I'll wait in the future
I'll wait in the future
This world has lost its light.
The world was ruled by one insignificant human being.
Even the sound of breathing was detected, and those with particularly rough breathing were specially monitored by the Thought Police, as they might harbor feelings of anger.
Even just buying a few sheets of paper or a notebook required items like an ID card, passport, or permit.
Those who resisted were executed, and the notes taken from their homes were read and burned by the Thought Police.
The thought police that were monitoring everywhere were not the police we know.
He was like a spy.
You never know. Your lover, your children, your parents might be thought police too.
No one could believe it.
I couldn't quite remember the last time I saw a bright sky.
When I pursed my lips and exhaled, the musty cigarette smoke filled the ceiling.
전정국
after…
The sky was dark and I had no idea how hazy the ceiling was.
Just guess by breathing and feeling.
I took a deep breath and a cough came out on its own.
전정국
It's so fucking dark.
There was no answer.
I threw myself onto the gray bed.
Actually, I don't remember at all whether it was gray or not.
Maybe the light-colored bed looks that way because of the dark sky.
In the room, the only sound was the ticking of the clock.
The hour hand pointed to 9, and the minute hand pointed to 12.
9 o'clock sharp, the time I hated the most.
From the so-called ‘telescreen’ that filled one wall of the living room, ear-splittingly loud music accompanied by a crackling sound was coming.
On the screen, the eyes of the figure called ‘Big Brother’ disappeared, and a thin woman appeared.
안여주
Tomorrow is the birthday of His Majesty Big Brother, the Commander of the Universe.
안여주
Following the admirable precepts of ‘War is peace, freedom is slavery, ignorance is strength’, our Big Brother government will wage war.
안여주
War is peace, freedom is slavery, ignorance is strength!
He looked so stupid.
How do you work under a government like that?
I poured down the whiskey in one gulp, enough to burn my throat.
The cheeks would have turned red due to the intoxication.
It's hard to see because of the darkness, but judging by the way his cheeks are burning, he's probably quite red.
A swear word came out of my throat naturally.
What a great lesson.
I looked so pathetic shouting that sentence through the telescreen.
안여주
…
I knew that if I even let out a sigh, the thought police would come rushing in, so I quietly suppressed my dirty feelings inside.
Every day at 9 o'clock, he stood in front of the telescreen and delivered the news.
It was kind of like an announcer.
No, maybe it was a lot different from the announcer.
My old memories are hazy, so I don't quite remember the definition of an announcer, but I remember them as someone who conveys the truth.
But I am telling you a false truth.
It is a world where if the party is true, then lies become true, and if the party is false, then facts become false.
In such a dirty world, if you tell me to bark, I'll live a life of barking.
안여주
Now, everyone stand in front of the telescreen.
I found myself laughing.
It was funny.
It was miserable.
But what can I do?
I have to survive till the end, even if it's as a doll.