5 years ago, 5 years later

EP.18 5 Years Ago [2/3]

write. Uhwari (Trigger Warning: This material frequently depicts traumatic scenes such as suicide and domestic violence. Please be careful when viewing.)

*Currently, it's Subin

I've been poor ever since I was little. My father died of cancer when I was not even five years old.

A house where we live hand to mouth, that was our home.

But I wasn't ashamed at all. How wonderful it is to live hand to mouth.

My mom may say she didn't care about me and I didn't get any love from her, but I was okay because I had a lot of good people.

Many children felt ashamed if their families were poor, but I felt no shame and never wanted anything more.

이여주[14]

"He's not a robber, he's my dad."

최수빈[14]

"what?"

이여주[14]

"He's my dad"

최수빈[14]

“Uh... wait a minute... I don’t understand now....”

이여주[14]

“There’s no need to understand, it’s beyond common sense.”

이여주[14]

“....Why did you come?”

The heroine looked calm and composed, even though she was sitting with trembling hands.

He was very good at hiding his emotions. He always lived hiding himself.

최수빈[14]

"Oh! I have math homework tomorrow, and I called to say your notebook was in my bag, but you didn't answer."

이여주[14]

“Oh, okay, I get it. Give it to me and you can go home.”

Yeo-ju snatched the notebook from Soo-bin's hand.

최수빈[14]

“Are you... really okay?”

Yeoju just got up from her seat, and Soobin got up too.

이여주[14]

“What’s wrong with that?”

The heroine was anxious. She'd run away like that earlier, so she'd probably get hit harder if she went back in. She was just waiting for that kid to sleep.

I even thought about just getting through it and ending it.

최수빈[14]

“It’s not that it’s not okay… It’s just that I don’t think it’s okay.”

이여주[14]

“Don’t worry about it, just go.”

The heroine spoke nervously.

최수빈[14]

“No, heroine, you’re badly hurt. That guy… I don’t even want you to report your father.”

Soobin grabbed Yeoju's hand.

최수빈[14]

“You’re not planning on going back home, are you?”

이여주[14]

“I have nowhere to go.”

최수빈[14]

“....Let's go home”

Yeoju looked into Soobin's eyes. Soobin looked at Yeoju without wavering.

But the female protagonist was a deep thinker, unlike other children.

이여주[14]

"...until when?"

최수빈[14]

"huh?"

이여주[14]

“How long will I stay there? A week? A month? A lifetime?”

이여주[14]

“I have to go back someday.”

Soobin said, "Ah..." and held Yeoju's hand even tighter.

최수빈[14]

“Still...what method....”

최수빈[14]

“I’ll ask Mom, okay? You can stay at my house for a month… and… we can work part-time together…”

이여주[14]

“We don’t hire part-time workers our age.”

최수빈[14]

“Still... if you look closely, what’s wrong? I’ll help you!”

At this moment, I hated your positivity. Being a hyper-realist, I didn't think your words were feasible.

And yet you kept holding my hand

최수빈[14]

“Hey, let’s go to my house, okay?”

이여주[14]

“.....What’s so positive about it?”

최수빈[14]

"uh?"

Yeoju forcefully shook off Soobin's hand. Her arm hurt so much, perhaps because she'd been kicked earlier, but at the time, I didn't even think it hurt.

이여주[14]

“Do you think it’s possible? No, I don’t think it’s possible. It’s impossible!”

최수빈[14]

"What's impossible? If we do it together..."

이여주[14]

“Together, together, that damn thing, together...”

Yeoju stretched out her arm and grabbed Soobin's shoulder.

이여주[14]

“Just because we’re together doesn’t mean everything will be solved, Soobin.”

Yeoju looked into Soobin's eyes as much as possible and spoke calmly.

Soobin and Yeoju were so different. That's what drew them to each other, but now it's what makes them misunderstand each other.

최수빈[14]

“..What’s so negative about it?”

이여주[14]

“It’s not denial, it’s reality. You should face reality too.”

최수빈[14]

"Reality? The reality right now is that it's even harder for you when you get home. You get home and... ah... and then again..."

Soobin covered her head with one hand, as if she didn't want to recall the memories from earlier.

Soobin held the woman's small, delicate, yet scarred hand on his shoulder and spoke almost as if crying.

최수빈[14]

"Let's go home, okay? I don't want to see you in that situation again."

Yeo-ju was shaken by Subin's words. For a moment, the words "Let's do that" almost came out.

However, Yeoju knew Subin's family situation well. If Yeoju left, she would be a burden. She couldn't even work part-time due to her age, and she wouldn't be of any help.

이여주[14]

"no..."

최수빈[14]

“No, why again... Just say you want to go together.”

