short story collection

unrequited love

자까

I might swear a little..?

I am Kim Yeo-ju, 18 years old this year.

I go to the same school as my friend Park Woojin.

박우진

Hey Kim Yeo-ju!

여주

What is it...?

박우진

Why are you like this today? It was always like this when I went to school.

여주

...Far away sparrow

박우진

Oh really! It's not a sparrow!

여주

That's right!

박우진

No!

We are fighting so childishly

It's a relationship between a male friend and a female friend.

Just up to there.

Just a friendship, nothing more, nothing less.

Today too, we go to school talking about all sorts of things that are incredibly annoying.

박우진

Hey Kim

여주

Why what.

박우진

Are you doing your homework?

여주

Did you do it?

박우진

Haha, then that's true

여주

No, I'm already in a bad mood, so if you're going to pick a fight, just get out.

박우진

Hahaha who who-

여주

...

I just fell down.

Why are you like this today?

I heard Park Woojin mumbling to himself, but I lightly ignored him and went to sleep, which for some reason never came.

After a while.

Park Woojin, who shakes me up, doesn't know where he's been.

박우진

Hey, why are you acting like this today? Does something hurt?

여주

...You sparrow, far away.

박우진

...That's strange- Hey, is today that day?

여주

...Don't ask so directly. It makes me feel bad... For some reason... And since it's not that day, get out of here~

박우진

...Then where is it!

여주

Oh, I don't know either!

박우진

Why are you so sensitive, our heroine?

여주

...Oh, it's annoying! Get off me!

박우진

...Okay, I understand. You don't look very well today... Get some rest!

여주

...

I don't know why I did this either.

Why did I do this...

I'm sorry to you.

many.

Actually, I may have known the reason.

No, I knew it.

If I'm right, it's because I 'like' you.

So I wanted to turn away.

Because you won't like me.

Because it might just be 'unrequited love'.

Today, I felt that feeling even more strongly.

I couldn't dare ignore that feeling.

Just looking at you makes my heart flutter and beat faster.

So I guess I was intentionally angry at you.

Trying not to show it.

Because in the end, only I will suffer.

I want to give up everything.

I just want to forget everything.

But that doesn't work.

No matter how much I try to erase that feeling, I.

I can't erase that feeling. And neither can you.

I wish I could go back to before I met you.

If only it had been like that, if I had never met you, this feeling wouldn't have even started.

I regret it every day and it hurts again.

by yourself.

Like an idiot.

You don't know anything.

I'm just getting angry at you for nothing.

That's not what I'm thinking.

I don't like you.

I ignore Woojin and say I hate him, but only on the surface.

I'm so excited inside that I can't control my emotions and my heart is pounding.

You don't know this.

I remember the sarcasm I learned in Korean class.

Because that seems similar to my situation.

My feelings for you are growing endlessly

I don't know if you know this day or not, but you are like usual.

Treat me with care.

If I do this, I'll be mistaken.

You're getting better again.

On the way home after school.

박우진

Hey Kim

여주

why

박우진

...Are you feeling better?

여주

...I don't know

I ask again if it's okay.

No. It's not okay. I want to say it right away, but I feel like I shouldn't, so I try to avoid it.

박우진

...Why are you like this today?

여주

...

박우진

Does it really hurt?

여주

...

박우진

Say something. I'm worried.

여주

..?

You're worried.

You really are determined to shake people's hearts.

If this is really the case, what am I supposed to do?

If you do this, I will.

What do I do?

여주

No...ha...no. I'm just not feeling well today. Sorry for getting mad. I'll go first.

박우진

hey!

I was just trying to get out of that situation.

Because I don't think I can hold out any longer.

Today, only things that I feel sorry for happened to you.

I get annoyed and angry for no reason.

And yet you accepted them all.

So it's not that I can't forget...

It's not that I like you more...

I wanted to forget.

I wanted to give up so badly.

Anyway, I'm the only one who likes it and it's hard for me, so what can I do?

I just wanted to give up everything and remain friends with Woojin.

But the feeling of liking someone. It's not something that can be easily given up.

Because of my feelings of love, I only hurt you today.

How selfish.

I even thought about confessing.

But the wall between friends and friendships is not easily broken down.

I can't even try because I'm blocked by that wall.

I hoped the word 'friend' didn't mean anything to us.

But it seems like that won't happen.

Because we are just 'friends'.

No matter how many times I thought about it and how many times I pondered it, the answer was always the same.

'give up'

This was the conclusion I came to.

I've been talking about this all along, but I've come to this conclusion, but I can't put it into practice.

I can't put my thoughts into action.

That's why it's more difficult.

Because it's a situation where I can't do this or that.

frustrated.

I'm afraid that if I confess, our friendship will end.

I'm afraid that if I express my feelings, I'll be crossing a river I can never cross again.

So I've always put it off.

If you keep putting it off, those feelings will only increase.

If you like me, if you have feelings for me too, that would be great.

You may like me too.

You can like me too.

I've had this thought countless times.

But in the end, these things were just empty delusions.

In the end, it was just a one-way street.

It's true that 'unrequited love' is difficult.

it's tough.

It really hurts a lot.

Unrequited love causes more pain than most other things.

It's not easy to fold

But it can't be spread out.

A very difficult situation.

If I just leave it like that, I'll end up suffering more.

I wish it was two-way.

I just wanted Woojin to have even a little bit of feelings for me.

But is that impossible?

Two-way communication was much more difficult than I thought.

It was something too difficult for me to dare to experience.

I, who wanted a 'two-way romance', am now experiencing only a 'one-way unrequited love'.

자까

Something feels strange about the ending...?

자까

Ahem! Anyway, this time it's Woojin!

자까

Is it because I feel like Woojin's portion is small? Haha

자까

Thank you for reading today! Bye, Bobdungis!