How Can I Love You, a Servant? (Short Story)
# There's no way I could love a mere servant.
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I haven't seen him lately.
Every night without fail, we met at the wine cellar.
He hasn't come lately.
At first I thought he was tired.
But, I couldn't see him even during the day.
So I thought you were busy.
But, it's already been three days since I last saw him.
...
김여주
...
김여주
Why don't I see you these days..?
유재희
yes?
유재희
Who are you?
김여주
..you know, Choi Soo-bin
유재희
..Oh, that male servant?
김여주
..huh
김여주
..are you busy,,
유재희
Hey, what are you busy with?
유재희
There isn't much warehouse work, so I'm just a servant who does odd jobs that are suddenly needed.
김여주
...But why can't I see it?
유재희
..?
유재희
..I don't know?
Jaehee tilted his head.
김여주
...
유재희
...Are you avoiding the young lady?
김여주
...me?
김여주
Avoiding it..?
유재희
Yes, there are a lot of rumors going around these days.
유재희
It could be that he's doing that out of fear of causing harm to the young lady~!
김여주
..Is that so
유재희
Well, of course
유재희
Now, young lady, you should prepare for your coming of age ceremony!
유재희
There are only two weeks left until the coming-of-age ceremony.
유재희
You should also get a pretty dress!
김여주
...huh
...
But for me, the coming-of-age ceremony wasn't even on my radar, and I just missed him so much that I hadn't seen him in three days.
등장인물
Oh my, as expected from a countess' daughter, she shines~ㅎㅎ
김여주
...
유재희
That's right, that's right!
유재희
Miss, I think this is the prettiest dress you've ever seen!
김여주
...Okay, let's do this
I didn't notice the pretty dress.
I just wanted to get home quickly and see him.
유재희
Haa, Miss.. Seriously..!
유재희
You are so pretty
유재희
Even the engaged duke who comes to your coming-of-age ceremony will fall in love with you..!!
김여주
..ah, yeah
I responded indifferently, as if I wasn't interested.
유재희
..?
유재희
Miss, aren't you excited?
유재희
I finally met my fiancé, whose face I've never seen before.
유재희
If I were you, I would be so excited I wouldn't be able to sleep..!?
김여주
...Yeah, I'm not really
김여주
Engagement is just a kind of friendship between noble families.
김여주
I don't really like being sold to people whose faces I don't even know.
유재희
...Miss..
김여주
If you bought everything, let's go
김여주
I want to go quickly
유재희
..yes
I finally got home
유재희
Miss, this dress...
김여주
Yeah, just leave it
김여주
I'll just walk a little and then go
유재희
Yes, it's cold so you should come in quickly!
유재희
You get it, right?
김여주
Yeah yeah
So, as soon as I got off the carriage, I sent Jaehee away first and walked slowly around the mansion.
How long did it take to walk like that?
As I reached the garden, I saw a familiar back.
square._
square._
최수빈
Is this enough?
등장인물
Yes, thank you
김여주
..!
That familiar back view was indeed Soobin.
Soobin was helping the gardener.
김여주
...
As soon as I saw Soobin, I ran to him without even realizing that my dress was being trampled.
Tadot._
김여주
I waited for a long time
I spoke to Soobin.
최수빈
!
최수빈
..ah
최수빈
Hello, miss.
김여주
...Do you know how long I've waited?
최수빈
..yes?
김여주
Why... you haven't come lately
최수빈
..
김여주
I waited every night...
김여주
I hope you come..
최수빈
...
최수빈
Miss, wait a minute
최수빈
Should we go behind and talk?
김여주
..
The gardener and the servants passing by looked at me and Soobin with surprised eyes.
김여주
..ah
최수빈
..shall we go
김여주
..huh
I followed Soobin with an embarrassed expression.
So we came to a small forest path.
김여주
...
김여주
Why didn't you come?
As soon as I confirmed that there was no one there, I opened my mouth.
최수빈
..I was busy.
김여주
...
김여주
Then why didn't you tell me?
김여주
I was busy
최수빈
..
Subin's expression grew darker and darker.
김여주
...
김여주
How long have you been waiting for me?
김여주
You didn't want to see me..?
최수빈
..
최수빈
..what am I in a position to see you, young lady?
최수빈
I just went because the owner called me.
김여주
..
He was acting very strange today.
He wasn't that cold of a person.
