5 years ago, 5 years later

Ep.19 5 Years Ago [3/3]

Trigger Warning: This material contains scenes of explicit violence. Please be aware of possible trauma.

*This episode is going fast, so hold on tight!

“My lady...my lady.....”

“Please save Mom...”

최수빈[14]

“Lady...help me......”

“Mom...Mom...!”

“Why can’t I hear my heartbeat..”

The glass shattered with a clear, shattered sound, landing right next to your face, and you fainted without making a sound.

Once again, I was unable to do anything. Even though you were crying in front of me, I just watched, no different from seven years ago.

I thought you were dead. It was just like when my mother died. They both asked me for help, but the result was the same.

여주 아빠

“Oh my gosh, you’re so pathetic.”

Subin's hand fell limp, and Yeoju's father got up from above Subin and stood in front of Yeoju.

여주 아빠

“What would I have done if I had really broken his head?”

The heroine couldn't even sit down, and her lips trembled as if she was cold.

여주 아빠

“Ha... so petty... I thought you’d come running and stop me... but why? Were you afraid you’d die like your mom?”

The female protagonist's father lifted the female protagonist's chin.

여주 아빠

“You better not even think about reporting it.”

여주 아빠

"The moment you come out of the cell, you? No, I'll kill that guy first."

The heroine's father smiled devilishly at the sight of her trembling pupils.

It wasn't that there was a devil, but I thought maybe humans could be devils.

What sin did I commit to be thrown into this devil's den?

이여주[14]

“....Even if I don't do it, he'll report me.”

The heroine stuttered, unable to control her trembling lips, but looked straight into the eyes of the man she didn't even want to call "father."

여주 아빠

“You have to stop it.”

여주 아빠

“Um... if he reports you, you die.”

The heroine's father seemed to be enjoying himself. He threw out choices as if it were a game, playing with people's lives.

The female protagonist's father patted her shoulder.

여주 아빠

“Try hard, who will die?”

여주 아빠

“Oh, don’t even think about running away. You know you can’t escape from me.”

I know prison is a place to lock someone up and bring them back to their senses. But that person went to prison and built up a network of connections.

That means, finding me alone is like eating cold porridge.

I won't escape his clutches until this bastard dies.

이여주[14]

“I told you before, I hated you from the start.”

Pretend to be as indifferent as possible

이여주[14]

"You think I've become something because I'm just sitting here? You're nothing to me. Don't try to make things meaningful to yourself."

Worse and more painful than the villainess in the evil novel

최수빈[14]

“But still.. you said you cared for me.. you liked me too.”

Don't make such a sad face. Don't shake my heart like that.

이여주[14]

"That's funny. Are you really the only one who likes and dates? Are you crazy? Are we even related?"

이여주[14]

“Stop being clingy, it’s annoying.”

Don't look at me with such sad eyes

I'm pushing you away for you, that's why

So...

You turned around and left with a look on your face like you were about to cry, your shoulders drooping like that.

And then I heard laughter from behind. It was that kid. He was having fun. I felt like my heart was being ripped out of me.

여주 아빠

“You were bad, Yeoju. I told you not to report me, I didn’t tell you to kick me out.”

Yeoju's father leaned against the wall under a sign that said it wasn't raining, and looked down at her with his characteristic half-open eyes.

The heroine knew that Soobin had created a weakness.

The heroine's father would exploit this weakness to the end.

여주 아빠

“Wow... You're good at driving nails into other people's hearts too...”

여주 아빠

"You don't think you'll ever be like me? No, you're too much like me. Selfish, insensitive to others' feelings, and driven by your own emotions. That's just you."

여주 아빠

“I told you, you are human just like me.”

최수빈[14]

“I’m transferring schools”

이여주[14]

"Okay, bye."

최수빈[14]

"That means you won't see me anymore. I changed my phone number."

최수빈[14]

“Still... if you ask, I can tell you the address and phone number of the house I’m moving into.”

이여주[14]

“No need, just go.”

최수빈[14]

“By any chance... are you avoiding me at that house that day because of work?”

최수빈[14]

“I don’t care about any of that… I was a little hurt, but I’m better… You didn’t do anything wrong.”

I did nothing wrong... I couldn't stop him or report him. He just made excuses about being scared of that kid.

Even if that kid tries to kill you, I won't be able to stop him.

I came back without saying anything. I heard you calling me, but I ignored you and walked down the street.

I couldn't stop crying, so I couldn't turn around when you called.

최수빈[14]

“My lady...my lady...”

I cried and cried for you, but you walked away from me without even looking back.

In fact, I was so scared that I felt like I was going to vomit and my legs were shaking just from going near that house.

