“Marriage Blue”
Episode 48 | If Only It Were a Dream
The place he took me to, with the words that he had been waiting for me, was the rooftop. I stopped following Woohyun.
박지민
…what did you say?
It would have been normal for him to be angry, but Jimin was strangely listless. Perhaps it was because of the shock of what had just happened. Woohyun hadn't known about what had happened before.
권우현
Are you pretending not to know, or do you really not know?
박지민
…what are you trying to say?
권우현
… But judging by your reaction, it seems like you really don’t know.
Jimin clenched his fists so tightly they turned white. Even as his fingernails dug into his flesh, his facial expression didn't change.
Perhaps it was because I was jealous of the two people in love, but also because I witnessed them up close. I thought she would open her mouth easily, but that wasn't the case.
There was a time when my mouth was unable to move once or twice.
박지민
…is it by any chance related to our father?
Was that something you knew? No, that was a guess. The most accurate guess. Was it because we're related by blood, or because he's my father? Jimin spoke with almost certainty.
권우현
……
박지민
Father… Is it possible that he had something to do with the death of Yeoju’s parents?
Jimin couldn't readily answer yes. He squeezed his eyes shut and collapsed. That silence was, in effect, an answer. It contained a positive affirmation of yes.
Jimin, crouching down and covering his face, hoped that, even if it was late, Woohyun would deny it.
But, until the very end, the only sound on the rooftop was the sound of the wind. No other sound could be heard.
박지민
…I see, that’s what happened.
The feeling I had driving to work came flooding back to me. I was certain it had something to do with my father, but I desperately hoped I was wrong. I wondered if my father would ever understand the silence that ultimately broke my heart.
I sobbed silently. At this moment, crying out loud felt like a luxury. Only now did I understand the heroine's feelings.
Did the heroine really hate me when she said those words? No, if she were the heroine, she would have felt sorry for me even before she said those words. Feeling guilty.
Still, I had no choice but to push him away. It was probably because I, Park Jimin, was the son who killed his own parents.
권우현
…….
This isn't it. Contrary to my expectations that if Park Jimin collapsed, I'd feel relieved, my heart felt heavy. Why on earth am I doing this?
Because the female protagonist loves him? Or because Park Jimin loves the female protagonist? Or… because he has been watching over the female protagonist and seen her truly happy?
Woohyun couldn't easily answer any of the questions.
박지민
… Are you sleeping well and eating well, Yeoju?
Jungkook, who had called him over the phone and come outside, was momentarily speechless at Jimin's appearance. He wondered what was wrong with him, but then wondered if he'd found out why, so he asked.
전정국
…did you figure out why he did that?
전정국
I've already asked several times, but you haven't answered. If you know, tell me!
You didn't say anything until the end? Jimin tilted his head back and exhaled. You were so kind to the end. I felt empty.
He knew that if he brought that up, Jeongguk's eyes would roll. What good was all that consideration? A bitter taste lingered in his mouth.
박지민
…Jungkook, I regret it so much.
Jungkook furrowed his brow. He'd asked why, and suddenly he'd said he regretted it. Just as he was about to tell her to speak properly, a moistened voice rang in his ears again.
박지민
…I shouldn’t have met the heroine like you said.
박지민
Furthermore, you shouldn’t have come to Korea to find your first love…
전정국
……
박지민
If that were the case, we wouldn't be so inferior to each other. If only we hadn't known each other...
Jungkook could tell from Jimin's tears, unable to continue speaking. That this incident had something to do with him.
“Father… killed the heroine’s parents.”
“Father… Father….”
“Jungkook, what should I do now?…”
전정국
…….
It wouldn't be surprising if I were to throw a punch right now, but strangely, my fist wouldn't clench. Could it be because I was sitting there crying like a child, or was it the memory of playing together as children?
His current actions were not moving as he intended.
박지민
… and yet he, like an idiot, didn’t tell you that he would protect me.
박지민
What should I do now? Please, tell me…
Please… It seemed to ring in my ears. Thinking back to that day when Yeoju returned, blood clots everywhere, I should have been angry, but I wasn't. Perhaps it was because I was so distressed… I closed the distance between myself and Jimin.
전정국
……brother.
Jimin slowly raised his head and looked at Jungkook, hearing a soft voice. There was no anger or sadness on his face. Only pity… A hand reached out to touch his head.
전정국
….Hey, do you want to meet me?
I called her, but I didn't know what to say. I asked if she wanted to meet the female lead. Jimin, perhaps a little taken aback, stared blankly for a moment before his tear-stained eyes closed gently.
박지민
… … No, lol.
박지민
I'm not confident. I'm not confident about facing someone, or saying goodbye...
The one who felt unsure about parting ways or facing her partner was none other than Yeoju. She had been listening to the whole story from afar, and finally, tears welled up again.
Please, I wish this moment was a dream…
I hope it was a nightmare I never want to remember again…
김여주
please……
++ I think it will end within episode 55 : )
++ If the portion control fails, it may take longer... Anyway, that's it(?)
++ I'm thinking of doing a Q&A to celebrate the ending, so if you have any questions, please ask 'ㅅ' 💜