Where did all the affectionate words from back then go?
It was like a different person.
김여주
..I am
김여주
I thought I was going crazy because I missed you
김여주
..I guess you didn't do that..?
최수빈
..
최수빈
..Miss, don't say that.
최수빈
I'm just a servant.
Soobin spoke with a face that was even colder than before.
김여주
...
..why, all of a sudden
Are you making that kind of expression..?
What did I do wrong?
When I saw Soobin's expression, a thousand thoughts came to mind.
김여주
I am..
김여주
I thought I was getting a little closer to you
김여주
..so
김여주
..so it's so good
김여주
If you push me away like that...
At this moment, I felt like crying.
I was so sad and upset that you didn't understand my feelings.
You used to look at me so affectionately...
...
최수빈
I'm going to go now.
최수빈
then,
Soobin said that and then quickly turned his back.
김여주
for a moment,
최수빈
..
Subin turned around at my call and stood tall.
김여주
..Lastly, I have one more question.
김여주
Do you hate me by any chance?
I asked with tears in my eyes, as if I was on the verge of bursting into tears.
최수빈
...
Subin stood there silently for a moment in response to my question.
And then, for a moment, he opened his mouth.
최수빈
How could I love you, a mere servant?
Soobin let out a hollow laugh with a slightly distorted, bitter expression on her face.
김여주
...
As soon as he finished speaking, a memory from that time suddenly came to mind.
three days ago
김여주
There's no way I could love a servant.
...
..
.
Sweep._
최수빈
...
At that moment, Soobin, who was passing by, overheard Yeoju's words.
...
김여주
you...
김여주
Were you there then..?
최수빈
..
Kkugit._
Soobin held onto the sleeve of his clothes and suppressed the emotions that were rising at that moment.
김여주
That...
김여주
Did you hear that?
I kept asking.
By any chance, did you really hear those words at that time?
Are you upset because of that?
If that's the case, I'd like to explain why I did that.
It's a misunderstanding...
I wanted to say something.
김여주
You were there at that time, right?
최수빈
..
김여주
If it's right, say it's right
김여주
Say something
I was frustrated with Subin keeping her mouth shut, so I let out a loud noise without realizing it.
김여주
..ah,
I spoke too loudly...
최수빈
Yes, I was there at that time.
Soon, Subin, who had been keeping her mouth shut, opened it.
최수빈
And, I heard it all
최수빈
There's no way a young lady would love a mere servant.
최수빈
I heard.
최수빈
...I dare say I overheard you talking, young lady.
최수빈
sorry.
Subin looked at me with an increasingly hurt expression, her cold expression fading away.
김여주
...ah
I couldn't say anything when I saw his face like that.
I feel so sorry for him...
I couldn't even make eye contact.
...
최수빈
Well then, I'll go.
김여주
..j..wait a minute..
I grabbed Soobin once more.
김여주
That word..!
김여주
That wasn't my intention..
최수빈
Now, please stop
Subin cut me off.
김여주
..
최수빈
I was wrong.
최수빈
How dare someone like me covet you, young lady.
최수빈
Even though he's just a servant...
최수빈
...I liked the girl.
김여주
..what?
I looked at Subin with surprised eyes at his words.
최수빈
Yes, I couldn't stop even though I knew my topic.
최수빈
I keep getting greedy.
최수빈
...
최수빈
But now I know
최수빈
As the young lady said, I am just a servant.
최수빈
How could I love you when I am just a servant?
최수빈
...
Subin's eyes became moist with overwhelming emotions.
김여주
...
최수빈
...I'm sorry, it's my fault for venting my feelings to you, young lady.
최수빈
We're off topic again.
최수빈
Now, I'm really going to go.
fault._
After saying that, Subin left first.
김여주
...
I could only look at his back.
...
Time passed like that and it became night.
Even now, I toss and turn at night thinking about his words back then.
김여주
...
He said he liked me...
He said he liked me..
...
But, I hurt him like that...
김여주
...under
I regretted it
Why didn't you say it was a misunderstanding back then?
Why couldn't you explain back then that that wasn't what you meant?
...
I hated myself for not being able to say anything when I looked into his wounded eyes.
I was scared before I could even speak.
I felt so sorry and so sorry when I saw his hurt eyes that I couldn't open my mouth in front of him.
...but
But it couldn't have been like this.
I wanted to run to him and explain.