But it was okay. I thought I could overcome it if I persevered with you because you were there.

“Oh, poor thing.”

Soobin looked back in surprise.

여주 아빠

“Hi~”

Soobin's head ached and her legs trembled as memories of "that house" came flooding back, making her feel like she would collapse if she took even a single step.

Soobin swallowed hard and glared at Yeoju's father.

여주 아빠

“I told you, Yeoju, that’s just her nature.”

여주 아빠

“It’s so vicious and venomous.”

여주 아빠

“You were completely fooled by him.”

여주 아빠

“Would a normal person act like that? Hmm... They'd probably suggest running away together or... report you.”

여주 아빠

“But why didn’t I do it?”

여주 아빠

“I don’t care whether you die or not.”

여주 아빠

“Because I know that by reporting it, I will also be harmed.”

최수빈[19]

"ah...!!"

Soobin woke up clutching her head, and staggered to the kitchen to grab some medicine and take it.

최수빈[19]

“Haa...haa...”

Soobin sat on the kitchen floor, covering her head.

최수빈[19]

“Oh, I really thought you forgot...”

After meeting Yeoju again, Soobin's memories from five years ago began to resurface.

Memories are easy to forget, but they resurface when something related to them occurs. That's why oblivion is sometimes called a gift from God.

최수빈[19]

“Lee Yeo-ju...”

It's so strange. When I look at you, the you from 5 years ago and the you now overlap and push each other away, but the you from 5 years ago is all just my fantasy and the you now seems like the real Yeoju.

최수빈[19]

“...what does that matter?”

My heart has already been torn apart

The more I'm with you, the more my heart... no, deeper than that... burns and melts, and I feel like I'm going to die.

When I'm with you, I don't even take the medicine the hospital gave me. Mental illness isn't a virus, so it can't be cured.

여주 아빠

“I told you, you are human just like me.”

이여주[14]

“No...I said no...”

여주 아빠

“Do you think he likes you now?”

여주 아빠

“You’d think the women were in on it.”

여주 아빠

"Do you think he'll look down on me? No, I'm just some random piece of trash. But you..."

여주 아빠

“You... are a little different from me. You are a bigger wound to him than to me.”

여주 아빠

"Wounds inflicted by words last longer than violence. Do you understand now, heroine? You're just like me."

Everything is going as if it were some human game.

I couldn't stop it. There were two options, but I could only choose one.

Pushing Choi Soo-bin out and becoming isolated again

이여주[19]

“....Ah, it’s this dream again..”

이여주[19]

“I’ve been in a bad mood since morning.”

이여주[19]

“...what would have happened if I hadn't said those harsh words to you back then?”

이여주[19]

“Oh, no, it’s okay.”

I don't imagine things like this because I know full well that if is just 'if' and not feasible.

Just live well in the present and don't think about what if in the future

The way I live well now is to approach you and make up for the past.

우화리

The whole story hasn't been told yet.

우화리

I'll summarize the story again today.

1. Subin is taking medication due to stress from her past with Yeoju. 2. Subin doesn't want to fall for Yeoju again. Whenever she's with Yeoju, she gets a headache and remembers the past again.

3. Yeo-ju tries to approach Soo-bin, thinking that Soo-bin is pushing her away due to simple trauma. However, Soo-bin feels that Yeo-ju's approach itself causes trauma.

우화리

In some ways, the differences in their positions and difficult feelings are positive for the female lead, right?

우화리

Ah, I think I should have titled it Chaos of Chaos

우화리

But honestly, I don't think the female protagonist is entirely at fault, do I? It was a choice she had no choice in making, and so they're both victims.

우화리

That's why Subin doesn't completely hate Yeoju. If Yeoju had just handled the situation a little more wisely, the situation wouldn't have been this bad.

우화리

The one who caused direct mental damage to Soobin was the female protagonist, but since she was also a victim, I can't blame her.

우화리

That's why I'm trying to push it away. Yes, that's right.

Neither of the two main characters wanted to be the perpetrator. The female lead had a momentary lapse in judgment due to trauma, and Soobin was in a state of confusion, understanding the female lead with his head but not with his heart.

Please watch it as if you were watching the growth story of still immature children. Thank you again today.

(Oh, right. If I were to shorten the content and give a little more explanation, after Subin passed out, both Yeoju and Yeoju's father left the house, and after Subin woke up, there was no one there, so she headed home.)

(The reason Subin's mom didn't see the scar on Subin's face is because, as I said on the phone, Subin's mom doesn't really love Subin or anything, she just doesn't care about him. She just lied and said that Subin was just acting carelessly.)

우화리

The test is over. I did well. Thank you for your help today.