If only you had hugged me then
If you had warmly wrapped your arms around my shoulders back then
I don't think I would have hated you this much
I don't think I've ever been this lonely
Baby I'm so lonely
I was so lonely
Times you didn't know about
These are really cruel things to me
If your eyes had been on me then
If only I could have heard your answer then
I don't think I would have hated you this much
I don't think I've ever been this lonely
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The city was quiet at night.
The lights were dimly flickering and coloring the road,
People who were moving around busily have already returned home
He was staying in his own sanctuary.
But my mind could not be at peace.
That night, I was left alone and standing on the street.
The scene from that time came back to my memory.
If only your hand had warmly wrapped around my shoulder back then,
I wouldn't be walking down such a cold street right now.
How much comfort your small action has brought me,
Did you know?
I am the me of that time,
And I closed my eyes, thinking back to you from back then.
You and I stood facing each other,
There was an invisible wall between us.
Your eyes were not directed at me,
Even in those countless moments when I called you
You turned your head as if you couldn't hear.
The loneliness that had been building up inside me eventually turned into hatred.
"Why did that happen?" I had no choice but to ask myself and answer alone.
There were times when I couldn't understand your heart
What a cruel time it was for me,
You would never understand.
If your eyes had been on me then,
If only we could laugh together,
I am now lost in the darkness
I wouldn't have wandered.
I sighed deeply and looked up at the sky.
The stars were shining in the cold, clear night sky.
In that starlight, I suddenly,
I thought back to the brief moments I had with you.
How precious those moments were to me,
How much pain remains.
But now, no matter how much I try to remember
Those moments are blurred,
I knew that eventually it would all disappear.
"Honey, I'm so lonely..."
I whispered.
To myself, and to you who may be somewhere.
I miss you and me from that day, and I hate you and me from that day.
But now, I really can't live without you
I was getting used to it.
Even this loneliness eventually becomes familiar,
I spoke to myself and took another step forward.
As the night passes and the morning comes,
The darkness in my heart will disappear someday.
Hoping for that, I took another step, one step at a time.