That's not it, that's not what I meant back then.
And the truth is
I love you too..
김여주
...
Yeah, I love him..
widely._
I came to my senses and immediately headed to the wine cellar where Subin was.
Why did I only find out now?
I love you too
김여주
haha..
I ran out of the room barefoot without even having time to put on my shoes and ran madly down the stairs.
김여주
...
Please, I hope he's still here.
I ran and ran while praying.
And soon I arrived at the wine cellar.
Crunch._
김여주
Choi Soo-bin.
I flung open the door to the wine cellar and called his name for the first time.
최수빈
!
Soobin was startled by the warehouse door suddenly opening.
김여주
...
Luckily he was in the warehouse.
I was so relieved that I collapsed.
최수빈
..!
최수빈
miss..?
Subin immediately came over to me, who had collapsed.
최수빈
I'm okay
김여주
I'm not serious..!
I opened my mouth hastily when I saw Soobin.
Maybe it was because I opened my mouth in a hurry, but I don't even know what I said.
최수빈
..yes?
Subin looked embarrassed when she saw me like that.
김여주
..that word
김여주
I didn't mean it...
I slowly took a deep breath and slowly opened my mouth.
김여주
At that time, what I said was not true.
김여주
..I'm sorry if I hurt you
최수빈
...
김여주
It's true...
김여주
and..
최수빈
..please stop
Soobin cut me off again.
김여주
..why?
김여주
I was just about to say the most important thing...
최수빈
...That's enough..
최수빈
I know too..
최수빈
What the young lady said back then wasn't true...
최수빈
I was so rude back then.
최수빈
Even though I knew it, I was upset without knowing it
최수빈
It's so unfair that I'm just one of your servants...
최수빈
Yes, it was..
김여주
...
최수빈
And I know very well that you are not that kind of person.
최수빈
..I'm sorry, because of my greed
김여주
...
김여주
...no
최수빈
..?
김여주
That's not what I'm saying.
최수빈
..?
최수빈
Well then, what is it?
Tubseok._
I grabbed both of Subin's shoulders.
최수빈
!
최수빈
..I, uh..miss..?
Subin's eyes widened in shock at Yeoju's actions.
최수빈
What are you trying to say?
김여주
..love you.
I hesitated for a moment and then yelled at Subin.
I love you
..
최수빈
...yes?
Subin stared at Yeoju with a bewildered expression at Yeoju's confession.
김여주
..
김여주
..I love you..
I whispered to him again that I loved him with a shy girl's face.
최수빈
...
As soon as Soobin heard my words, his body instantly stiffened.
김여주
..why
김여주
Do you still hate me..?
I looked at him with anxious eyes and stiffness.
최수빈
..no,
최수빈
..No, I like it too..
최수빈
No, I love you, miss.
Subin also whispered to the female protagonist that he loved her with a shy boyish face.
김여주
...!
It was the first confession I ever received from a man.
That was also the first love I ever heard from the person I first fell in love with.
side._
김여주
Yeah, I love you
최수빈
..!
I shyly kissed his lips.
And he looked at me with a blush on his face, startled by my kiss.
최수빈
..miss?
김여주
..now, don't call me miss
김여주
Call my name
김여주
...huh?
최수빈
..
'Snickers'
최수빈
Yes, my lady
Soobin called out to Yeoju in an affectionate voice, smiling faintly.
김여주
...
When he called my name, my heart pounded.
I felt excited because I was being called by him as an ordinary woman, Kim Yeo-ju, rather than a young lady.
side._
최수빈
It's late, I'll go in now.
Soobin kissed Yeoju's forehead.
김여주
!
김여주
..uh, uh..
His kiss made my heart race
So I greeted Soobin with a red face.
김여주
I'll go..//
최수빈
Oh, wait
김여주
?
최수빈
There's a town festival tomorrow...
최수빈
Do you want to go with me..?
김여주
...Yeah, okay
최수빈
Okay, see you tomorrow then haha
So I made an appointment with him for tomorrow and went into the mansion.
I went straight into my room and lay down on the bed.
dump._
김여주
...
...I'm so excited.
I tossed and turned in excitement for a long time that night.
It was as if I was a pure girl who had fallen in love for the first time.
The fresh excitement of first love, a love that burns fast.
That love that seems like it will always last forever
Until I felt the limits of that love...
I didn't know
How dangerous a tightrope walk that love is...
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