my story

[Kim So-jung] A feeling of depression that has arisen in my heart

Time passes.

As time goes by, I become smaller.

Both my body and my mind become smaller.

No, I feel like I'm getting smaller.

I wonder what I did wrong.

I wonder why I have to live like this.

I wonder how many times I've tried to give up on my life.

This heart that kept growing bigger,

It's gotten so big I can't control it.

The feelings my enlarged heart has

It's depression.

Depression consumed me.

Depression took over my body.

Depression is controlling me.

I just did what depression told me to do.

김소정

Phew....

I'm home alone again today.

I am alone at home.

Even when leaving the house,

Even when going to school,

Even when taking classes,

Even during break time,

Even when taking mobile classes,

Even during lunch time,

Even during school hours,

I am always alone.

Even when I get home, I'm alone.

I'm an only child, and my parents both work so they come home late.

Come in when I go to bed,

Leave the house before I wake up,

I've never even seen my parents' faces properly.

That doesn't mean that things change when parents are around.

Whether there is someone or not, I am lonely and depressed.

I need treatment, but I can't get it.

that is,

김소정

This is my life.

A person that no one cares about.

A person who is ignored by the world.

That person

김소정

It's me.

I am a person who is not needed in the world.

I am a useless person in the world.

I think so,

The more you perceive it that way

A different feeling blossoms within me.

That feeling wasn't good either.

I wanted to shake off that feeling,

Maybe because depression has already consumed me

Depression is controlling me

It made those bad feelings grow.

Eventually, that feeling also consumed me.

Then I was lost in another thought.

self-harm,

wound,

suicide.

I am covered with depression, sadness, loneliness, etc.

I ended up making an extreme choice.

okay,

A gloomy feeling arose in my heart,

That's what made me like this.

ruin me,

It broke me down.

That's how I will be forgotten in this world.

Because I won't be in this world.

I don't think anyone will remember me.

김소정

Phew... I can do it....

I pulled myself together and climbed the ladder.

Now... if we just take one step forward from here,

I lost consciousness,

You will be able to say goodbye to this world forever.

김소정

Okay... let's be brave.....

I looked down.

Except for a few passersby,

It was quiet.

People who happened to look up

He stopped walking when he saw me on the rooftop.

But no one told me to come down.

Okay, let me end my life here.

So I,

Fell.

Depression consumes me,

A bad feeling is taking over me

The gloomy feeling that arose in my heart

You drove me to death,

김소정

I ended my life, which was so short.

[Kim So-jung] A feeling of depression that has arisen in my heart