Doctor: Hand of God
EP 13. Do I even deserve that?
One day, the doors of the hospital were tightly closed.
And a small voice was leaking out, barely audible.
- "...Dad, I told you I wasn't going to the hospital."
박지민
-Why are you doing this to me now, anyway?
박지민
- ...If you do something, you have to take responsibility. You used to ignore it, but now that you look back, it's a bit regrettable, isn't it? Because I got into a good university and a good hospital?
박지민
- You really want to steal it and take it away? Yeah?
박지민
- I have no intention of going there, so please don't call me again!!
Jimin's hands and voice trembled as he raised his voice.
His voice was deeply resentful. His eyes, brimming with tears, were filled with resentment, longing, anger, and contempt. It was an unfamiliar side of Jimin, one he had never shown to anyone.
While Jimin was arguing with someone in the hospital, Taehyung and Namjoon, who had just finished their surgeries, were also walking towards the hospital with tired steps.
김남준
What do you want to eat for lunch?
김태형
Let's order something simple~
- "Don't be obsessed with me, even if it's just for the sake of your dead mother!!!"
김태형
..what...what is it?
김남준
Isn't that Jimin's voice?
The moment when the two people hesitated in surprise,
bang-!!
박지민
...!!
김남준
uh...
김태형
Ji.. Jimin.
Jimin opened the door and couldn't hide his bewilderment at the sight of the two people. His pupils were dilated, and small tears welled up in his eyes.
박지민
...all...
박지민
Did you hear everything?
김남준
...That's...not what I intended..
김태형
Somehow...
박지민
...
박지민
I'll go first. I have surgery...
김남준
....
Jimin avoided their eyes and walked away weakly down the opposite hallway.
김태형
..I'll go and see.
Tadak-
김남준
Hey, Taehyung!!!
김남준
taehyoung kim!!!!
Jimin crouching on the cold hospital stairs.
He looked at his phone without saying anything, and soon, large tears began to flow down his cheeks.
박지민
....
박지민
mom....
김태형
If you cry alone, you will look like a winner.
김태형
What are you doing in the corner of the hospital?
박지민
..taehyoung kim..?
김태형
Coffee. Drink it.
박지민
...thanks
박지민
What about Namjoon hyung?
김태형
To the doctor. I'm going to order lunch, so let's eat together.
박지민
..I don't really feel like eating today, let's eat together
김태형
Eat it anyway. You said you were on duty today.
박지민
Just have some coffee or something.
김태형
....
The trivial conversation stopped, and only silence fell between them.
Taehyung hesitated for a moment, watching Jimin's expression, and then finally began to speak.
김태형
..are you okay?
박지민
what?
김태형
Are you... okay?
박지민
...
박지민
Yeah, it's okay.
김태형
Jimin, earlier...
박지민
I enjoyed the coffee. I really need to go because I have surgery.
Tadak-
김태형
Hey.. Park Jimin!!!
Jimin quickly left, avoiding Taehyung's eyes and giving a small smile. However,
Jimin, in Taehyung's eyes, didn't look okay at all.
Thud- thud-
박지민
...
박지민
'I'm sorry, Taehyung.'
박지민
'I guess I'm not ready to say it with my own mouth yet.'
15 years ago
아버지
"...Park Jimin, why is this question wrong?"
박지민
That's... I don't know...
아버지
"Because you don't know?"
When I was young, I hated the word "I don't know" the most.
It was a cruel thing to say, so I couldn't lie and say I knew, but if I told the truth, I would be punished.
Crack-!!
박지민
Ugh... huh...
My father's rough and scary palm struck my cheek in an instant, and I fell to the floor, swallowing the pain.
어머니
"No, why are you hitting the kid in the face just because he got a question wrong? Hit him in the face!!!"
어머니
"A 12 year old can get some questions wrong!!"
아버지
"You be quiet!!! If a kid who's going to medical school is this wrong, what can he possibly do in high school?!!"
어머니
"Why are you trying to send your child to medical school already?!! Is it normal to not let your child do things he or she likes and make him or her sit at home and study?!!! Is that normal!!!"
아버지
"I told you to get out!!!!!"
widely-
박지민
I'm sorry, Father... I'll do better...
My mother and father, who used to protect me, were always arguing,
All I could do at those times was to quietly please my father, to go along with the merciless devil's words.
아버지
"...If you make even one mistake next time and bring me your test paper, I know I won't stay still."
박지민
yes...
아버지
"really..."
아버지
"They call that a child... tsk..."
박지민
...
My father was the director of one of the most successful hospitals in South Korea, my mother was a renowned lyricist, and I was born between them.
My father wanted me to become a world-class doctor, so he constantly made me study from a young age, and I, who was so young, had no choice but to follow suit.
Then, around the age of 12, they started to strengthen the corporal punishment and confine me.
But it was from then on.
I didn't think of this man as my father.