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Episode 2

How many more hours did it take like that?

I never got to go home.

Because even if I go back, my father will be dead and my mother will still be in shock.

I decided to go to the place where I was happiest because I felt like I would go crazy if I went back.

김석진

"Yeah, my mom and my brother...we went on a picnic together..."

The time I remember being the happiest was when I was 8 years old.

This is where my younger brother, who is five years younger than me, and I went on a picnic to briefly escape our violent father.

Of course, the three of us were desperate to hide our scars and wounds, and I remember wearing long sleeves on that hot summer day.

어린 석진

"Mom, aren't you going to my house?"

석진의 엄마

"Yeah, I can't go for a while."

어린 석진

"Eww, I want to watch cartoons... Look at this. Chaerin wants to go home too..."

I begged my mom so childishly.

But...we shouldn't have gone that day.

My father was having an affair with another woman, and my brother and I witnessed it.

석진의 아빠

"Why are you here!!! Are you crazy? I told you not to come!"

Mother knelt down again and begged...

No... let's stop now. It's too hard to even think about old memories...

As I was thinking about it, I arrived at the park where I had come with my younger sibling and mother.

Warm sunlight was shining under the big tree.

I sat down as if drawn to something and lay down right away.

Oh, is this paradise?

I felt nothing and was sitting with my brother and mother, with a happy expression on my face.

I didn't want to touch myself at that end.

Because I wanted to be happy at least in my dreams...

But at the end of it all, I tried to get up.

I wanted to stop it. To somehow be happier, to somehow see my brother more...

In that happy situation, my hidden personalities began to emerge.

Kindness and wandering, tsundere and livelihood, curiosity and example.

These are the things I used to say the most when I was young.

They were popping out from somewhere and making me feel at peace.

Thanks to them, I was able to be happier and see my brother more.

Like a kaleidoscope, my personalities flashed before my eyes, one situation after another.

The kindness he showed to his younger sibling, the tsundere concept he had for his first girlfriend, the part-time job he took to support his mother and younger sibling, the curiosity he had as a child, and the honor and example he maintained at school...

And everything, including the wandering that contains me now, went perfectly.

I never wanted to wake up.

And then some kid looked at me and left.