One day, my heart said it was dying.
05 | Unspeakable Fear
So I followed Su-ah and opened the door to the garden on the hospital rooftop and went in.
As soon as Sua stepped onto the rooftop garden, she smiled bashfully and said.
한 수아
Kook-ah, the weather is really nice today - isn't it?
한 수아
But it's so hot...
전 정국
Yeah, I'd believe it even if you said it was summer.
전 정국
If this continues, I'll end up roasting the whole thing...
Because the weather was hot, I unconsciously frowned and answered.
Sua chuckled at my reaction and said to me.
한 수아
Hmm, I'm fine with that?
한 수아
On a day like this, when the sky is blue and clear...
한 수아
There's this handsome guy next to me.
한 수아
However, the place we are at right now is the hospital rooftop garden...
한 수아
That's a bit of a shame..!
Did I see things wrong for a moment…?
No, I saw it for a very short time, but I definitely saw it.
The look in Soo-ah's eyes when she said her last words...
Those eyes looked so sad.
I tried to act calm as if I didn't see her gaze and spoke to her.
전 정국
If you feel bad, get treatment and get well soon.
전 정국
And then, let's go to the beach you like.
At my words, she looked at me with sparkling eyes and answered me excitedly like an innocent child.
한 수아
Wow, awesome..- I really like the ocean!
한 수아
Then I want to get treatment twice a day?! No, three times!!
전 정국
Han Su-ah, that doesn't mean you'll recover quickly.
한 수아
But I want to get better soon and go to the beach...
She just smiled bashfully and continued speaking quickly, wondering what was so exciting about it.
한 수아
Hey, Kku-ah-. Then, should we reserve an ocean view room for our accommodation?
한 수아
Oh, no... - Are you having trouble with the glare in the morning?
전 정국
Ugh, I haven't even decided when I'll go yet.
전 정국
Are you already thinking about accommodations?
They are chatting away like magpies, excited like elementary school students about to embark on a field trip.
You looked so cute that I couldn't help but chuckle.
In response to my reaction, you puffed out your cheeks as if trying to look even cuter than before.
한 수아
of course!
한 수아
Things like this need to be planned in advance.
한 수아
That way, you can leave right away whenever you want!
전 정국
Ugh, I told you I couldn't stop you...
한 수아
As soon as we get there, we drop off our luggage at the hotel and go out for grilled clams for dinner.
한 수아
While eating, I also added a little bit of alcohol..!
전 정국
Yeah, yeah, and what else?
한 수아
Hmm, then buy some fireworks for dinner..-!
I just blurted out one word about the sea...
It just made me laugh to see him start planning everything, from the accommodations to the itinerary after arriving.
As I was quietly watching Soo-ah like that, she seemed so cute...
I didn't care what other people thought because I thought Su-ah was so cute, so I gently kissed her cheek and pulled away.
한 수아
ㅁ,What's going on all of a sudden!?
전 정국
Hey, why are you reacting like that?
전 정국
I'm kissing my girlfriend
전 정국
Is there any problem-?
한 수아
Oh, oh my... Everyone's staring!
전 정국
So… are you embarrassed?
전 정국
Suah, your face looks like an apple right now.
한 수아
Oh, that's not it!?
When I said that her face was like an apple, Su-ah caressed her cheeks with both hands and then answered, stammering as if she was embarrassed.
한 수아
Oh really..- I said it's not like that?!
전 정국
That's right, it's embarrassing, our apple Suah-.
한 수아
See..- Okay, I'm going in!
Sua opened the rooftop garden door in a hurry, as if embarrassed, and ran into the hospital building.
Seeing her, a smile came to my face for no reason, and I soon followed her in.
As I entered the hospital building, the inside of the building was very cool, unlike the hot weather on the rooftop garden.
It was as if the cool air conditioning was welcoming me back in after going outside.
Feeling good because of the air conditioning, I followed her to the elevator and waited for it to arrive.
Then, Sua turned around as if she had something to say, looked at me, grabbed my hand, and said.
한 수아
Oh, that's right, Kku-ah-.
전 정국
Hey, do you need anything?
한 수아
Yeah, I want to eat ice cream-.
전 정국
… Ice cream all of a sudden?
한 수아
Yeah, buy it for me-.
전 정국
I just came in and cooled off-?
한 수아
I know... but-.
한 수아
Can't you buy it for me?
The cute sight of Sua acting cute and affectionate while looking at me and asking me to buy her ice cream
Before I knew it, my heart melted, and eventually I gave in to her charm, smiled, gently stroked her head, and answered.
전 정국
Ugh… I get it-.
한 수아
Hehe, are you going to buy ice cream?
전 정국
Yeah, who's going to stop you?
전 정국
I'm going to buy some ice cream, so go to the hospital room first.
한 수아
Yeah, yeah, you have to come quickly-?
전 정국
Han Su-ah, don't run or run away. Go straight to the sickroom!
한 수아
Okay, Kook-ah, you have to come quickly with ice cream!?
So I stopped by the convenience store in front of the hospital and bought Su-ah's favorite ice cream.
Then I hurried to the hospital room, thinking of her waiting for me and the ice cream.
I hurried my steps and arrived in front of the hospital room. As I was about to open the door, taking deep, slow breaths… -
담당 주치의
How many times do I have to tell you not to do it..!
Stop-.
전 정국
…-
I stopped with my hand still on the handle at the sound coming from inside the hospital room.
I carefully hid my body to the side, afraid that my shadow might be seen from inside, and began to concentrate on the conversation coming from inside, holding my breath.
And as I sat there, holding my breath, one door away from them, I began to feel afraid without even realizing it.
I really hope that's not the case, but-
Those words I never wanted to hear...
Because I thought they might give and take...