This time, Yeoju pulled her hand out of Subin's.

The heroine was scared of being a burden, especially of being a burden to someone she loved.

이여주[14]

“No, no, I said no, you go home now.”

The heroine's throat tightened. Tears welled up. She turned away, not wanting to show her tears welling up, thinking she had to go back into that house again, pushing you away again.

최수빈[14]

“Hey, lady..”

Subin tried to pull Yeoju's hand away. Yeoju quickly let go of Subin's hand.

이여주[14]

“What on earth do you want me to do!”

The heroine burst into tears. Her throat was already hoarse from screaming so much earlier. The way she screamed looked like a scene from a horror movie.

And Subin couldn't hide her embarrassed expression.

이여주[14]

"Do you think I don't know your family situation? Do you think I don't know how much of a burden it would be if I were to leave?"

이여주[14]

“I know that very well. If I go, your mother will be glad to see me, but let me shamelessly stay for a month.”

이여주[14]

“How much of a pain in the ass would you feel? Your mother would be so mad at you. Wouldn’t you be so mad?”

The female protagonist's breathing became rough as she spoke. This situation was so annoying. I had to swear at the person I liked. But if I didn't do this, you wouldn't have let me go.

최수빈[14]

“.......No, I’m not like that...my mom isn’t either..”

이여주[14]

“Subin, stop it...”

Yeoju trudged down the alley, seemingly exhausted. Subin couldn't bring himself to stop her. She had said everything correctly.

최수빈[14]

"under......"

Soobin looked up at the sky, tears welling up in her eyes, and dried them. For the first time, she felt ashamed of her own poverty.

최수빈[14]

“If only you had made us a little less poor... I could have saved two lives...”

Soobin looked up at the sky and spoke. But the twinkling stars in the sky remained silent.

I was completely lost as to what to do. I didn't have my phone, and with bruises all over my body, I couldn't go anywhere.

All I could think was, "I should have died earlier." The only thought that lingered in my mind was, "I just wanted to die."

Still, he held onto me, saying, "Don't die, don't die, because you're still thinking of Subin." Even though he said mean things to you, it's not that he hates you. In fact, he likes you, so he pushed you away.

What a contradiction: "I pushed her away because I liked her." Yet, it best describes my current situation.

이여주[14]

"cold..."

우도환[16]

“Hey, Yeoju, what are you doing here?”

What a series of coincidences. If life is a game, maybe mine is a bug.

이여주[14]

"What, why are you here?"

우도환[16]

“I live around here....hey!”

Do-hwan lifted Yeo-ju's face up with both hands.

이여주[14]

“Hey, what the hell is that?”

우도환[16]

“That kid did that? And he hit me in the face too? Is he a scumbag?”

Do-hwan turned Yeo-ju's face from side to side.

우도환[16]

“Is it just your face?”

이여주[14]

“If your face is like this, your body must be in chaos.”

우도환[16]

“Ha... Really... Are you saying you can’t dodge things flexibly?”

이여주[14]

“...Hey, if you’re going to nag me, go home quickly.”

우도환[16]

“Where are you going?”

이여주[14]

“I should go home.”

우도환[16]

“Oh, what house is this? Come to my house.”

Do-hwan grabbed Yeo-ju's arm and helped her up.

이여주[14]

“Do you want to go to your house and meet me?”

우도환[16]

"Did you suck on a rock? Daddy isn't coming home today."

우도환[16]

“Let’s go home”

선생님

“Listen hard in class today too, then prepare for the first period.”

최수빈[14]

“Teacher! Aren’t you coming to Yeoju today?”

선생님

“Oh, the lady said she was sick today.”

The teacher left the class, scratching the back of his neck.

최수빈[14]

‘The teacher doesn’t care about the students…’

Soobin lay face down on the desk.

최수빈[14]

‘Oh, I should have dragged you home yesterday...’

Soobin had a headache and was worried, holding his head.

최수빈[14]

‘Ah, I guess I’ll just go home to Yeoju after school.’

You didn't show up for school at 8:20. Everything with you yesterday went by like a dream. It was definitely messed up.

최수빈[14]

"Hey, stop ringing the bell...? You'll wake up a sick child for no reason."

Subin paced back and forth in front of the iron gate, scratching his head.

최수빈[14]

“I don’t know, just hold it down and take care of it.”

If I had to pick the place where our tragedy began, would it be this?

If I hadn't rang the bell, if I hadn't come to this house on this day, if it hadn't been this time

How did we end up like this?

But after the irreversible passage of time

Ding dong

"who is this"

“Huh..? Where is the female protagonist?”

“....That kid from yesterday?”

“Where is Yeoju? Did you hit me again...?”

“What did he say?”

“You... I'm going to report you......”

