love you a lot even when I go far away
I love you, madam.'
After reading the letter, I just sat down and burst into tears.
It flowed endlessly when you last saw me
It might not be easy to notice because you're not even full.
I was a little surprised because his gaze was always on me.
I guess you can see the change in my eyes
Every time I see you, our eyes meet. It's not just my imagination.
I guess not, because you were always watching me
Every time I saw you, our eyes met.
If you come to my dream today, I'll look you in the eye and tell you
"I missed you"
I'd like to tell you
