Eunha Fanfic | “I don’t swim.” - 04. Past

04. Past

정은비

… I can’t do it.. I can’t swim..!!!

김소정

Jeong Eun-bi, it's not that you can't do it. You just don't do it.

정은비

Don't even think about scolding me. I'm not that elementary school student Jeong Eun-bi who listened well to the coach.

정은비

And come to think of it, you don't have the right to say that to me either, teacher. Who am I for...

(Eunbi suddenly has a flood of memories flooding into her head at once, and is suffering from the painful memories.)

정은비

Ugh...ugh!

Eunbi suddenly covers her mouth and runs away.

김소정

… under

Eun-bi Hwang and Ye-won enter the director's office at that time.

황은비

Hey, Director, what's wrong?

김예원

What's wrong? Eunbi Sae looked unhappy earlier.

황은비

What is the new silver bee…?

김예원

Newcomer Eunbi! You're new here!

황은비

Then am I Heon Eun-bi?

김예원

Okay, then I guess I should call you that from now on.

황은비

Oh my gosh…

김예원

So, what's going on, Director?

김소정

That's... uh... that's not something I can say to you guys, Yewon, where did (Jung) Eunbi go earlier?

김예원

It's behind the swimming pool.

김소정

Okay, I understand. Thank you.

So-jeong goes out to find (Jung) Eun-bi.

The alley behind the school swimming pool.

정은비

Ugh.. ugh.. ugh ugh ugh!!!

Eunbi pours out her heart. Then she collapses...

정은비

Haa..haa...sob...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..

Eunbi cries quietly, unable to even make a sound.

김소정

Eunbi, Jeong Eunbi!

So-jeong finds Eun-bi and wakes her up.

But Eunbi rejects such thoughts.

정은비

Let go!!! Don't touch me.

김소정

Eunbi, you're misunderstanding me. I...

정은비

Be quiet!!

김소정

….

정은비

If only the coach had stopped me from competing back then... I... I... Ugh!!

So-jeong pats Eun-bi on the back, but she can't say anything.

Eunbi, who has calmed down, tries to shake off Sojeong and escape the alley.

김소정

Eunbi!!!

정은비

….

김소정

Tomorrow... you're going to the pool, right?

정은비

Why me?

김소정

…I have something to say after swimming

정은비

I'm doing it now.

김소정

I think it's too hard for you to do it now.

정은비

I won't be coming to the pool, and I'll be leaving the swimming club, so please understand that.

김소정

Jeong Eun-bi! How long are you going to live like that?

정은비

Don't worry about it. I'm not the coach's student anymore, no, not the director's student.

Eunbi stumbles and leaves her seat. Sojeong can't catch her.

Eunbi's house.

The door opens and closes violently, and a loud 'thud!' sound fills the room.

정은비

Haa… haa…

Eunbi, who seems unable to calm down, sits down and breathes heavily.

After a while, he seems to have calmed down a bit and walks to the bed and lies down.

정은비

… I just want to sleep forever…

The countless types of medications before her eyes caught Eunbi's eye. Since that day, she hasn't been able to sleep properly without medication. The only days she did sleep without medication were when she tossed and turned in pain or when her older sister, Yerin, was by her side.

Eunbi also thought about taking all those pills. But Yerin was in so much pain and suffering that she didn't want to see her like that, so she held back and endured.

Eunbi stared at the bottle of medicine for a while, then turned her head to the other side and fell asleep.

I just go to sleep with the hope that I won't have any dreams tonight.

But whether he was ignoring Eunbi or punishing her, not even one of her small wishes was granted, and Eunbi was trapped in her dream, suffering again.

The next morning

정은비

no!!!!

Eunbi woke up from her dream in shock.

정은비

… Hah ShiX… Why… Why!!!

Eun-bi expresses anger that is either self-reproach or resentment, but whose target is unknown.

I get up, drenched, and head to the bathroom. I wash my face, which is drenched in tears and sweat, and leave the bathroom, leaving only my bag behind.

On days like this, I don't want to go to school. Honestly, I'm not in my right mind. I can't even tell what kind of mind I'm walking with or what I'm looking at.

But I go to school with the thought that if I don't go to school, my sister will come looking for me again, and then I'll be bothering her again.

Eunbi, walking through the school gate and onto the playground, looks like a corpse to anyone who sees her.

황은비

Hey Kim Ye-won, why are you leaving me!!!

김예원

I'm always late because of you. I don't want to run!

황은비

Got it!! Huh? Hey, but in front...

김예원

?Why in front?

황은비

Isn't that Jeong Eun-bi? But why does she walk like that...?

김예원

Huh? Is that so... does it hurt somewhere??

황은비

Let's go

김예원

? Don't you hate him?

황은비

No, people are dying, so we have to look into it.

김예원

Oh, what's going on?

황은비

Let's go quickly, he's going to collapse

Eunbi Hwang and Yewon approach Eunbi Jeong like that.

황은비

Hey! Jeong Eun-bi, are you okay?

김예원

Eunbi, Eunbi, wake up

정은비

… Get out of the way..

황은비

Hey, what school did you come to like this? Go home.

정은비

Don't worry about it...

Hwang Eun-bi straightens up the staggering Jeong Eun-bi

황은비

You can't even walk properly, what are you... Hey, Yewon, call 119.

김예원

Alsser, (Jung) Eunbi, just hold on for a bit and let's go to the hospital.

When Yewon tries to call the hospital, (Jung) Eunbi grabs her wrist.

정은비

No hospital… Call your sister… I’m going…

황은비

I'm sick, so I should contact my family.

정은비

No... Don't do it, I'm fine...

황은비

Hey, that won't work. Can you walk to that bench?

김예원

I'll be there soon, so let's sit on the bench.

정은비

I'm not going... I'm not going...

황은비

Hey, you're so stubborn. Then let's just go sit on the bench over there.

김예원

Hey, I'll call the director over there.

When Yewon went to call the director, Jeong Eun-bi tried to resist, but she couldn't muster the strength, and was forced to sit on the bench, leaning against Hwang Eun-bi.