“.......The female lead is at home, come in.”

The iron door slowly opened, and inside, Yeoju's father emerged, his eyes bloodshot and his hair greasy from days gone by. He took a deep drag on his cigarette and blew it in Subin's face.

Ah, the smell of cigarettes mixed with the smell of alcohol

Life is constantly changing

Every word I say and every little action I take resonates with me, whether in a big way or a small way.

여주 아빠

"Report? Damn, this guy is hilarious."

여주 아빠

“Do you still want to report it?”

여주 아빠

"Should I just keep my mouth shut?"

Did the female protagonist live a life like this?

My cheeks were burning and sore, and I was getting used to the pain or going numb, but the friction was louder than the pain.

최수빈[14]

“Madam...Madam...Where are you...?”

When I came home, I couldn't see you. Suddenly, I remembered the look in your eyes yesterday, as if you were dying.

I didn't think it was true, but I kept having bad thoughts.

최수빈[14]

“Where is Yeoju?”

Soobin grabbed Yeoju's father's leg.

Then, the female protagonist's father kicked Subin's stomach while shaking off the leg that Subin was holding.

Subin, who seemed to have lost her breath for a moment, gasped and clutched her stomach.

여주 아빠

“The heroine... that damn heroine......”

여주 아빠

“나는 그 년 좋아하는 새끼가 싫어”

최수빈[14]

“Why on earth… What did I do so wrong that you had to take care of that little, delicate child…?”

여주 아빠

"He's weak? That's because you can't see his eyes."

여주 아빠

“That’s just his nature.”

여주 아빠

“Blood is thicker than water.”

최수빈[14]

“The heroine is different from you...”

여주 아빠

“Just wait and you’ll find out.”

최수빈[14]

“No...no! It’s terrible...you...”

The sound of conversation suddenly stopped. Instead, the friction sound, timed to the beat, resonated again.

Soobin couldn't come to her senses. She was still in pain, but her head started to hurt from worrying about Yeoju.

I was so scared. How scared must you have been?

How much of a prison must this tiny house have been?

Her wounds were incalculable to me.

최수빈[14]

“..........”

Subin glared at Yeoju's father, then ground his teeth and clenched his fists until they bled.

여주 아빠

“What are you talking about?”

Yeoju's father grabbed Soobin by the collar and forced her to meet his eyes. It was a tremendous sense of intimidation. Yeoju's sharp, sharp gaze confirmed that it was hereditary.

Despite the pressure, Soobin remained undaunted and stared straight ahead. Sweat dripped down his back and face.

최수빈[14]

“You piece of trash”

With a clanking sound, the iron door that seemed like it would never open opened again with a creaking sound. Light from outside seeped in, and behind the door

이여주[14]

"what..?"

As expected, the female protagonist was standing there

Yeoju was dumbfounded. Her eyes were like, "Why is Subin here?"

최수빈[14]

“Hey lady...!”

The two's touching reunion was put on the back burner, and Yeo-ju's father looked back and forth between Yeo-ju and Soo-bin, chuckling eerily.

Then he grabbed Soobin by the back of her neck, slammed her to the floor, and climbed on top of her.

여주 아빠

“Lady, I’ll put on a show for you.”

The female protagonist's father began to hit Soobin from above. If I were to sum up this scene in one word, it would be 'a complete mess of a psychopath.'

The heroine couldn't say anything. She could only stand still and tremble like a whining puppy.

It was like Pavlov's dog, drooling profusely at the sound of the bell, shaking as the female protagonist heard the sound of the blow.

Subin looked at Yeoju and mouthed a "report" message. Yeoju's father, seeing this, turned Subin's face towards him and silenced her.

여주 아빠

“Ah.. Yeoju, you’re acting so petty...”

The female protagonist's father glared at the female protagonist, who was trembling and unable to do anything.

여주 아빠

“Ah... Should I do it a little harder...”

The female protagonist's father looked around twice.

I picked up the glass cup

최수빈[14]

“Lady...help me......”

Clang-

The glass shattered and my hand went limp. I felt like I'd lost consciousness.

You couldn't say anything and I couldn't do anything.

This was the first time I'd experienced such great fear. One person subdued two.

Ahhh - thinking back to that time makes my head hurt again

Ep.18 5 Years Ago [2/3]

우화리

Haha, the more I go, the more I fail

우화리

It's so boring ~ ~

우화리

There's only violence in one episode, no content, and I hate it so much.

A brief summary of the content

The reason why Yeo-ju went to Do-hwan's house is because Do-hwan was more comfortable there and Subin would definitely stop her if she went back home.

A combination of Murphy's Law, where being caught up in trauma creates another trauma and misfortune follows another.

우화리

As I always say, please let me know if you have any corrections to the content.